2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

fuck up day. i knew dog year isnt the year for me. my aim, acjc, isnt what i expected to be. for once, i thought i could use table tennis/ wushu. but now, all hopes are lost. firstly, losing to some guy who dun even know how to play, worse still, it almost made gess unable to go into nationals. i am still pissed. at myself.and somehow jealous. having seen my junior beating the best player, the feeling sucks, and at the same time, if he didnt, gess can say bye bye to nationals. fucked up man. whats wrong with me? i do not know. seeing my ex coach li shu he, he glimpse at me with tat " what the fuck?" look as i left the table, losing 3:2. when my junior, zaki, who dont even know how to serve a good ball, winning him 3:0.cant believe it. i feel so fucked up. my bat is broken, it needs to be superglued in order to use it again. i seriously wan to quit table tennis, having china players coming down and trashing our asses, the competition here isnt as fun as before, singaporeans trying their best to win, now its different, its china players trying to compete in singapore to get better education and best of all, FREE education. pissed at myself