2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

here i am thinking of stupid things. shes far away from me. is she with him? alone? at the beach perhaps? talking? or taking a stroll and away from the world? taking pictures of each other? smiling, shouting,screaming? or am i thinking too much? sigh. this thoughts filled my fragile mind. breaking my heart each time i think of things like this. is he holding her hand? is he going to confess to her like the many girls he had done this year? i do not know. all i know is, he likes her, and vice versa. its hurting me. really. hurts so bad that i think of it but nothing else other than the stupid quarrel which i laughed at with sean. other than that, its always her her and her. why am i doing this? why am i thinking of all this? shes gone, out of reach. shes so close yet so far from me. theres an invisible wall that stops me from going further. i am taking a deep breath now. hoping everything is just a dream, wake up. i am only in primary school. this is just a long dreadful dream of mine.wake up. hanging on to this broken,torned,burnt rope of mine which was sliced off by her. which i am holding on so painfully that my skin is tearing, bleeding from this old wounds thats flowing thru my veins. why cant i just let go? and get myself a life? why cant i? when the answer's so obvious with a stamp [GONE] printed right on my face ? why? fuck my life.