Thursday, January 31, 2008
i decided to open up my blog again, and all this thoughts to unfold.
i have made the worst mistake of my life, in the past, i always ask myself, why cant i have the same feelings for her? and now when i have, shes gone. lol. bravo. screwed up life, studies stress, unable to change class, can u imagine? the sight.. in class? with some lame malay ass, i dunno if its jealousy, or that i feel his 2 faced, i guess i am just cynical about everything, that everyone does things for a cause and not for others good will. and god i hate it when they pretend to be friends in front of me, upon seeing me, 1 would walk faster den another, and after passing me, they go back tgt, and went the hell noes place. i dont give a damn abt that anymore, its just a malay hooking a big catch in time. whatever it is, his gf doesnt know.
i just dont understand how it all happened, miscommunication? theres no point crying over spilled milk, stand up and walk on bravely. leave the place without looking back.
i am trying but with each day, it gets harder. how can 1 forget? how can 1 be without emotions? i wish there could be a way to do so, i look at things in a very different perspective, yeah, looking into peoples motive in every action they do.i am not park, whos too naive and claims, its impossible! cmon. get yourself a banana milkshake and shut the fuck up. days passed like seconds and before i know it, A levels would be just around the corner, i doubt i could even pass thru that hurdle, O levels was already a big challenge to me, with my teacher ms armstrong pushing me, i could finally score not so bad, and i cant forget what she has done, ms armstrong, mrs palan, ms chng. sigh. its getting better now, i hope.
4:00 AM