Friday, February 29, 2008
omg long dayy........... spa was quite easy for me, other den funny stuffs that happened to zal, his stirrer broke. and the best part was, that my contacts dropped while i was stirring, so it was like. on my googleS? omg. sigh. and i had to do my spa with 1 eye. i was like. panicking? but lucky i wrote all the errors and all before starting the experiment. cool huh? so i tried my best to do and i got 50% yield. yx was rushing la. omg. she couldnt dissolve her solid. den she redo. and ms ng close 1 eye, so nice right? omg. she redo den exceeded the 1.5hr time limit. but she pretend like, give instructions den say write last line. and yx was like still taring her product at the machine.can see she super nervous, after all, she screwed up her phy spa last year and cried. well, had to help kbox auntie check for rats today, quite problematic actually. had to get ladder and all, but she wasnt in a good mood today, so i decided to help her in the best way i can. ((: in the end, no rats found, but odour stays. sigh. and training was a tiresome thing to do today, i was sick and i was made to go on, yeah i could have just opted out, but i didnt want to since tmr got match, and guess wad, MATCH CANCELLED.wtf.ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. sighh
joke of the day: KEN IS HANDSOME. HAHAHAHAHAH
continue your act and make me sad
6:37 AM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
I FEEL SO GOOD RIGHT NOW.its like, the first tiem i feel so confident with my maths. i could do all the questions! ( i hope fullmarks xD) lol. but physics is a direct opposite. oh well, a good balance. lol. damn. i cant win mr low's challenge. nvm! i shall win it next time round.hmmm. todays a long day. stayed in school to play touch, went for jj night. omg. was hell up there. sit down and chill with the AMGS, quite fun man. and the best part was like, when i went over to wei mings og to play dog and bone
weiming, eunice, felicia vs me, francis and the chij pretty girl
eunice: come lets do our battle cheer! *puts hand on top of her head* ALPHA ALPHA ALPHA,*turn ard, every1 stunn. LOL super funny and cute.
chij girl: eh, later they call 1 2 or 3 also you. just go.
francis: eh later i go, u both go stop the person going to contest ok?
LOL. wth. so in the end, we won 5 : 0
due to francis smart decision.
passed our daily lives, completely omitting each others existence.i look at you with such disdain
7:11 AM
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
quite a fun day for me, almost had to go for detention again for ms ng lessons, at start, she quarrelled with me, saying that we shouldnt have the previliege to choose which day to take, ( even though we already had detention ) i was quite pissed, i just walked off without saying anything and i kicked the pipe. tina saw it and she told amanda. haha. wth. but well, thanks for being concern, both of you ((: appreciate it. well, i msged her a super long msg, a formal 1, explaining and at the same time rebutting her. so in the end, it was cancelled and our arguments became a peace talk at 2pm. lol. well, tried to study in sch till 8 like yday, but the classroom had to be locked. oh well, went home instead and i am slacking. omg. i see physics formula, gonna faint. oh my.. sighh.
joke of the day: why is 10 scared of 7?
answer: because seven ATE nine
((:
4:50 AM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
well, got detention due to me and esmonde skipping chem. weiming was like, calling. and i answered.and he said. whispering, "eh next time i call dun answer. ms ng calling" and he put down the fone. i wonder if teapot heard. well, she called again. and after class, she told zb and jianwen that we will have to do detention. well. i took that punishment to my advantage, FREE AIR CON FOR SELF STUDY!! OMG.lol. so nice man. its like, making noise in the General Office, without being scolded. cool right? even the auntie agree with me. haha! well. civics today was total crap. talking about bgr. no comments for that. but well, moving on is part and parcel of life.and i have truly moved on. rugby match against pjc this week sat, i hope i can play well that day ((: going to start a trend. JOKE OF THE DAY!!!
joke of the day: who got conned, the fish or the bee hoon?
answer: bee hoon ( yu pian mee fen )
LOL.
6:19 AM
a poem i wrote afew days ago
time,
slips away.
the present
turns into memories
memories
turns into nightmares
unwanted feelings
unhappy thoughts
unjustified gestures
undesirable actions
solely caused by cold frustrations
millions of daggers
charging forth.
red coloured shields
broken into pieces of tears
as it falls to the ground
bending over,
picking up these pieces
of my shatted heart.
a strong front
a firm mentality
a fragile back
a distort mind
a heavy chest
and a broken heart
verbal plasters
bandages of care
sounds of warmth
and the endless love felt
actions done without a thought
please treasure what you have got
forever ending this sorrow regret
of a human soul
enjoy
feel
understand
touch
what you have at present
for they may not last,
as time pass
5:35 AM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
quite an interesting day for me, studied in lib, played lan, omg . been ages since i did that. and owning noobs isnt fun at all. i mean. literally. 14 0? wth. no challenge.went back to lib and study till 9pm. so overall,i did like, 12 tutorial questions. how great. and ah bao didnt go lib today, so did park. so my notes werent with me. omg. sigh.
joke of the day
yun xiang: eh u noe just now i cant study, cause got 2 girls keep staring at me, like, i can sense it,
everytime i look up , i saw them looking at me. omg
bernard: i think they want to rape you.
LOL. wth. and its like, amanda and xin ee? LOL. i msged amanda about it, and she said i sent wrong person.haha. well, it was quite funny doh, hanging out with people with different personalities than the ruggers and soccer guys. a totally different circle of friends.
lastly, sy showed me some sms abt stomp, someone posting a note saying jjc is wasting water, and with pictures showing sy and jg using the hose. i find it a very stupid way of arguing such stuffs. fail gp huh?
1stly, are we the only jc that uses the water hose? look at hwachong for an instance, they use water during their orientation too, and their water games are supposedly posted on youtube, whereas jjc doesnt do such lame stuffs to increase their popularity. so does that mean that, we jjc students who arent as smart as them, cant use water for the fun ? i mean. yeah, the games i have to admit, we do waste water, how about everything we do? washing cars with a hose? washing dishes on a running tap? yes u can say that all this are minimal water wastages. but look at it this way, an orientation comes 1st a year, washing of dishes are of daily necessity. ( unless u are dirty SOAB) so quantitatively, both are of equal wastage in terms of water wastage. so why dont you do something about it instead of us? stop pointing fingers at jjc, we have made ourselves known to our orientation and our leaders ( although its quite lame and tiring) but yeah, does that mean as a neighbourhood college, we cant be well known? why dont i see RJC or HCJC being criticized about water wastage, about money wastage on building vast facilities? while other JCs do not share those luxury? so those who are smart and intelligent get luxurious treatment? the education itself is screwed up, it is too standardized with all the maths, phy,chem etc. look at the combinations, secondary school with grading due to academic levels, and skills or interests such as art are not widely recognized. also, in jc, not all combinations are satisfied by the student. and we are classified smart and intelligent just by the grades of this tests. scoring well for tests doesnt mean that one is smart or intelligent, they may get lucky and got the questions that they have understood. for example. during o levels, my friend chin whee studied only ONE freaking chapter on social studies, while i studied 7 , and it turned out that his question came out, and mine didnt. moral of the story? tests arent really tests. its a gamble.
so why is the government being so strict in our education. i would like to try asking any grown up adults who have completed their universities to retake the O level paper and the A level paper, their knowledge are not permanent, it is temporary. it would be a miracle for them to score As once more. do we look like we need chemistry if we work as a secretary? nor do we need physics when we are a gym instructor. all this jobs require proof of academic excellence, while what we actually need is the street smartness. such as being friendly to get more friends to do business if u are a business man,ways to attract people to purchase your product if u have something at hand. Being able to protray yourself as trustworthy and reliable so your boss would rely on you and your promotions would be there. the ability to tackle work problems such as daily planners on cutting costs for the company. do all these need principles of physics, chemistry,biology? this applies to only people like doctors, researchers and scientists. yes, no doubt there are ARTS courses, such as lit, econs, geog. but they all apply the same concept. and these subjects are only applicable to very limited jobs like lawyers etc. my parents have complained too, about how they were looked up upon as university graduates, but their income were still lower compared to secondary drop outs. so being good at academic doesnt promise you a promising future, its a gamble in the real world. nothing comes easy just by memorizing.i am at lost with the education system
6:38 AM
Saturday, February 23, 2008
been a long day. had a friendly match with the J5s for rugby, their size are huge, but yeah, we won 40 - 20, its nothing big doh, they haven been playing rugby for 2years, physically better, skills wise they arent very good now. but they made good attempts into scoring that 20 points, while our 40 points were made of mostly forwards. i feel weird, like, most of the backs move i wont be getting the ball, and jian le isnt constant with his skills and esp his confidence, i really wish ken would do soemthing about it. seriously. and coach was quite angry because i took the ball and ran thrice with no support, out of the 3, 2 of which i could have pass to xing lu, but i was thinking, i was near the outline, if i pass, how is he going to run? and he isnt standing steep, sigh. maybe its my poor judgement, even when i scored, coach wasnt that impressed. well, i guess the backs arent the 1 scoring no more this year. went to lib and studied abit, and we watched some shit movie called death of ian stone. wth. its the WORST movie ever. wtf man. i waste $8 for that shit movie. omg. parks fault. arggh
5:01 AM
nice song by Ne Yo, my brother mp3 apparently had it, so i listen throughout the whole journey before reaching home ((:
i cant get it back
but i dont want it back
i realized that
she doesnt know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good guy
She was the bad girl
I'm thinking one gir
lShe thinking me, earl James and jimmy
Yep she had plenty
But love for me,
she didn't have any
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time,
but I guess not yet
She at the bar getting drinks from many men
I'm in the house,
thinking shes with her girlfriends
Trust not knowing,
truly not knowing
I look back now like,
man, I was open
I was inviting,
her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time,
thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong,
but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on
Please don't worry bout me
I'm fine
Only gonna play the fool one time
Trust me when I say
That I'll be OK
Go on girl
The mistake I made is clear
we never should've been together
Thats the reason you're not here
I know that I can do much better
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed
go on girl
4:48 AM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
long day for me, i almost came to school late due to the stupid ns picture shit, and in the end, i print out, mr low said must submit online.WTH. i was damn pissed,not to mention the freaking 1 dollar that he ask me to pay, and i took out my 50 and i got back super small change. screw yourself pearl and ah hwee. i make sure i see your wallet i take your ezlink and laugh! tsk tsk and ms chiew, she was like, trying to act strict just because there was another teacher assessing her in the class, she really suck. cant u just learn how to teach ppl before even teaching? omg. i msg ms chng abt how our class did, well, about the same as her class. omg. and padang rehearsal, i skipped due to some personal reason, only darren knows about it as i was with him just now, sigh. todays a shitty day. so much crap happened. i did econs work and did abit of physics. i maybe trynig to do somemroe physics later if i have the mood. sigh.
how did love ever lost to time?
4:12 AM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I wouldn't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
The End
6:56 AM
woke up at 12 today. was quite late, wenli called and zb said he was going home cause no1 was tehre. oh well, no lib today for me. and i pangseh sy, and amanda + xe to eat my DANGER cake. LOL. wth man. well, my mum was on high streaks today,she wore green, ate green donut , and had green tissue. wads with the green? and the best part, she started playing black jack after 30 years
1st hand : double ace
2nd hand: black jack
3rd hand : black jack
4th hand : 5 cards
and everyone stopped playing after that. cool huh? she couldnt stop laughing after that, well , this meeting alone, the red packets amount to 140$ , just 1 day. power. walked a dog ard. quite fun to have a dog as a pet, it listens to u, comes to u when u called it and so cutee! omg. my dad;s promise of giving me a dog for 9 years have not been met. sigh. my mum cried on the car back home, saying how stress it is and my dad was unable to retire due to his value to the police community. wth. selfish singapore. screw mm lee and the pm. so yeah. singapore sucks, Standard of living is low, pressure high, stress level even higher for education. isnt this a contrast? we asian countries are not as good as the US and yet our standard of education is much higher . isnt this suppose to be the other way round? where they are more stressed since they are technologically forward, while we being the lower status, having lesser pressure in terms of academics? singapore is putting too much stress on the youths for education, and those top scholars? go overseas and not come back. so whats the point of grooming this smart ass ppl when they dont benefit the nations economic growth? bring up the reputation abroad that asians are better? nahh
oh, she is my everythingoh, she is all i need
6:37 AM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
went to lib today and watched jumper. omg that movie is so damn bloody cool man. but the duration is like , 1 hr 20mins? but u have to udnerstand, the movie is cut short cause there is no travelling time, they just move through orbbing/teleport in just a split second, and just by looking at the pictures u can go there alr. wtF?! how cools that man? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how i wish i could do that man. well, went to eat dinner with ms chng and darren today, power, we went to nydc, old memories of my stupidity for my likes to yimin came back. haha. coffeee bean.zzzz. hmm, i reached at 7.20, and we talked till 11.10. power? hahaha. got so much in common mann. lol
8:06 AM
Thursday, February 14, 2008
In the brightest hour of my darkest day
I realized what is wrong with me
Can’t get over you can’t get through to you
It’s been a helter-skelter romance from the start
Take these memories that are haunting me
Of a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors
He’ll never forgive her he’ll never forgive her
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
Sitting by a fire on a lonely night
Hanging over from another good time
With another girl little dirty girl
You should listen to this story of her life
You’re my heroin in this moment I’m lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams
All these drugs all these women
I’m never forgiven this broken heart of mine
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
One last kiss before I go
Dry your tears it is time to let you go
One last kiss before I go
Dry your tears it is time to let you go
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever
One last kiss before I go
Dry your tears it is time to let you go
One last kiss before I go
Dry your tears it time to let you go
One last kiss
7:48 AM
i spent my vday at jurong lib with sy and zb. can u believe that?! LOL. bad luck year. but gambling was good in cny, so yeah. pros and cons. got some cute stuffs from my campers and co, had to wear this badge that says FLOWER POWER.wad a joke, but it was the thought that counts, notes, chocs etc were given out. quite happy but unhappy due to personal stuffs which only 1 would know. yeah. long day today. and yeah. not much to say.
5:20 AM
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
yday i went with shirley to buy her bf vday gift, and she went to club 21 where 1 ugly design shirt, quality so so that costs 300$ no joke. a WHITE jeans, with NO designs costs 800$. can u believe that? who in the right mind will buy that? and i have never seen such brand before, i wonder if it is worth the money on buying all those clothes rather den spending on better looking CHEAPER ones. been a bad day, well, i dont know. ms chng is down, shes got all her illness coming back. i hope she doesnt quit as she plans to, because through my whole jc life, i think shes the only teacher who cares about my well being, personal and so on, even though shes only my PAE teacher. rugby is going good, but it seems our backline just cant get the feel on the game, i guess this year we will be depending on the forwards. studies wise i am still going down, although i passed my maths test and maybe my physics quiz, the lecture test is coming, and i am so dead for chem. my critical mind sets in when i have nothing to do at home.in school i just laugh it off and pass my day at ease, at home i am like a totally different person, i hope its not a different personality. i dont want my old self to come back. but it seems that everything is going back to sqaure 1. i even had to go through jeaneve to ask for her well being. powerr. but moving on is getting easier and i have learnt to let go. the past just creeps back whenever i see her in class,and even when i am alone. this years vday is so screwed. first time i had a date, a date with a guy to study in the library. but look at the bright side, no spending of money, no wasting of time, concentrate on studies. i hope i can achieve that.
5:05 AM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
waaaaa fkkk.. tmr phy quiz, i did the worst thing i could have done to mr low, i came for the lecture, but i sat somewhere else, so when he counted the numbers in the class, he realized i was missing, so funny man. looking him getting all pissed and angry and rushing out of the lt, den i msged him that i am in the lt and he came back searching high and low and finally he nodded when he saw me waving at him frantically. haha. my civics teacher is damn gullible and cute for a grown man. anyways, i did my econs in 3 hours, wow, 3 hours. imagine it was A levels. i would fail like crazy. and it wasnt good quality work, it was like, half hearted? but i used 3 pages to write all, i hope its relevant cause i think i wrote the same for every question. LOL. shit. i feel bad for skipping chem today, but i hate chem nowadays, i must catch up with that sub, and physics. mr low said if we score A for the lect test, NO NID GO LECT! omg. if only i could score, 1 more week to study. damnnn
your presence still lingers here
3:28 AM
Friday, February 08, 2008
went out with mum and bro today in the early morning. go bai nian. and got like only. 3 red packets which worth 24 dollars.lol. sian 1/2 whole day man. till 7pm. but met some of my childhood friends doh. quite fun ((:
The question is she needed?And decide all the man I can ever be.
3:43 AM
Thursday, February 07, 2008
cny is here, and this shit blogger went bongers and my post was deleted. sigh. woke up late, didnt visit much relative houses, i sincerely hope this year is not as bleak as the last.
could it be?that nothings gonna changecause time has got a way of taking backeverything you thought you hadcan you see?the girl you used to bethe one I lost when I let go of youoh whatever happened tomary jane
9:32 AM
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
well,been a great day today, getting the hang of econs, but it isnt to a great extent doh, but hey, there arent any miracles on everything you do in life. i should work hard on this.i feel screwed up during chem, its like, i did sstudy for most of the chem stuffs for exams, but i jsut dun understand why i cant score? and now teddy bear/teapot dun really like me, as in, literally. LOL. well, i guess i have to live with it now.and worst of all, i cut my hair into some shit hair. LOL. i think it will be the joke of the day tmr.
节拍器在悉数我的哭泣,可不可以,不用再等着你靠近?我可以安静聆听时间倒转的旋律涨停。
7:14 AM
Monday, February 04, 2008
todays the longest day of my life man, passed amanda her medication, and she was looking awfully bad, but her smile still shines. haha. well, shes very particular in not making any1 care for her i guess. well, yx came late and ate her breakfast with me, and yeah, talked crap in maths class and i guess. but well, avoidance is whats bugging me, sigh. 如果说,有什么事我会难过,是你假装不认识我,我假装不认识你,sigh. thats bad enough. rugby training was a disaster, all the wrong moves, drop balls and miscommunications. i could see the coach frustrations and disappointment, many have turned complacent with the wins recently. i hate that type of mentality. and i cant wait to get my own compressor, i always get tired with my black long sleeve shirt, it is too hot but it protects me from cuts and bruises. haha. tired.
7:08 AM
Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We’d spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin’ tea in bed, watchin’ DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You’d take me out shopping
And all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could tell that I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you’d make that face you do
There’s no-one in the world who could replace you
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
7:07 AM
Sunday, February 03, 2008
studied at lib today. my day was great, ms chng msged me abt gp and i realized there was really some1 who cared. park came for 10 seconds before leaving, he had a tuff with lynette yday. and he envied me for being single. well, i begged to differ, it isnt a nice feeling when you lost some1 you loved, treasure what you have at present and not regret in the future. because when you do, it may be too late to turn it back to the present. sy and i talked abt all this today, funny. we had this connection between us, where i noe what he thinks and we both udnerstand each other. bao bao was at lost. haha. what he said was true, if only the timeline changed, like movie maker, switching 1 to another so both would be able to form a pair, yeah, why are our feelings so different in just a short time? well, its time to move on i guess. went home and played dota with sy, a very bad decision, lol. sigh, i hope this week gets better. i wonder what happens during V day, me and sy had a date, at the lib, do emo studying. LOL. i hope that works.
6:09 AM
Saturday, February 02, 2008
well, played soccer with the serenity peeps and some others. been a long time since i met them and i am really glad i did. forgiven marcus, and soccer today was somewhat fun before the malay guys came along and play roughly. i wished it was rugby, and i can now conclude that soccer is really different from rugby, the difference is, the commitment of the ball, and the sudden disadvantage of tackling someone for the ball. LOL. well, went to seoul garden with the ruggers after soccer, ate like, monstrous amounts of food, due to the starving without breakfast and the playing of soccer. and with nevin,bush and ken on a table, its still hard to compete who can eat most. played with the food, mixed around and kaisheng drank egg white with pepper, thinking it could give muscles in 1 day. LOL. it seems life getting brighter this days, especially weekends, when i dont get to see my class people. cny is coming, everythings in a rush. even studies. i wonder if i can cope this year. sigh. retaining would be better i guess.
5:23 AM
Friday, February 01, 2008
well, i failed chem test, 12/35. sigh. i realized no matter how much i study for that subject, i just cant get it right for once. petty mistakes which causes 1 to 2 marks, but accumulated, it ranges from 6 to 8 marks. thats what happened in that test,
i could have passed, but
could, everyone can say that.been a long day, played badminton with my new found brother minhazul, the guy who bullied me since p1 to p2 have become 1 of my fren, wow. i just found out , badminton is a fun game, when its not competitive, and when everyone is of same standard as u. haha. todays pt was slack, 5 km from jjc to hongkah, it was a slow 1, took 30mins. with the half the team, but it became worse when i asked for personal PT for vertical marathon, and the captain agreed, but as a whole team. sigh. the blame came to me. 5X of 11 flooors opposite jj. before heading home.
if there were something i would feel bad about,
thats when you feint pretence not knowing me,
and when i feint pretence not knowing you..
3:17 AM