2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

You Understand Me
At Least You Say You Do
Lately Thats Enough For Me
Looking For Perfect
Surrounded By Artificial
Your The Closest Thing To Real I've Seen
Im Sure Everyone Has Their Problems
Thats A Given
Yours Are The Easiest To Tolerate
This Wasnt What We Was Wanting
How We're Living
Lets Take This Good Enough And Turn It To Great
Baby Understand...
This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It
Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt
We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl
But We Gotta Make It Work
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
Sometimes I Love You
More Than You'll Ever Know
Other Times You Get On My Nerves
That's Just Reality
No, It Can't Always Be
Kisses, Hugs, And Beautiful Words
You Was Looking For Your Friends
What You Found Is A Papa With Potential
And No, I Know I Ain't Perfect
But I'm Around
Girl Time And Patience Is Essential
Baby Realize...This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It
Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt
We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl
But We Gotta Make It Work
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
Thick And Thin,The Bad Outweighs The Good Sometimes
That Doesn't Mean We're 'spose To Give It Up
My Problems Are Yours,
And Yours Are Mine
This Can Only Be As Good As We Both Make It
Guess Sometimes Its Gonna Hurt
We Can Be As Happy As We Want To Be Girl
But We Gotta Make It Work
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh
We Gotta Make It Work...
Ay Oh Ay Oh Oh



Looking back if we had one more night to spend
I would steal every second
I would never let it end
Like the taste of your lips
Was a gift to drink you away
I will always remember and I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind
With you gone it plays on
Its so hard to move on
I want to but i wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
Well I try to but I wanted you
What I miss overall
Is a smile I cant replace
Cause it starts in your eyes
And it filled up all the space
I will always remember
And I know that it goes with me
I will never leave this part of you behind
With you gone it plays on
Its so hard to move on
I want to but i wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
It aint no mistake
I'm here in this place
And I'm waiting around for you
And I cant help it
I'm still searching
For someway to get to you
I will always remember,
remember
With you gone it plays on
Its so hard to move on
I want to but i wanted you
Now you stay in my head
I'm not over you yet
I try to but I wanted you
I wanted you,
I wanted you
I will always remember
remember..



played badly today. although i was leading 2 :0 , i lost 3:2. it was quite a shock when i lost. and i let the table tennis team down. however they won 3:2 in total. but still, i still find that its my fault today. sigh. rushed back to jj in a cab which cost $23 dollars and found out there wasnt a game at all. double sigh. but well, all this, are just minor set backs. overall, my day was good. ((: got soya bean xD and a funny lil elephant. haha. lalaaaa. and to those who msg me, thanks a million, really. i was quite demoralized awhile ago until i on my hp and found u guys/girls are there when i am down. although i am not always with the team and i even made u angry for some1, u still bothered to msg. haha.thanks once again



did some chem today. i cant understand why i still dun get it, even though my teacher went thru, even when i did it yday, i couldnt do it today. sigh. went for tt training today. gonna have acjc match tmr. gonna play doubles. sigh.tired.



slacked the whole day at home. cant believe i woke up late and my tutor was waiting for me =.= wth. zzz. was empty in the head during the first 20mins of the tuition, after that i caught up, yeah. i think the test would be ok for me. i still feel bad not going for training. i wanted to go, for 2 reasons, season is here, backline isnt ready. and my dad is the power. spent the whole day palying crisis core, and i realized i overshot some stuffs, which means i cant get my strongest armor. and i ahve to replay the whole fucking game. ZZZZZZZZ.. lazy alr. just complete teh game and be done with. sigh. means i cant fight the ultimate boss. oh well. nvm, just a game anyway. wednesday MI.





give me strength, give me hope.



training started off well today until the rain came. and i aint the packleader, i guess ken says its because everyone is listening, but i doubt thats the reason, i think kenny and jianle are unhappy due to my teachings and all. and yeah, i am newer than them, i learnt rugby for not more den 1 year. i feel the backlines still ahve teh same problem. we are constantly going back to the same problems. i find the move i created are based on simplistic moves rather den the previous moves jl created, and further more, my move creates an extra man, jl move kills off 1 man. i dont know, i just feel its easier to execute those simple moves due to the fact that it doesnt need any preparation on where to stand and all. and its proven to be good when my team used it on the touch match for fun. but well, i dont know. maybe i am wrong, i am inexperienced anyway. i got over the fact that i should tackle my teammates today, went full on tackling, but i feel its not enough, i am tackling J1s, and kin onn etc, i want to tackle someone like nevin size, i want to tackle someone bigger than me, stronger than me, faster than me. i want to learn how to kill off this effect that, wow, they are big, ball shrinks. zzzz. those are stupid thoughts backline. stop making mistakes, stop arguing that it isnt your fault. i just cant find how the backlines are going to perform in this kind of state, to be frank.

standoff :
bad points:sleeping in the game, kicking difficulties, inability to read game
good points: able to play positions like wing and centers brilliantly, and good ball handling

so a question, why play standoff?


inside center:
john:
bad points: cant run, ball handling rusty alil
good points: crash hard. able to coordinate and reacte quickly to sudden change

kenny:
bad points:drop balls, constantly arguing, crash softly,needs constant reminder during match
good points: kicking superb, great in size and able to sprint.

outside center
good points: able to run.
bad points: somewhat individualistic, performance fluctuate, reaction time slow after 40mins
of game

wingers:
none: reason? they always cant get the ball

fullback:
good points: improving fast, kicking much better,good tackles
bad points: constantly forgetting his role as a fullback and to set wingers to replace him after his
down

for now ,this is what i see in our backlines. wrong or right,i do not know. but what the backline's problem now is the fact that everyone wants to lead the backline, i dont mind not leading, but i want quality leaders, not someone who is a figure head who put in no efforts in improving the standards.
i have been thinking, why last year we didnt have a session like how we backs have extra trainings now? why are we holding on luck at the very last minute when season's arriving that we then want to do this training and hope we can improve significantly? even now, there are people complaining. and worst off, i feel like i am deproving. bad sign



i feel like puking now )): i played crisis core FF7 for quite long on the car, and my dad drives fast, now i feel giddy. damn. the game is damn nice and cool man.. just alittle problem with the gfs, u cant summon them, and also your limit breaks, it depends on your luck. and you are like ditto, u copy people's limit break and use them. cool huh? the graphics are damn good, for a psp, the exact same quality as Advent Children.

ok, i stumbled upon a folded note during the boring maths lecture. and it reads

hello
hi
hey do u have nickolodean?
yeah but its at my gramps
oh. okay.
i wanna study soon, i wanna score well for A levels!
yeah. we should be hardworking, and i think we should study together after school when class ban is over.
oh okay.
hey, do u want me to ask the guy beside u to switch places with me so i can talk to u better?

and it ends of there. what kinda shit note is that? J1s.....


and i guess, people around me are different right now, i mean, some. the sudden difference that is,not saying names, but the code name ken came out, CCC and september, yeah , upset about the thingy i guess, whatever man. i have taken things to my stride. i think its the time i shouldnt play the mr nice guy, always apologizing to people who dont deserve them. seriously. i think i am changing, critcal thinking still, but to a different perspective. why let myself get hurt? why dont YOU get hurt. yeah. thats much better. fuck my past. its the present thats all about



thanks for the extra da bians.. ((:








training today was a tire. and i dont know if i have the backlines respect to even command them today. jian le kept giving me problems to my decisions, quite logical, but could sense his unhappiness in me being a pack leader instead of him. ran quite afew backline moves, its quite good, those moves of m1, we will have an extra 2 men unless they are fast enough. and kenny's feeling the pressure of john. well, i got a problem with tackling when i am tired, i just dont understand why, 2 j1s ran past me today, thats super embarassing, after which i was pissed and started bear hugging em. sigh. hope all goes well and backs would be good to go.

1 more month.



this is ironic. there are times where people look to me when their emotional, and what hits me most, was this question

how did u get over this hurdle? how did u treat this so simplistic and relatively easy to do?

i realized, sometimes, i couldnt, sometimes i just break down. and just reflect on my actions. it pains me, look at yourself, claiming i poke into your privacy where here u are, doing the same to me. sigh. where did the old you go? i guess now its easier to break this rusty chains of yours, since the love has turned into disdain. you arent you no more. thats a fact

i have been consoling many in terms of emotional problems and relationship problems. and i realized, my advice given to them arent similar to the advice i have given to myself, how is that so? how did i pass each day, with a smile on my face? i reflected on this, and i realized, maybe i am hiding behind a mask. but no, its rugby, its my friends and most of all, its for myself. i promise, i wouldnt shed a tear for you no more. nor should i get emotional.

went to sick bay today to get some rest. was dead tired, and 5 people shared a room, 3 on the bed, me winston and webster ( how we squeezed, i do not know) and we slept while park and nevin played psp. the teachers were not happy, they constantly checked on us, and 1 even asked me to go to the girls sickbay to slp. luckily i didnt go, because fiona came and she slept there. imagine, a guy and a girl =.=" zzz. thats stupid.

watched soccer match today. they lost 1: 0, due to an unlucky fluke shot the ac lobed over and scored. well, thats something we ruggers should learn, the ball is round, anything can happen, even if they are ACJC, supposedly prestigious, they were shocked by jjcians today. we must give it our all to every match, complacency should not be present. concentration. focus. top 4!

Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can't explain myself at all.

And all the wants And all the needs

All I don't want to need at all.

The walls are breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe it's best to leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight It ends tonight.

A falling star At least I fall alone.

I can't explain what you can't explain.

You're finding things that you didn't know

I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight

won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side

It's better than being on your side

It's my fault when your blind

It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside

Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight, It ends tonight.

Just a little insight

won't make this right

It's too late to fight It ends tonight,

It ends When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight, It ends tonight.

i guess everyones awake now, after the coach debriefing today in class. out of the knowledge he taught us, we could only retain less den 43% ( thats what he state). and the fact that we have to look upon ourselves before even saying mi and cjc are no problem to our plate finals. yeah. we will work hard. i suppose. but as a team.

i apologized to those unaware truggers about my previous posts, once again, i have to stress, it was certain people whom jeered at us , and cheered for the other. respect or not, we really dont bother for the reasoning, for now. let the matters rest, its up to u to bring up grudges or hatred. we wouldnt bear any grudges to you girls, even though some of u girls shouted out "hey so many hookers here" when some of the guys walked past, it takes two hands to clap. one way or another, one party have to give in, and we dont want any disharmony among other ccas.

yes, i have caused you to cry, yes i have made everything worse for you. no matter what reasoning i have, u would brush it aside and not give a damn about it. hate me if u want. i dont see the point of me reciprocating that into a burst of fiery that you are wrong and i am correct about what happened. everyone has his own point of view, and normally, no1 can change that mentality. i doubt i can change yours. you arent the only one who cried. you were the one who wanted to try it out even when i told u i treated u as a friend.is that the definition of 2 timing? yes the gf is insecure, as of the bf is insecure after how your feelings change so fast from the first guy, to the 2nd guy and to me. and now, i dun even know whether u have feelings for anyone. the past is a blurr to me, as it is to you. and digging up the past wont do too much good. let it be hatred, let it be anger. i am sorry to bother you. the more i do, the more upset you get. so put it this way.




i dont bother now. so be happy about it.






i can feel your pain and hatred when u walked past me today.



i have to apologized to truggers as not all were there.i am pissed after that day, every rugger was pissed that day. if u bear grudges, i wont blame u. and i apologize for comparing you all as hookers, but rather, unlady-like. yeah. it slipped out of my mind, nevertheless. its your decision to think what u thought happened that day. i cant equate truggers just because minority were doing weird things that do not carry themselves lady-like. and mind you, your comments on us were being heard by benched players during the match. ohh, ruggers are childish. ohhh.. soccer players are childish. scold us if u like, try playing in the field, controlling the pack, with illnesses, against a team whom u think is good when all they do is punch in scrums, step on players. yeah. look up to these unchildish players if u want. look down on us if u want. " dont gain our respect" yeah. we dont. because season aint here. we will show u results. we will make it to top 4, or retain the plate champions our seniors have achieved.lets see what youve got to show



lib studying today. was quite boredd. after tricking ken,darren, xinglu, winston yday during the msn conversation. it was quite hilarious doh, lol. darren, me , ah bao, nevin and weixin went today. studied chem ionic and chemical equilibria. omgg. stupid chapters. seriously. and i realised my tutor didnt really teach me the chapters since i said i udnerstand them. shit. stupid move. wasted the first lesson like that. in the end, went with my og mates, since they went there to study and i taught them maths and chemistry. oh man.. cant believe i am teaching now even when i am not good at those subjects in j2. well, still i got the answers ((:



the future is made of actions of the present,each and every one, the choices of moment inadvertently strung together to produce a desire trail. to live each and every day in the best possible manner would afford him a life without regret, and this life is the key to acceptance of inevitable death.


its difficult to win every battle for every friend.it is difficult to accept and understand your own limitations, and with them,the recognition that while u try to do the best you can, it often prove inadequate.



the game today wasnt well planned like the one i had last night. strike balls werent heard, the whole match consist of individual plays by ken and zaid. the first match was played with the lions. they played dirty but we have to accept the fact that it is not a visible foul for the ref to see. we played badly, i couldnt speak for the first 10mins due to my throat problems, i cant get rid of the sore throat and the cough. both came together during the match and i almost puked. i let the backlines down today as a pack leader.(deleted*)how we ruggers train, how much blood and sweat we sacrificed? how eager we are to win, but yet looking at afew faces as they felt the lost of confidence in just afew minutes to the game. even with half my eye sight for the match earlier, with my illness. i still played, although it wasnt good, i know my faults, i know my errors. in just 1 month, the season will be here, and i dont want to regret that , oh, i should have played more. my triumph winger, SICK. how sickly can he be? count kenny out since his back is important. everyone have injuries, just they do not show it physically. all that counts is the mentality we have. i have experienced first hand on what confidence may play a part in a competition, last year NYJC went into top 4 in table tennis, not by skill, but sheer will and determination, every ball won, was as if they won the competition, be it they are losing by afew, or winning by afew. their cheers rang the halls of chung cheng sec. all we need is to shape our mentality, play their psychology warfare. and we are on our way to the top 4. i just hope everyone wakes up, especially the backlines, and afew forwards who are taking it easy as of now.



tmr is the match, and here i am still not resting at 2.30am. i am not playing, but rather, reflecting on myself on my past. my studies arent doing well, and i am trying hard to bring it up. but i cant concentrate in studying for more than an hour without going to the library.
the competition for rugby is coming up, and so is table tennis. they are putting me in doubles with feric, my senior. i respect him alot, more than any other seniors i have known. since psch he have been taking care of me as well as menghan, and have been doing the shit jobs while we benefited from it. hes a level results wasnt that good, he is hardworking, i just dun understand why he didnt score. so here he is, coming back to play for us. and mr goh being selfish for his own ambitions to get into top6 in nationals with me and feric in the team. why cant you play the game with your own capability and not ask players who have graduated or have quitted the team?? theres a reason why i quit. because i dont want to play it anymore. at least, competitively.
rugby is a tiring sport, but its one that builds you, physically and mentally. one must have the confidence to win, one must have the desire to win, the hunger of the ball, the passion for the sport. i hate people who plays for the sake of the name ruggers, i hate it when people play for the sake of playing. " i cant take it, i need to drink water" " i cant train too long, i got outing" what kind of competitive, passionate player would state such thing when season is only a month away? i wonder why these people are in the main team while those who have passion for the sport arent. this is complacency. we should drive these thoughts out. for starters in competitive sports. complacency and arrogance are always in the way.
i walked pass loykee chicken rice today while choosing specs ( apparently my mum disagrees with the specs since its exp. whatever) the memories of the time she just did a soft rebond and was eager to show me her new hair came rushing back to me.it aches, but i have to let go. feelings change in time. even when i held the og bbq, i went to the video shop we used to go, holding hands, laughing as we chose weird shows and try to watch them all in 1 day. i walked into subway at yishun, i couldnt help but thought of the time i had to call my friends to ask wheres the nearest subway since u wanted to eat that and nothing more. while planning on booking the chalet for the year end holidays, the bicycle rentings, the nap on the rock at east coast park, is still fresh in the back of my head. the sunglasses, you chose, i didnt dare to tell you it was broken during the police leadership camp i went a year ago, the guide stepped on it accidentally, i shouted at him, although it wasnt his fault. i was younger than him, everyone was shocked by my sudden outburst, but the glasses werent just glasses. it was the glasses you bought, the glasses you gave. even then, i brought it back, kept it in the cupboard, not forgetting how u used to try it on, with your lovely smile under those shades. i went to coffee bean at KL with the ruggers, it looks the same in westmall, i stoned for a moment, reliving the memories i had when u passed me that card of apology, with the acronym and the never falling cat on the ball figure, its still with me , mentally, for my friend have taken it into custody to prevent anymore of my own disdain when i view it over and over again when it was in my wallet. the last movie we watched, at cwp, the last card you gave, the picture i have. all it is now were just broken memories of the past. i want to remember the good things, just the good things. of you. even though, those messages you sent, were of burning arrows shot towards me, i received it with delight, for you still bother to reply me. this isnt an emotional post. but a post which i am stating what i have done, what i have felt, and what i have let down. i shouldnt this, i shouldnt that, excuses, plenty to find. feelings, none to replace.


am i suppose to be happy? all i ever wanted, it comes with a price.



i have been slacking for the whole week in terms of studies. i dont know why, but yeah. i didnt even touch anything. sigh. well, i am going to play doubles for table tennis, i hate playing doubles. but i cant commit myself to train to be a more reliable singles player. but well, rugby is all i am thinking. bah! i am hoping for more trainings in backs. did some catching and kicking today. now my ankle hurts, my knee seems to be making weird noises as i walk. i hope it doesnt pop. match against the touch rug coach team on saturday. wanted to go see the bball match in the morning, but i got a match to play. rahhhh.. i want to win, whether or not, their skills or experience are beter, confidence, determination and the will to win is enough. i hope jianle and kenny wouldnt drop and be demoralized like the SAS match.





假装多好.



tired out today.went for rug training. my thighs hurt and they ah black. mythigh black mythighblack. LOL. and i am thinking that my ankle's poppin anytime soon if i get tackled once more. was the pack leader today during training. i realized jianle's pain in being a standoff. but i feel i can handle it with more practice, maybe 2 to 3 would do good. it takes alot of observations from the forwards and the backs. and the most important of all, the coordination of the forward pack with the backs. i realised, in practice, 1 call for strike ball is enough for the ball to be delivered. at match, it takes 5 and more calls to get the ball.by that time, the oppositions would be ready for everything. i can conclude, i am quite individualistic although i keep trying not to, but it hits me when nevin scolded me for running alone towards the backs. i saw a loop hole, but i should think for the team instead for myself. yes theres a loophole, but once i get caught. its over. its hard to coordinate the backs, standing steep, reading the game, and making moves to counter their defences. i couldnt think that quick, let alone think when i am not the standoff and without the whole view of the gameplay. sigh.and worst of all, mr goh called me for table tennis today. he wants me to train tmr. i feel that i should just tell them i dun want to play. i really cant spare the time off just to train for a sport i have no passion in no more. i only want the fun of it, not for competitiveness. sigh. study is priority.


STUDY YEEMINN. PLSS. STOP THINKING OF STUPID THINGS....



failed chem. sian. 10/35. power .. today maths even worse. although i could do most of the questions. i didnt have the confidence i had the last test to score A. my dad got me a chem tutor, some rjc graduate. i dont know if it will help, but we shall see this weekend on the first lesson.

rugby is coming up, table tennis too, so much stress. should have gone poly.



training today was quite alright. did some tacklings and team run. i just cant help but to look at the problems of the backlines.
kaisheng
-fumble balls
jianle
- kicking problem
-no trust with the backlines
-individualistic
-unable to read game
kenny
-always want to kick
-theres a lag time
-need constant reminder to run
- doesnt take hes man down
-drop balls
me
-problems with communication with the standoff
-mistackles
-drop balls
-individualistic
-wants to play everything
-blunt at scolding every 1
-constant fluctuation of my performance
webster
-always quarrelling
xinglu
-doesnt remember calls
-individualistic
zhishen
-drop balls constantly
-lag time
i hate this, i really hate our backlines. not by person, but by our performance what can i do to help? what can WE do to help the team? i dont want the backline to be deemed unreliable and we always have to use our forwards to score tries."dun let backline play,we play first"fuck them. fuck them. i want our backline to play, i want the backlines to score, i want the backlines to improve. but where do we start? seasons in a month time.sigh.




why are you here? constantly reminding me of my loss?



back from msia. kinda suck, went to the exact same place as i did last year with the tt guys. well, this year the standard dropped, our coach didnt bond with us, and yeah. it wasnt that great actually, the food didnt taste great, we didnt see bapohs, and i didnt eat my durians. sighhh. and most of all, i played like shit during the match at KL. i had a 2 second delay in the match and i felt damn shag even after the warm up, and coach was damn pissed with me. i miss tackled 3 times and i almost caused a try if not for kin onns tackle. in the end , we won, but i didnt feel good about it. congrats to kin onn for the man of the match. thinking back, i realised i missed out so many opportunities, now every1 have their own partner, and i am here, all alone, missing you. and it sucks . getting over now, moving on. but i have learnt my lesson. i will treasure her the next time round, and i will not lose her so easily




be gone.



dilemma
its weird, i feel damn shitty. its like, i am in rugby and i am in table tennis. i cant completely forget the sport i use to love, but the present team needed me. the teacher in charge told me alot of stuffs too. sigh. i really feel shit now.









pls go away.



got back results today. i got a D for chinese. OMG. i am like. WTF? how did i score so high when i normally fail or just pass my chinese? LOL. but sad to say, some others didnt score well, esmode scored S and noelle scored D. sigh. i didnt dare to approach her since we arent in talking terms still, but we did play netball tgt and i passed her afew balls to shoot. in the end, i smsed her trying to comfort her as much as i could. and now we are friends. i wonder if it can be happening, and my feelings may come back. so pls, oh pls. dun come back and let me get hurt. ive gotta move on.but theres always a bad thing showing up, rugby match today wasnt a good game. played lousily, couldnt tackle. i know anything i say now is just a fk up excuse, but i just dunno how to improve. i want to, but i just fear the fact that i missed tackle afew times. sigh. got back my psp, but i realized i was stupid enough to lend yx my memory card. wad a dumb arse.




will u be there when i fall?



tmr theres chem test. and i didnt even try the tutorial, let alone complete my revision. sigh. no mooodddddd



first time noelle communicate with me since god knows when. went to photocopy gp and she turned ard and said she wanted 1. lol.without verbally saying of cos. lol. today must buy 4d. ruggers fought against each other twice. 1st 1 is with me and kaisheng. 2nd was with winston and zuu. lol. sigh. tireddd



slp for 2 hours yday. had a bad day after that supernatural encounter. sigh. went to school with a heavy heart due to the lack of slp. omg. i am practically dozing off as i type this post. sigh.the day went by as usual, jsut that i got kicked out of the lt due to not completing the us remedial programme, which i feel its utterly useless, i scored my A not because of the bloody remedial, but the fact that i place further emphasis to maths and with a much serious approach. and mr low's wife was like, yelling at me. who the f she think she is? so what if i didnt do those useless work of yours? as if i will score if i did.



MAYBE this decision was a mistake.
You probably don't care what I have to say.
But it's been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore,
do you?
Swear that I'm not trying to start no trouble.
Tell your bolster he can relax.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise,
There's a question I just gotta ask.
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore,
do you?
I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times I made you cry.
And I don't mean to interrupt your life.
I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore,
do you?



long day for me mannnnnnnnnnnn. btw, apparently, i didnt score full marks for maths, sigh. disappointment. i got 27/30, and i got 20/50 for physics. SIGHHH. shitty. seriously. i think i have to buck up on physics, and chem esp suck to the core. sigh.was like, trying to msg xiao wei all the questions for gp content quiz during the quiz itself. pro am i? and i find it weird, like , when i walk pass her, wanted to say hi la, but she didnt=.=" and it happened again during training water breaks, and when she was studying with noelle. how weird. the only time she said hi was when i was doing pc and she was alone. =.=" well, she looks much better with her straight hair. hmmm. went out during the 1 hr break to find yx, passing her the notes for econs test, she got rashes, i wonder how, and yeah. went all the way to her house below, she even asked, u still remember? LOL. wth. my memory isnt that bad, although that doesnt apply to chem and phy. LOL. she gave me a packet of chocolates, i think i gonna keep dem in the cupboard like the m&ms she gave me lsat time. i am beginning to wonder about the backline problems, are we an asset , or a liability to the team? sigh.



JOKE OF THE DAY: if u see a 10 dollar note, and a 2 dollar note on the floor, which 1 will u pick up?

answer: BOTH lA DUMB



well,amanda didnt turn up today. gramps bday. oh well, went early today and studied with sy and ys. got mixed up with the names when i talked to either of them. sigh. ss came in the afternoon and omg. i spent 6.45 for oat bar and soya milk, 9 dollar on kfc , 3.50 for ban mian. omg. i am 1 fat shit. LOL. met xiaowei and she rebonded her hair. omg. she look prettier now ((: and yeah, i got her number from sy, and sms her asking about noelle, well, noelle got all her facts wrong. couldnt bother about anything now. i have gotten over.finally ((: moving on man. not for another girl. just wanting to pass the day happily ((: there are pros and cons in having a relationship, pros: having some1 to care dearly for you, some1 whom u can rely on, some1 u would see waiting for u after training which brings u a smile in your face, some1 to hold u when u are in trouble. and some1 to talk to. cons : need to spend time with her, money etc, opportunity costs with the time spent with your frens, no freedom on ec-ing girls . and the list goes on

ok anyways.went to eat with ms chng again with darren today. omg. it was like a total rip off ? that lousy shit place. it sucks so badly, with the price not even matching its quality! and best of all, A CUP OF COLD WATER IS 50 CENTS WHO THE HELL PAY FOR COLD WATER IN A RESTUARANT. was kinda pissed actually, a bowl of INSTAND noodles and a bowl of rice costing me $14, i will never set foot on that shitty place ever again.



went to lib today, didnt even do much shit about anything. omg. sigh. i am so afraid of block test now, fail = go j1, i wanna cont j2, finsih a levels. go ns, hope to go in air force, if not, serve ns , go for pilot course overseas. and be a pilot. i love flying. i dont know why, but i dunno if i got the cut to get in. my degree is 300. and i only cleared my phase for syfc. sigh. well nvm about that. today we watched the eye. not that scary doh. but park was like, damn scared?
park: is it over is it oveR? ( holding my arm and covering his eyes)
LOL
and the best part

park: we should watch a horror movie, i cant take ghost movies
ym: why?
park: because horror movies are not ghost movies man. horror movies are just scary.

LOL. wth