rugby was a mess today. drop balls and errors of basic rugby . sigh. i could see coach disappointment in our performance today. he even use himself as an example to crash and even lead the backlines during practice. i feel embarrassed. esp with my drop balls. injured or not, those are still excuses. i want that win, i want the plate champions. action speaks louder than words.
sometimes i feel, i express myself as if nothing is wrong to others, when i am always down, just to prevent the emo + another emo person. putting a strong front, just to be there, as a shoulder to cry on. but why is it always, the shoulder u cried on isnt me ? i see my friends, my close friends, going down. one by one. even called, and cried, but didnt explain. i really dont understand. what are friends for?
why am i always like this? why do i have to suffer once again.
leave.
some times I just felt I could give up
razorblades.
8:57 AM
Yeah, Yeah Walking example of you Wait for the silence Talking backwards to you It meant nothing to me Watching the world fall on you I'm keeping my eyes closed Now I can see what this means to you It meant nothing to me
[Chorus] This wasted so many nights and again I've wasted so much time on a friend Too young, too proud to understand So this is the end
Perfect timing for you You'll run 'til your legs break So here's my reminder of you It meant nothing to me
[Chorus] This wasted so many nights and again I've wasted so much time on a friend Too young, too proud to understand So this is the end...GO!
We should've seen this coming We should've seen this... YEAH! YEAH!
[Chorus x2] This wasted so many nights and again I've wasted so much time on a friend Too young, too proud to understand So this is the end
YEAH! This is the END!
8:56 AM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
i feel i am lagging behind in studies, physics i am so far behind. way way back.i think i am on par with the J1s now if its in terms of knowledge in physics. slowly catching up chemistry, maths i am lagging behind from regression onwards. sigh. and vectors and complex numbers are the 2 most important chapters. omg. i feel so stressed.
training was slack today, but i am still disappointed with myself with my mistackles and bad plays during acsib match. that earned me the bench warmer title. well, work hard cougars. nyjc is ours. play hard.
for you (: Whistle For The Choir (((((:
5:19 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008
kinda pissed with my gp teacher, wth. i went for class for the first time since theres TCA, and it was postponed. so i sat there, being obedient since both the teacher and i have problems with each other, and the next thing she said was, yeemin, if u dont want to attend my lesson, the door is just over there. WTH? what kinda attitude problem is this? i just walked off.
physics spa was kinda simple. i find it utterly useless in doing skill A when the teachers hint us the question and give us answers straight away. i dont see the point in taking Skill A, its like cheating =.=" but still, its quite hard to write out if the teachers didnt help us.
intensive training starts on tues,weds,thurs. friday match against nyjc. full out guys. show nyjc what we are made off.
have i told you i ache,for you?
4:36 AM
Sunday, April 27, 2008
my time table today
woke up at 9 went lib at 10.30 studied till 1 before heading home tuition at 2 to 4 went lib at 5 studied till 9
omg.
7:50 AM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
we put up a good fight, coach was disappointed with us. i am disappointed with myself. i injured my shin and i didnt play the full match. we did play all out, the game play was messy today, and each player of acsib could run at least 10m before going down. sigh. was talking to coach during/after the match, i could see his disappointment. i know everyone have put in their best effort, guys. dun be disheartened. they arent in our league, yes , they played since young. but dont let this match affect our friday's.we will show NYJC what we are made of. the plates is ours to keep.
3:53 AM
Friday, April 25, 2008
my gay picture with darren. holly shit. i look seriously gay. look at darren's free show. lol
played bball with my classmates today after class, and i lost to suhaila again. LOL. can u believe that? oh well. and noelle was cheering for Su and all, i really dont understand her. why cant we just be friends? haven we had enough of each other being a bitch and all? maybe girls are just petty. or maybe its me for being too straightforward.
skipped dialogue session today to watch darren's bball match. quite a good play doh. although its their last match, they did put up a fight.
tmr is ACSIB match, give them a match they cant forget cougars.
4:03 AM
Thursday, April 24, 2008
and i finally found out. who are BOLSTERS. sigh. i just dont understand. why the vengence?
6:33 AM
our scandalous picture at KL during march holidays. miss the times, esp the stress.
ran 200m and 400m today. i have never ever once took part in short distance running before.
i won 2 botak jones from ernest ((:
ACSI. we will play hard.
6:21 AM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
standing on the edge discovering fears deep inside the swirling abyss lies before me.
beckoning, taunting, calling my name.
slowly moving forward, hanging on with both hands, my eyes closed.
afraid to slip, relunctant to see. a leap of faith plunging into the unknown.
total release. a complete surrender. flying free. falling fast. not holding back.
but
will u be there? to catch me when i fall?
6:29 AM
gonna sleep it off.
pray tmr is a good day.
6:22 AM
studied in school till 8pm today. did electrolysis and AC chapter.
been a long day.
parents scolded me for not being as capable as my 2 brothers. screwed up. so what if i have
tuition and all that? how encouraging my parents are.
i am walking through life, without any chapter to be written.
Trust - one in which confidence is placed.
it seems i have none.
6:04 AM
Monday, April 21, 2008
ran 1500 and 400 today. omg i cant believe my stamina deproved so much to the extent i couldnt even sprint the last part of the race. sighh. oh well, i sitll qualify for 400 finals.
training wasnt harsh today. played touch.
GP teacher still attitude me. roarrrr
no more tears okay? take care (:
6:18 AM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
went out with my god sis today ((:
been a long time since i met her. although she was late AGAIN, and we watched a movie which we dun understand since we didnt watch the starting part. surprised her by taking her to singapore flyers. quite fun doh, but too many people and the capsule glass were dusty, so most parts were not very visible. we got some nice shoots of the city, and yeah, we walked around.bought useless stuffs and we met charlene for dinner. look at her happy face above =.="
still, i realised, we didnt change much, after secondary school days, talked abt the past, and we all laughed at it, reminiscing the past and all, how we played so hard and yet the study stress doesnt seem to be a part of our lives. oh well. its nice to see u again fag. A butterfly. ((:
8:42 AM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
kaishengs triple target:
i shant say the nameeeee
come. qoutes of the day
i throw dinosaur at you ahhh!
poke you den u know ahh!
hahahah. we raped kaisheng
heres the videooo (((:
i think its kinda boring thru video i guess, but if u were there, u will laugh your ass off
well, todays cjc match was a disaster, we won, but its by luck, we were defending all the way, with 2 held ups, which made us win 12 - 5. why cant we win by skills for once?with all the errors and mistakes that are of laughing stock. sigh. i still dont feel the satisfaction with the game play we have.
tired. bbq wasnt so good, not alot of ppl went, but still. it was fun ((:
go cougars. plates champions are for us.
8:31 AM
Friday, April 18, 2008
today's a good dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..
i dont know why..
i still feel, highhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
anyways, its the first time i went out with part of the class for games and a late lunch, oh well, shes still mad at me. as in, she doesnt forgive me i guess, super obvious, nv talk, play bball also like sian sian. i have no comments. but well, its fun going out with the class. pictures upload later.
but my parents, spoilt my day
by scolding me
for cancelling tuition yet again tmr for cjc match.
i have no comments.
cant they respect my sport?
cant they just let me feel supported by them?
i feel burden with this kinda parents.
roarr.
CJC IS OURS TMR
thanks for the garlic bread and lemon plus ((:
6:54 AM
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Woke up at around a half past 10 Cant believe that I'm late again Put down about a quart of caffeine To start my pulse and then I grab my jeans off the floor Then I hit the door Its just the same old same It goes to show you never know When everything's about to change
(Chorus:) Just another day It started out like any other Just another girl Who took my breath away Then she turned around She took me down Just another day that I Had the best day of my life
Cant say exactly what it was She's not the usual type She wore a cowboy hat With her red Prada boots And a Gwen Stefani smile Then she pulled out a pen And surprised me when She wrote her number on my hand Then she was gone But from now on I'm gonna be a different man
(Chorus:) Just another day It started out like any other Just another girl Who took my breath away Then she turned around She took me down Just another day that I Had the best day of my life
(Bridge:) I guess it goes to show You never really know When everything's about to change
(Chorus x2) Just another day It started out like any other Just another girl Who took my breath away Then she turned around She took me down Just another day that I Had the best day of my life
Started out like any other Had the best day of my life The best day of my life
7:21 AM
Thanks ((:
for the notes you gave, made my day today. i will do my best on sat.
skipped every lesson today except GP and 1 hour of maths due to the test. sigh, gonna fail my maths test. US programme for me again. sighhh.
my left arm is hurting, and im gonna cut my hair nowww.
3:44 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Stay with me You're the one that I need You make the hardest things Seem easy
Keep my heart Somewhere drugs don't go Were the sun shines lay Always keep me close
If only you could see The stranger next to me You promised you promised that you're done But i cant tell you from the drugs
Don't let go Dig a great big hole Down an endless hole We'll both go
You're so blind You cant see me this time Hope comes from inside And I feel so low tonight
If only you could see The stranger next to me You promised you promised that you're done But I can't tell you from the drugs
I wish you could see This face in front of me You'r sorry swear it you're done But I can't tell you from the drugs
(Ohhhh) (Ohhhh)
(take me) I need your help (so far away) To pull me up take the pain (take me) Out from me (so far away) Out from me
(Take me) If only you could see (I need your help) (So far away) The stranger next to me (To pull me up take the pain) (Take me) You promised you promised that you're done (Out from me) (So far away) But I can't tell you from the drugs (Out from me)
(Take me) I wish that you could see (I need your help) (So far away) This face in front of me (To pull me up take the pain) (Take me) You're sorry you swear it you're done (Out from me) (So far away) But I can't tell you from the drugs (Out from me)
Keep my heart somewhere drugs don't go Where the sun shines low always keep me close
7:55 AM
body aches all over. my left arm seem to be dying out. got stepped and kick on the head. well , thats called rugby. i just dont feel good losing to SA this year, their standard dropped, or maybe they didnt play fullforce. but still, they won us 34: 0. i cant believe it. 0. sighh. we could have scored. could have break thru. but all these, are just could be, could have. they arent realistic, nor were they done by us 4 hours ago during the match. i can feel, the lack of confidence in the backs, the forwards are ok. i hate this lost, gonna fuel this hatred, this anger, to saturdays match. CJC, feel my wrath of my lost today. i will make u all pay. prepare for my breakthru, my foul plays. because u are going to feel it, hard, onto yourselves , that you would regret, stepping on the field, and even wanted to play rugby in the beginning.
cjc, u are mine. congrats to the bballer girls for winning today. so far, all the cca matches today lost but u girls won ((: keep it up. soccer girls, its okay, its your first match, and its a draw. hockey, 3:1 lost isnt too bad, work harder next time.
GO JJC
7:47 AM
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I wanna love, I wanna leave. I want you to love me, I want you to leave me. I want to stand where I can see, I'm watching you love me, And I'm watching you leave me now.
I wish i could be, Somebody else. I wish i could see, You and myself. I wish there was something inside me, To keep you beside me. And say, What you really feel. You know i need, Something that's real. I wish there was something inside me, To keep you beside me.
I wanna know if i could be, Someone to turn to, That could never hurt you. But i know what you think of me, You had a breakthrough, And now i'm just bad news for you.
I wish i could be, Somebody else. I wish i could see, You and myself. I wish there was something inside me, To keep you beside me. And say, What you really feel. You know i need, Something that's real. I wish there was something inside me, To keep you beside me.
I should've told you everything. I never gave you anything. I should've told you everything. If i could give you anything, Then i would tell you everything.
I wish i could be, Somebody else. I wish i could see, You and myself. I wish there was something inside me, To keep you beside me. And say, What you really feel. You know i need, Something that's real. I wish there was something inside me, To keep you beside me.
I should've told you everything. I should've told you everything. I should've told you everything.
4:40 AM
usual day.
got scolded by mr low for skipping lessons i understood, im to blame
got scolded by ms chiew for no reason i dont understand, i am not to blame, i am unhappy for that.
i wont be active and all for gp anymore. hate that teacher.
i teared last night while trying to get some slp.
i feel helpless now.
why cant i help my friends when they are in need?
SA match is tomorrow.
top 4 guys.
4:25 AM
Monday, April 14, 2008
to a friend:
forgetting one is hard. moving on is harder tears flow as always pull yourself together for its you who brings the greatest challenge not him.
7:44 AM
unwanted feelings growing like vines on a great tree overwhelming constricting suffocating.
what seems strong and firm becomes fragile and weak its the inner strength that holds not the outer appearance.
thoughts lingers in my head. that of what holds in the future, and what pain i may face. i dont want to be through that again. facing death would be much of an easier task for me.
for all i have said or do, nothing can change the unwanted feelings you want undone nothing.
save me from this agony of life of love of hatred of pain lift me up and not pull me down
tell me why am i in this state? why am i always like this?
7:36 AM
just talked to someone online. i think i am getting emotional
i think all i have done are things out of stupidity.
and i think the final outcome would be of hurt instead of hapiness.
i cant prove myself worthy.
and this bad impression of me,
sticks with me
all these thoughts in my head.
why are they of pessimistic views?
a good start
but
an obvious ending
i think
i should be alone
for now.
You're so blind You can't see me this time Hope comes from inside And I feel so low tonight Keep my heart Somewhere drugs don't go Where the sun shines slow Always keep me close.
6:10 AM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Why do birds suddenly appear Every time you are near? Just like me, they long to be Close to you. Why do stars fall down from the sky Every time you walk by? Just like me, they long to be Close to you. On the day that you were born The angels got together And decided to create a dream come true So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold And starlight in your eyes of blue. That is why all the girls in town Follow you all around. Just like me, they long to be Close to you. On the day that you were born The angels got together And decided to create a dream come true So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold And starlight in your eyes of blue. That is why all the girls in town Follow you all around. Just like me, they long to be Close to you. Just like me (Just like me) They long to be
Close to you.
6:26 AM
Name: Zheng Bao size : XXXXXXXXXL
lol. library friend bao bao, i dont know what to say about him. but hes always the one booking seats for me and park and compromise to my demands. lol. CUTE RIGHT. i no comments
nevin pangseh today. u owe me drinks for printing physics answer for u. waste ink la. zzz
bored. today i did the most work, for the past 2 weeks. omg. and i think, tmr's physics test sure fail. zzzz. good luck to the bballers for tmr's AC match. trash them plssssssss...
wednesday.
our chance
top 4 guys
3:11 AM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
woke up late today. sigh. my dad always tell me, if i wanted to wake up early, give him a call and tell him the time. and i did. should have switch on my alarm clock. i will never rely on my dad again.
"oi, yeemin wake up" my brother said while he walked into the toilet *check time*
**** !!! ITS 8.20! shit! and i made a big fuss at home, esp at my dad. went for trianing after that. sorry dumbo, i woke up late =/ sorry sorry. training was tiring today. did crashings, backline runs to perfect them for SA game. i want top 4, i wont let the chance slip by, so what if they have more experience than us? i want the top 4 badly.
tried to study in sch, in the end, i did like 3 qns in maths and i couldnt take it. dozed off. study stress. shit man. i really regretted going to a jc. i practically have NO LIFE. literally. omg. no orchard roamings, no outing with friends anymore due to exams. holly shit. i really envy my brother in England now, enjoying his life there. singapore is so suck up to the max
i cant register my NS medical check up. it seriously sucks man, i did try to when they send me the letter, but couldnt due to the date availability, and now, i cant locate my password, and retrieving it takes 4 working days, and its been a week now. suck up website. i rather go down and book my medical check up.
yeemin
is leading a life of uncertainty
3:43 AM
Friday, April 11, 2008
training didnt go so well today. i seriously wonder whether if we could win SA with our backline standards. i dont lack confidence, maybe we lack the communications, the skills, the reading of the game. sigh.
work are piling up on my table, i cant even study now even if i wanted to, i am doubting a good A level cert this year
pw grade wasnt good, i got a B, was expecting an A. demoralized, i dont blame any of my members, but blame myself. sorry guys
gonna meet up my sister finally on 20th april, yx bday i think. wish her happy bday on that day ba. a present for her will only go to the salvation army once more. i dont see a point in that anyway. miss you fagg ((: really. been a long time since we talked, we smsed and even meet up!! i think the last time we met was for 200 pound beauty, other than the coincidence meetings at the mrt and all. yeah. looking forward to it. theres a surprise for u too ((:
you are my sugar rush (:
7:09 AM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
ss trying to take a pic.
me taking the picture
see the diff? hahaha. i am such a pro. anyways. she thinks she got cheated since she could get it for 149 usd, oh well. lesson learnt. should stick to the cam we wanted to buy.
sorry( to her whom i offended yday) i didnt mean what i say, really sorry k? i hope u arent angry with me, whole day didnt talk today. sorry =/ *kowtows*
went to jp today for a dinner with ms chng, been a long time since i saw her, and shes not in a very good condition, was supposed to go to west coast park to have a walk, but it seems the heavens dont wish that.(rains) so we ended up eating pizza hut at jp.i am still stunned with the truth. omg. classic romance.haha.
having chem spa trial and i am still palying. omg. i am not even copying or even reading thru the notes! i think i am screwed tmr, esp when i owe my teacher OR07 tmr. sighhh.
am i doing the right thing?
7:56 AM
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
table tennis tournament is over, cant believe it, in 2 mins, the hopes of going top 4 just dashed. i dont wanna blame any players. but i hope you know who yourself. the lead point was great. i cant believe we lost. if it was rugby, i would go for the kill. i am just disappointed, and rather, unhappy with the results, i could see mr goh's dismay. and i didnt bear to even watch menghan play since he was palying with an ex sports school player. sigh. for now, rugby will be the focus.
i am dropping in my studies, maths, physics test up next week. i dun even have the mood to study, let alone, have the strength to study. i hope i am doing the right thing. i dont want to retain. study pls .
this is my secondary 2 video of the last day of class 2F, chin whee and steven the main actors. enjoy ((:
i miss the past.
5:37 AM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
i feel like a hero
you are my
heroine.
5:25 AM
tired. i am going to die out at this rate. sigh. studies, ccas, and many many more. played with hcjc today, we lost 5:0 i guess, no fighting spirit, no determination to win, but well, their standards are really good, we cant blame them anyway. nyjc tmr. top 4 is ours.
went to simlim with ss today to buy her cam, in the end, we got a different 1 instead. took some pictures, upload them later. we went to little india for a walk just to kill time, its quite different, the place, the culture, the stalls are all different! flowers hanging outside, sweet scented smells instead of B.O, the sweet shop which i went during an excursion when i was p5 was still there, selling the same exact food, at the same price. i bought milk candy ((: my fav since then, it still taste as delicious as ever.
a clash in friendship. a side have to let go
now i know, how far you'd go.
5:12 AM
Monday, April 07, 2008
It's too late baby, there's no turning around I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud This is how I do When I think about you I never thought that you could break me apart I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart You want to get inside Then you can get in line But not this time
Cause you caught me off guard Now I'm running and screaming I feel like a hero and you are my heroine I won't try to philosophize I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes This is how I feel And its so surreal I got a closet filled up to the brim With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons And I don't know why You'd even try But I won't lie You caught me off guard Now I'm running and screaming I feel like a hero and you are my heroine Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin? And I feel a weakness coming on Never felt so good to be so wrong Had my heart on lockdown And then you turned me around I'm feeling like a new born child Every time I get a chance to see you smile It's not complicated I was so jaded
8:29 AM
not so good day for me, econs test didnt study, and the question was like, super simple? omggg. should have studied. got scolded my ms chiew for stupid things which i really dont know what i have said. i dont understand why she must blow things up, well, they are teachers anyway. i cant do anything about it. rugby match today wasnt that good, we didnt follow the game plan again, and the coach wasnt pleased with individual plays again. i feel like cutting out my throat, it gave me so much problems for table tennis and in rugby. sigh. i dun understand why we are playing like this, i dont even see the "winning" scene against SA and even worse, CJ, we will fight hard. but the point is, we arent following the game plan alot of things on my mind now
what if, table tennis dont do well? what if, rugby dont do well? what if, my a levels screw up?
sighh.
save me this agony.
5:57 AM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
went for training today. i feel grateful to mr goh, for doing so much just for me to play for them, although i am not the best, nor am i very good, he still arrange everything to suit me. thanks once again.
went to the lib after training, couldnt study for nuts, i didnt know why, maybe its the vodka yesterday. i really dont know. i think i am gonna fail econs test tmr. sigh. buck up ym.
i feel stupid today. i lost 7 dollars since my pocket got hole, and the best part, the hole was so big, but my 50cent didnt drop, i cant believe it! damn. and i didnt want to break my note, so i borrowed from every single one who i came across today to buy food, drinks etc. i feel pathetic.
lately, i have been thinking about my secondary school life, i kinda missed it, esp with all my clique and buddies, even if i have to go thru the heart break again, i wouldnt mind. my friends are all i need ((: hope to see u guys soon.
steven - stop being emo for now. wcw - still the same. zz matthias - got gf alr forget us =.=" hanif - still the same, but u have a bike now!? lol fx - same as mata=.= nerrine - EXTREME MAKE OVER james - still small boy =.= hpyo piang - i wanna play soccer soon , but after season ((: the rest still see them in sch. serenity!
6:09 AM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
I just want to run Just want to hide away Close my eyes to your gaze Just want to leave Don’t want to hear them say “You’re no good at this” When the world swirls with naysayers Broken wings and torn pages The road ahead Drowning in my tears Break me open Tear me down Into pieces Broken crumbs On the ground You can mould and shape me In your image Breathe your life You know I need it Scars make us stronger for life Losing myself Gaining it back again Forging strength from weakness All that I am All that I’m meant to be Melting in your hand Let the world swirl with naysayers Pickled hearts and sour faces What is real is what I cannot see Cut away All within me That won’t bear fruit Cut away All within me Scars make us stronger for life
10:18 AM
my schedule today
7am: meet armbrish at marsiling mrt went back to slp 10am: wake up for tuition 1 pm: watch tv 2pm: went back to slp 7pm: woke up eat and now, here i am. LOL. i didnt even do shit today. and there is table tennis training tmr, wow. and monday theres econs test, and i still feel tired. sigh. STUDY PLSSSSSSSSSS.
don't let your past destroy what comes tomorrow.
8:29 AM
Friday, April 04, 2008
Lately I've been thinking so strangely about the clouds, and how they seem to slowly fade away, yeah. Maybe someday we will find a way to disappear. Just me and you on silver lining dreams. Oh, how could I survive without your love, and the hope you bring? Oh, even when the sky is falling down, I know I have you, and it's all I need. Lately I've been hoping you can stay with me, And I could hold you close 'til the end of time, yeah. Maybe someday we will grab some change and run away, but for now I'll learn to say goodbye.
7:34 AM
played with YJC and RJC today for table tennis, won yj, but lost rj, was a bloody close game with rj. could have won. sigh.
tired
6:23 AM
Thursday, April 03, 2008
been a long day, and i contradicting dreams once again. i woke up early today due to a bad dream, dreamt of her with her bf, met her, and i even punched her new bf 3 times in the face. i dont know why i did that in my dreams, and i tried to talk to her, but she broke down and cry and i walked away, tearing. upon waking up, it was 6 am. the dream kept coming back, flashing constantly at the back of my mind. normally the dreams i dreamt of would be gone and i wouldnt remember them. but it seems, this 1 emotionally suffocated me this very morning. i have moved on, its just, the scar is still fresh after healing.
went to school and i didnt feel so good, tired after yday, i felt i gave all out for the match, to the extend that i reached home and fall flat onto bed and went to lalaland. thanks dumb square, for your card and an item for black mailing ((: made my day. went for lectures today, skipped all tutorials and slept at sick bay. ms chew didnt believe me, well, what the heck.
mr goh called me again today, stating that there is a sick player, and if i am able to make it for the tournament tmr as well as the training today. i wasnt informed, i rather not be informed. i feel bad after yesterday's match, i should have followed the ruggers, was laughed at on the bus back home yday, and i took it to my stride, because. it truly is my fault. sigh. i dont even know how good my skills are now, the win yday was because the opponent was seriously lousy. i am lost.
no hope no love no glory, no happy ending
7:02 AM
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
been a long day for me, played table tennis and rushed down to play rugby.won both, but kinda disappointed since i realised my actions are actually somewhat unloyal to rugby. so much things in my mind now, studies, rugby etc. i even dreamt i patch with her last night. haha. what a weird dream it was. tmrs gonna be a super long day which i will not absorb anything during lessons. dead tired today.still, thanks for those who msg me good luck for both matches, weixin, min , dumb dumb etc. i am glad u guys cheered me on even doh some of u dun really know me well. thanks for the many msges, jia you jia you jia you. too much you alr can? i think overload alr. now side effect. feel like a dead log now =/
work hard cougars.we have a season to win
6:54 AM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Light breaks through a crack in the shades
Starting off another day,
it all feels the same
She takes in the morning air
A faint smile while she does her hair,
she's unaware
She remarks,
but she never complains
Her big dreams that are never in vain,
never change
Don't let it pull you down
Don't let it burn you out
You're so much stronger than you know
Down here time moves so slow
Life could pass you by and you wouldn't know,
who wouldn't know
Things change,
but they rarely do
You count the days as they barely move,
did what you had to do
if u feel the sudden urge to escape
a fast car and a favourite
runaway
if u feel like u needed to cry
run to this arms
they wont ask why
dry your eyes
Don't let it pull you down
Don't let it burn you out
You're so much stronger than you know
7:10 AM
been a long time since i played bball, its quite fun actually, but i couldnt make a shot, the best part was the ball hit right smack in my face when i jumped for rebound. lol. talked to ken about table tennis match tmr, i hope i will not let the team down in tmr's singles, i have let them down in the doubles for being playful in the match. and i hope this decision does not be 1 that i will regret if in any event jj loses in rugby, i will bear that responsibility even though it may not be my fault. nevertheless, good luck for both rugby and table tennis for tmrs match.