2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

been a long day, and i contradicting dreams once again. i woke up early today due to a bad dream, dreamt of her with her bf, met her, and i even punched her new bf 3 times in the face. i dont know why i did that in my dreams, and i tried to talk to her, but she broke down and cry and i walked away, tearing. upon waking up, it was 6 am. the dream kept coming back, flashing constantly at the back of my mind. normally the dreams i dreamt of would be gone and i wouldnt remember them. but it seems, this 1 emotionally suffocated me this very morning. i have moved on, its just, the scar is still fresh after healing.

went to school and i didnt feel so good, tired after yday, i felt i gave all out for the match, to the extend that i reached home and fall flat onto bed and went to lalaland. thanks dumb square, for your card and an item for black mailing ((: made my day. went for lectures today, skipped all tutorials and slept at sick bay. ms chew didnt believe me, well, what the heck.

mr goh called me again today, stating that there is a sick player, and if i am able to make it for the tournament tmr as well as the training today. i wasnt informed, i rather not be informed. i feel bad after yesterday's match, i should have followed the ruggers, was laughed at on the bus back home yday, and i took it to my stride, because. it truly is my fault. sigh. i dont even know how good my skills are now, the win yday was because the opponent was seriously lousy. i am lost.





no hope no love no glory, no happy ending