Wednesday, April 30, 2008
rugby was a mess today. drop balls and errors of basic rugby . sigh. i could see coach disappointment in our performance today. he even use himself as an example to crash and even lead the backlines during practice. i feel embarrassed. esp with my drop balls. injured or not, those are still excuses. i want that win, i want the plate champions. action speaks louder than words.
sometimes i feel, i express myself as if nothing is wrong to others, when i am always down, just to prevent the emo + another emo person. putting a strong front, just to be there, as a shoulder to cry on. but why is it always, the shoulder u cried on isnt me ? i see my friends, my close friends, going down. one by one. even called, and cried, but didnt explain. i really dont understand. what are friends for?
why am i always like this? why do i have to suffer once again.
leave.
some times I just felt I could give uprazorblades.
8:57 AM