2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

slpt late due to card making. blame myself since i was watching movie the whole day and i told myself i can delay delay until 12midnight. LOL. was tired after the chalet and i didnt get much slp, made the card, although it wasnt my best so far, it looks nice. ((: made milk pudding and i went to bed at 2am.

lets start off with today, played contact for awhile, and i realised, WITHOUT SHOES/BOOTS, u cant play nuts,

1st: FIELD IS HOT
2nd: U CANT SIDE STEP
3rd: PEOPLE STEP ON YOU.


well, passed mel her bday card and pudding, couldnt get her any gift but yeah. i hope she loves it, kaihui overslept and had a bad headache, oh well, the card had an empty spot ( supposed to be for kaihui's msg) and kh can actually slp for 26 hours. i mean, imagine sleeping at 3pm and waking up at 5pm, thinking u slept for 2 hours. LOL.

julian came to my house today, watched roommates, shit show, i thought it was scary, since it was a korean production. and it ended up being a stupid show. a big twist doh, but a stupid horror movie.


and yeah. i found out something

i realised some girls like guys, not by looks or character.

BUT

by how they zai they look when they play sports.

wow to the max.



went to crash the taekwando's chalet yday, was kinda fun, although all chickened out to the OCH and we ended up going in broad day light =="

went crab catching with kaihui at 2plus am, lol, we walked 1 hour to that particular beach and shine torchlights to find crabs, she didnt believe i could catch any, but i proved her wrong with 4 crabs, 1 soft shell, 1 flower, 2 hermits ((: forgot to take a picture of them before letting them go.super cute can!

went to pizza hut for brunch, I WANTED HOTCAKES BUT THE FREAKING BUS BROKE DOWN. sigh, i told them to cut across the HDBs for a shortcut, but ended up, it was a longer route. LOL. they didnt notice anyways.so i was saved, but ended up forcing myself onto 5 slices of large pizza. gonna stay away from pizza for quite some time.

and i gotta say, prince caspian is a good show, much better than the first narnia. apparently someone just slept through the whole movie. LOL. but its a good show (:



Well it's a big big city and it's always the same
Can never be too pretty
tell me you your name
Is it out of line if I was to be bold and say
"Would you be mine"?
Because I may be a beggar and you maybe the queen
I know I maybe on a downer
but i am still ready to dream
Now it's 3 o'clock the time is just the time it takes for you to talk
So if you're lonely why'd you say your not lonely?
Oh your a silly girl,
I know I hurt it so
It's just like you to come
And go and know me no you don't even know me
Your so sweet to try,
oh my, you caught my eye
A girl like you's just irresistible
Well it's a big big city and the lights are all out
But it's much as I can do you know to figure you out
And I must confess,
my hearts in broken pieces
And my heads a mess
And it's 4 in the morning,
and I'm walking along
Beside the ghost of every drinker here who has ever done wrong
And it's you, woo hoo
That's got me going crazy for the things you do
So if you're crazy
I don't care but you amaze me
Oh your a stupid girl,
oh me, oh my, you talk
I die, you smile, you laugh, I cry
And only, a girl like you could be lonely
And it's a crying shame,
if you would think the same
A boy like me's just irresistible
So if your lonely, why'd you say you're not lonely
Oh your a silly girl,
I know I hurt it so
It's just like you to come and go
And know me, no you don't even know me
Your so sweet to try oh my, you caught my eye
A girl like you's just irresistible



just call mee crazzzyyyyyyy... i think i am obsessed with that song. woke up late today, rushed to school without even taking a shower, lol. well, the whole morning was spent on running, playing rugby. its been a long time since i played contact rug, but it wasnt the same anymore, the team is different, the game is different. how i wish it was last year, the same time, our team were playing, training, shouting vulgarities, scolding each other. what fond memories i have, i wished we had played rugby since young, with the same team.

did chem today, i find myself indulge in chemistry, i dont know why, but i kinda like chemistry, not the organic part, but yeah. a big contrast in secondary school. i wanna pass my a levels, i dont want to repeat, i dont want to regret and i dont wanna go poly and be a junior to my friends. lol.

DESSERT HUNT TMR WITH BOWL HEAD, FOLLOWED BY CRASHING INTO TAEKWANDO'S CAMP!



studies studies studies studies...


i really hope i can catch up

but can i?


chemistry, physics, maths......


omgggg....


i am becoming a nerdd....

Can you hear me screaming

Coming to find you

It's not that I want to

Make it another night alone

This feeling is lonely

Sending me slowly

Hits me so deep

It cuts my bone

Fills my heart

Burns me up

For way too long

For way too long

Here's my hand Pull me up

I lie awake because I'm scared

I'm not as fake as you once heard

But we'll lay down now making sure we Put these words between us

Can you hear us falling

We're falling faster

It's hard to remember

Where we were at a year before

I thought we were ready

I thought we were steady '

Till the emotion

Hit the floor

Fills my heart

Burns me up

For way too long

For way too long (where did you go?)

Here's my hand

To pull me up

Don't put these words between us

I lie awake because I'm scared

I'm not as fake as you once heard

But we'll lay down now making sure we Put these words between us

I lie awake

because I'm scared

I'm not as fake as you once heard

And we'll lay these words

And we'll put them down

On the floor beneath us

Don't put these words between us

Don't put these words between us

woke up at 4pm yday, omg. and i played dota till 8pm. talked to one of my friends on the phone about her relationship problems, sometimes i ask myself why, i could give suggestions and solutions to their problems, while mine remains unsolved. lol. feels weird when u put yourself in one's shoes. haha. and parks a bitch, giving me that depression book with 2 lollipops. slept at 4am again yday, couldnt slp well, was thinking about everything, suddenly darren msged me. lol. decided to drop a msg to xw. i dreamt of funny stuffs yday, the ruggers were like on a hill beside a school, and me and bush were like chasing winston just for fun and he tried to run away by sliding down or should i say, rolling down the hill towards the school, and upon impact, the school windows broke. in that dream, we were all running away pretending not to know winston.


kinda funny isnt it?



bbq today was fun. now i have legs half with hair, half with no hair. sigh.

thanks 07s20 for the white thongs and black g string
thanks kai hui and melissa very very very very much. really.
thanks A.M.G for your bday bash,frog,egg,mayo,veet
thanks serenity for your presence
THANKS ZOE VIVIAN YANTONG FOR THE SEXYYY BELLTTTTTTT
special thanks to ernest and nevin.

your doom is near.

10june 1st ((:



your so dead.

I was young but I wasn't naive

I watched helpless as you turned around to leave

And still I have the pain I have to carry

A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time

I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep

Only in hopes of dreaming

That everything would be like is was before

But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting

They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time

I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time

Would you ever wanna leave it

Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you will ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

And I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me dies

when I let you go

quite happy with my friends today, wishes are enough and i was glad that even my friends whom i have not met for 2 years wished me, especially noelle, from TKGS, so yeah , lol. cool huh? its been... hmmmm.. 2 3 years? since i even MET her.

class went well today, its last day of school. and gp test is a major disaster, wrote out of point. i saw min giving up, 25marks gone. well, the paper was tough.


well, same disappointments identical to that of the last's. yeah. i guess my life is screwed tmr.




oh god, are u playing a joke with me?if u are, its not funny. really. it isnt

qouted from elwingfalassion.blogspot.com.
a great thanks to huili for this post really states everything ((:

Have been doing lots of reflection and realising lots of stuff... i don't know where to start and also don't know how to end.Have you wonder what you want in life. Not in terms of asking yourself when you get married, what career you want. Rather really sit down and ask yourself what you want in life?Maybe u may sound emo here. BUT please, if you are seriously think this way i will appreciate that you stop reading. What do people define as emo? Rather i feel that those who tend to get emo is the one that tend to learn and grow faster. Sometimes people don't get emo for nothing. Not telling/saying out doesn't mean they dun appreciate you or don't mind such things happen. I remember someone told me before that if you did your part regardless in friendship/family/bgr then don't feel too sad over it. I wonder what people out there who regard themselves as "not emo king/queen" thinking. Just to say... hey you are not emo because you are "lucky" enough not to experience it. And so please don't give up or condemn people that usually get emo. To be frank, aren't they expressing their emotions? Isn't that moments the most TRUE as they just trying to convey some things just maybe not in an appropriate manner? But to those who tend to be emo.. just go ahead and be. Don't hide, don't fear. Just remember that at the end of the day just smile(: I can understand that sometimes we tried to be the "best" friend for one another. But seriously, we always tell our friend," Hey just be yourself!" Tsktsk... can i comment something? Can you guys really accept if people voice out how they feel? Have you also wonder whether you take the friends around you for granted? Have you hurt your friends before? And also, have you neglect your friends? And when i mean friends- they are those who are there for you and really showering the love whenever you are sad. I believe questions that have been mentioned earlier on the answer will be a YES! i just feel that... life is so confusing and weird especially with respect to friend. They come and go. They leave significant footprints in our heart and also hurt us the most. Some people are insensitive, some people are cold-blooded and some people are those selfish freaks. Hey, why not i put it this way... have you put yourself in people's shoes before you get angry? I can guarantee if you have done it before, the number of times you feel angry will be lesser because you will end up feeling sad. Trust me. Have you encounter quarrel with your friend and he/she actually took initiative trying to sort things out but you just pretend nothing happen? Seriously this is bad. Try thinking this way, if you are trying to sort things out with someone be it whether you are the "victim" or not but he/she don't reply to what you say. How will you feel? Of course, i understand that different people have different ways of handling their problems but is it better if you all are kind enough to reply them. Note: If you ain't feeling good about such thing, the other party won't feel good too.( Unless the person don't regard you as friend, that's another case).Furthermore, can anyone predict how long you guys can live. I bet those people at China did not expect that they will actually experiencing an earthquake. Apart from being sad over seeing your love ones dying infront of you, i bet they will feel regret for not treasuring the times together. Till here, just wanna say im not being negative but please, such questions are in our heart but who actually go face and think about it? Is it only when you see your friends dying then you will feel this way? Of course, this is what i have been experiencing. I am not a good friend neither am i a good daughter. But i am frank enough to admit all this stuffs. I seriously dunno how to be a good friend and crying is my way of expressing my true feelings. I'm not thinking too much rather is that feeling you understand? I feel disheartened not because my friends don't listen to me but when they pretend nothing happen and ignore me. I know some of my friends do not worth my care and tears. But if they need me, i'll be there. That's just me. I'm not trying to act im so great but trying to say why things just turn out so bad for me :( I'm tired~ im exhausted... I thought i could pretend nothing happen but i really cannot.I'm not trying to be emo. Is just some question appearing. I just want to share... think about it maybe you will understand. Excuses are not always applicable. Try to start thinking why such thing will happen and how to solve it and not staying put and say people think too much, emo or even saying you did'nt know about such stuffs. Like what i say, people emo because they are showing their true self, people think because they treasure you and hope things will turn out fine. And if you really didn't know some stuff you ought to clarify then leave it hanging there. Trust me... Friends are meant to be love and please start feeling in another way maybe you won't give up your frens.

yeemin wasn't really popular
He had a couple of friends back home
And sooner or later they're all getting out so he had to join up alone
He was dreaming of the rugby league since he was only three feet tall
And get the hell out of Singapore and then he would never look back at all
And then you hear'em say
That miles away
We lost another one that we sent with a gun
They're gonna miss him he was two days from eighteen and there's still no shame
From the man to blame
yeemin had a reason to run
Cos his bday is two days away
All he had was his legs for his life
So he could run away from his friends
He tried to stop her on the way out the door,
She just put her little hand on his face
I don't understand why you're leaving, he said
But I hope your gonna ask me to wait
And then you hear'em say
That miles away
We lost another one that we sent with a gun
His lady missed him,
he was two days from eighteen and there's still no shame
From the man to blame
yeemin's mother went to taiwan
So she could fill her heart up with angbaos
Maybe shake a few hands while she's there and tell them thank you sir for taking my boy.
And then your hear'em say
That miles away
We lost another one that we sent with a gun
His mama missed him he was two days from eighteen and there's still no shame
From the man to blame
No there's still no shame
And we're all to blame
We're all to blame
We're all to blame
We're all to blame









apparently my yday post didnt came out. i wonder why. well, school today was boring, ms ng scolded me in a funny way, she said
i will screw u up !and she threw a marker cap at me
i did my tutorial for once doh. but today she didnt ask any1 who didnt do to stand up. fuck
went home early to gai gai with zoe,we bought one mochi which cost $2.




running away.



sometimes, i find myself in such a screwed up position in terms of my inner self, only darren and ms chng understands why. although they laugh at me, at least i did tell them my story and a great relief from my chest after i finished. yeah. i shouldnt bother about them, they are best of friends afterall, i cant do much. nor can i do anything in anyway. its all lies, after all this time. all i had were lies from you. thats a good start. (:

went out with ms chng and darren today, we went shopping for useless stuff which i will never use in my life, but its just irresistable, esp when its cheap. played bishi bashi after darren left, relieve some of my stress as well as relieving hers. ate ichiban sushi, and there came a phonecall by huili asking if we wanted to go changi hospital to see stuffs, well, we went, walked the whole area, nothing found. lol.



watched chocolate today

1: its a stupid show
2: people watch it because its a GIRL fighting
3: the fighting is not realistic and the sound effects are lame
4: the plot is stupid
5: lousy visual effects
6: its STILL a stupid show


thats about it.







i wanna be....



my back is injured again, worst i guess, i cant even stand without pain, let alone walk. didnt run 4X100 and fartlek due to this injury, and i regretted not doing so, i caused the team to lose. sigh.

went to daiso to do some shopping with ms kim, kinda fun, bought a lunchbox set and all, and we went to liang court and we saw fruits that cost $200. we bought a $7.50 apple which ms kim sponsored, and yeah, they really taste good, but the price is just too high.



To my ex

Now we're broken on the phone
She just wants me to share
It hasn't been this way before
She just wants me to dare her
The phone rings (the phone rings)
and she screams,
"Stab my back,it's better when I bleed for you
Walk on me,it never was enough to do"
Can't get past her, falling faster true
It hasn't done a lot for you

And everytime he held you close
Yeah, were you thinking of me?
When I needed you the most
Well I hope that you're happy

The phone rings (the phone rings)
and she screams,
"Stab my back,it's better when I bleed for you
Walk on me, it never was enough to do"
Can't get past her, falling faster true
It's better when I bleed for you

I hope that love he gave you
was just enough to save you
You nearly broke my heart
Just look at what you're tearing apart

Stab my back,
it's better when I bleed for you
Walk on me,
it never was enough to do
Can't get past her,
falling faster true

It hasn't done a lot for you
It's better when I bleed for you
It never was enough to do



have u had enough?



why do i get constantly hurt for things, many things i didnt do or say.
after all i have said and done


insensitive
immature
childish


the list goes on



a stabbed on the back,
the heart.

on the verge of a break down.



Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straitjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now,
my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell But today I'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

The Different Person.

skipped physics to watch the bball match today. i hope mr low dun explode tmr when he sees me for morning assembly =/

watching the girls play today brought me back to last friday's match against cjc. the way they fought for the ball, i felt the passion, the greed for the ball, that she even dived to secure it before passing out. although some of the passes went to the opponent, i am really shocked that she even dived for the sake of the ball possession.

i saw many splendid plays and bold attempts by various players like sy, i could feel the want to win, but reality is harsh, and they lost 26 - 41. most cried, i know how they feel, after fridays match, i know no1 could possibly console anyone of their players, ESPECIALLY MR mythigh with his "ITS JUST A GAME" theory.



dont be upset.



a whole day wasted again. did nothing for the whole day and i began emo-ing as usual, luckily there was amanda who cheered me up alil, although it wasnt much help, but at least u offered to help. dont always think u make people sad, that u arent sports/academically inclined and having a screwed up attitude and all. u dont. alright? smile (:

my psp got some problems with the analogue stick, and i found that out when i was playing iron man. omg. sigh.

bought bacan, ham and cereal on my way to cwp to get energy gel, i look like a nerd, with red hci short pants and a singlet, wearing specs with a pink psp. and i ran for the bus, and my shorts became underpants =.=" unglam-ed




What is my day going to look like?
What will my tomorrow bring me?
If I had x-ray eyes,
I could see inside
I wouldn’t have to predict the future
I wish that you would do with some talking
How else am I to know what you’re thinking?
If only people would say what it really was
What it really was
What it really was that they wanted
Tell me where it hurts
to hell with everybody else
All I care about is you and that's the truth
They don't love me;
I can tell
But you do,
so they can go to hell
Did they ever give you a reason
To believe in something different
If you’re looking for love,
for what it's worth
I have plenty of it lying around here somewhere
If you are looking for disappointment
You can find it around any corner
In the middle of the night
I hold on to you tight
So both of us can feel protected
Tell me where it hurts,
to hell with everybody else.
All I care about is you and that's the truth
they don't love me;
yeah I can tell but you do,
so they can go to hell
I’ve been loved
but I didn’t know how to feel it
And I’ve been adored
but I don’t know if I ever believed it
I’ve been loved my whole life
but I didn’t know how to take it



went to watch speed racer and talent time, i find it stupidthe best singer apparently did not win, and the best dance group didnt too. its all bias. i rather have 3 judges than the sms vote. i pity the actual winners than the "winners"





My head lies to my heart
And my heart it still believes
It seems the ones who love us are the ones
That we deceive



With everything I've ever done
I'd give it all to everyone for one more day
Another night I'm waking through
Anther door I walk intro
I can't break

It's a winding road
It's a long way home

So don't wait for someone to tell you it's too late
Cuz these are the best days
There's always something tomorrow
So I say let's make the best of tonight
Here comes the rest of our lives

I count the steps the distance to
The time when it was me and you is so far gone
Another face another friend
Another place another end but I'll hang on

It's a winding road
It's a long way home

So don't wait for someone to tell you it's too late
Cuz these are the best days
There's always something tomorrow
So I say let's make the best of tonight
Yeah let's make the best of tonight
Here comes the rest of our lives

It's a winding road
It's a long way home

So don't wait for someone to tell you it's too late
Cuz these are the best days
There's always something tomorrow
So I say let's make the best of it
So don't wait cuz no-one can tell you it's too late
Cuz these are the best days
There's always something tomorrow
So I say let's make the best of tonight
Yeah let's make the best of tonight
We'll make the best of tonight
Here comes the rest of our lives



cougars

we fought hard for the match today, with our mistakes of penalties, yellow cards and mistackles which gave away our plate champions. we trained hard and long for this very day, and i know, everyone put their best, even when we want to sit down and take a breather.

guys, tears flow, injuries appear.but dont be disheartened, i myself, really have no comments, for that lost. we could have won. but its a could have, not reality. we lost, by our mistakes. although the referee played a big part in it and many other factors. we have worked hard, and i know, everyone who was in the field, were giving all out, for the last match of our very first season game.

heads up cougars.



the defeat.







it hurts more than it seems.






Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

[Bridge:]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

[Bridge:]
I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

[Bridge:]
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight





Ooh uh ooh,ooh uh ooh yeih yeh
You understand me
At least you say you do
Lately thats enough for me
Looking for perfect
Surrounded by artificial
You're the closest thing to real i've seen
Sure, everyone has their problems
Thats a given
Yours are the easiest to tolerate
This wasn't what we was wanting
How we're living
But let's take this good enough and turn it to great
Baby understand...

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt (yes sometimes its gonna hurt)
We can be as happy as we want to be girl
But we gotta make it work
We gotta make it work...

Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh

Sometimes i love you
More than you'll ever know
Other times you get on my nerves (hey)
That's just reality
No, it can't always be
Kisses, hugs, and beautiful words

You was looking for your prince,ooh
What you found (wat u found)

Is a pauper with potential
And no, i'm nowhere near perfect..NO
But i'm around (but im around)
Girl, time and patience is essential
Baby realize...

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt (guess sometimes its gonna hurt)
We can be as happy as we want to be girl
But we gotta make it work
We gotta make it work...

Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh

Thick and thin, (ooh)
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we're 'spose to give it up
My problems are yours,and yours are mine

This can only be as good as we both make it
Guess sometimes its gonna hurt (guess sometimes its gonna hurt)
We can be as happy as we want to be girl
But we gotta make it work
We gotta make it work...

Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh
We gotta make it work...
Ay oh ay oh oh



went shopping spree with ms kim today after school , apparently shes my ATM machine for today.

bought weird stuffs and we ate billy bombers, if i didnt eat lunch in school, i would have finished the whole freaking thing. so in the end, we ate the main portion of the food, but left the sides before leaving the place.

i feel bad today, like, towards my gp teacher, i never attend her lessons ever since that incident, and i walked pass the class today to go to the toilet before leaving school. i bet she saw that. half happy half feeling bad. omg.

PLATES!
what we have been training for, our blood, our sweat, it bores down to tomorrows game. the finals, the training we have been through for 2 years, the injuries, the arguments, the fights and the brotherhood. the plates is ours. kill cjc tmr, i really want that plates badly, no mistackles, no dropballs. i want the plates tmr.


surprise!





its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone
something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show
they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so
there would never be a past

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel so misplaced
is so much simpler than change

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone






Thanks ! for the breakfast!

great day for me today, although i slpt the whole day, but yeah, training was kinda bad, with many arguments and all. we all want the plates badly, all out on friday cougars!


quarrels,arguments
are part of life
dont get affected,
stop the tear falls
and pull yourself up
and continue your long road ahead.

cheer up!



i practically slept the whole day today, reached school at 6.15 and i went to the sickbay at 9, and i woke up at 11.30, missing half of the physics tutorial. oh man. went for maths lecture doh, so the only class i went today, is that of maths.



my name was announced in morning assembly =.=" and mr koh didnt even look at me when i say i was caught for hair, he just shouted, u all are a bunch of idiots, why u never cancel your name when u collect your ez link card? well, i wanted, but that pussy OM dont want me to

i went to sick bay after school, was quite tired and all, many thanks to the bookshop auntie for treating me satay when i was having class, i skipped class for 10mins to snacked on them. i lied down on the bed, and the next moment, it was already 1/2 an hour. i really hate the lack of respect when i saw my handphone, firstly, no one gave u the permission to open my bag, and secondly, even if u are my friend, u made the principal confiscate my stuff, whether or not he is angry, my things arent with me now. fuck u whoever u are.


training was shitty, i dont know why i keep dropping balls. wake up yeemin, plates isnt over yet.







You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through



back from the wake. before going there, i wasnt even bothered about him, somewhat rather emotionless to his death. but after stepping into the place to burn joss sticks for him, i realised, i felt sad, tears almost fall down when i saw his picture. i still cant believe hes dead. a year and 5 months back, we were playing mahjong, laughing, teasing, passing time. played cards with his daughters and i found out that the elder sister didnt change much, maybe uglier, and she went abroad for education! i find no difference in her intellectual level. but well, her boyfriend is thrice her size and paying for her education fees, i wished my girlfriend did that.



going to the wake soon. its the first time i saw my dad shed tears. sigh.










todays a bad bad bad bad day.



why do birds suddenly appear,
everytime u are near?
just like me,
they longed to be,
close to you.
why do stars fall down from the sky,
everytime u walk by?
just like me,
they longed to be,
close to you



XXXXX says :

finals is this week, and we dont even have a proper field to train, or a substitute place to fit our training in. what is our school doing? not acknowledging our sport? utterly disgusted by the principal and the 2nd OM in school.

i was caught for long hair today, and i cut my hair like, 2 weeks ago? and the definition of long, is seriously stupid. in gess, if its REALLY long, or obviously long, yes i have no say, since my hair was always long i dun blame the teacher. i wasnt that pissed when mr koh caught me for my backhair, but at 5pm, i went to get my ez link card back, the teacher said ok, but this OM, with the face of William Hung,glasses of the early 80s and the hair of the worst i have ever seen in my entire life, came and say, OH, side hair long, OH back hair long. fail. dun give dun give. and i explained, i have to go home with the ez link, without the ezlink, how do i get home? and he say, u are a j2, u should know what we do. AND THIS IS THE FIRST FREAKING TIME MY EZ LINK WAS CONFISCATED. and he didnt believe me. AND my hair is short, i even have to use wax to put it down, and what do i get? oh my side hair is TOUCHING my ear, TOUCHING. WTF man! and my back is touching the collar, i swear to god, wearing a pe t shirt and a uniform, the collar length is different. so now here i am, going to see the OM tmr, i will never ever cut my hair. i will see wad he says, at most call parents. HELLO! your son didnt cut his hair. i think my dad will drive down and put a bullet through your nuthead for being so lame.

why do teachers catch us for hair? being visually dirty, untidy or maybe, looking like a gangster. so why do all these useless teachers, go around, catching hair for the fun of it? BEING so DETAILED, oh your hair touched your ear. ez link card pls. WTF. please. seriously, i know sometimes, u teachers cant teach for nuts and u cant get us an A1, but OMG MAN. how ridiculous can this be? i really find no meaning in catching hair which look neat and decent.

I AGREE TO THIS STATEMENT WHOLEHEARTEDLY. TO WHICH SCHOOL I DONT KNOW.



I WATCHED IRON MAN AGAIN TODAY. OMG. YDAY WATCH, TODAY WATCH. omg. i feel so stupid actually. it was boring when u watched it again, esp for a 2 days straight! sigh. library studying was quite a good day today. maybe its because someones there.COME EVERY SUNDAY TO STUDYYYYY XD


i was just joking. anyway, i did so much work today, all my electrolysis, read up on reaction kinetics. i think i can finish my tuition homework by this week.

the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates,the plates, the plates


is ours.



just a another day,
started out like any other.
just another girl who took my breath away,
then she turned around,
she took me down.
just another day that i

have the best day of my life.



my uncle was found dead in his apartment earlier today, it seems he was dead for at least 3 days. sigh. sometimes, i dont know whether to feel sad, or feel angry. i have mixed feelings.
he cant take hardships and all, he always blames people. he even took money from his daughter! omg. i lost all respect since 2 years ago, after pushing his children away, waiting for my mum to rescue him

i feel sad because, hes causing my mum so much grieve, i understand how mnuch my mum loves him, with lending money which wont be returned, supporting his children and all. now his gone, my mum's at lost. sigh.what seem to be a happy family reunion 3 years ago seem like a distant memory at present.


tuition was a disaster today. i have to admit, i only absorbed 50% of what i listened today. i guess i have to recap on what i have learnt tmr, and to study on electrolysis. keep up with the work pace pls. my physics and maths are still lacking. omg.


went to watch iron man today. BLOODYY COOOOL. seriously. it is worth the $10.
new nicknames for my fellow gess mates

steven : pussy queen

bob : nigger king.

LOL. inside joke. anyway. its nice meeting u guys once again. having the same usual laughs at things that dont seem to have any link and any humour. its just the people.


for fag:

its really nice to see u at ccab yday ((: u watched me play and all

I DIDNT GET TO MAKE U EXPLODE CAUSE I STINK! u were lucky. haha (:





Everyday feels all the same
9 to 5 gets so mundane
But something breaks with just one glimpse of you
I would stare so long awhile
Trying to tell you with my eyes
I didn't say a thing I thought you knew

I wish I never did assume, cause...

I was gonna tell you today
I even wrote the words I would say
I finally found the courage
But now it's too far
It took me all this time to reveal
What everything about you does to me
So tell me why did I keep a cover on my heart

Spend all night trying to explore just
How I'd tell you I adore ya
And how I'm moved by every word you say

But today there's an empty space
I've found you gone without a trace
I wish that I coulda told you yesterday

I was gonna tell you today
I even wrote the words
I would say
I finally found the courage
But now it's too far
It took me all this time to reveal
What everything about you
does to me
So tell me why did I keep a cover on my heart

It feels like my point of existence
Has vanished with you in the distance
Whatever it takes I'll persist
Till I see your face again

I was gonna tell you today
I even wrote the words
I would say
I finally found the courage
But now it's too far
It took me all this time to reveal
What everything about you does to me
So tell me why did I keep a cover on my heart ?



i couldnt sleep last night, even though i was dead tired, woke up at 4 am, went back to slp after quite sometime, and i woke up at 6 again. sigh. and the dreams are way way bad. tired.



cougars, 47 - 7. we won nyjc. i am happy, the fact that we played to the game plan, and that i did not miss any tackles today, proved myself to coach, our last match would be next week, i will not let anyone go through the backs, a promise i will make, to retain our plates . go in hard cougars.


chem spa was a disaster, i think i am gonna get like, level 5? or 4 even. omgg. i wrote the wrong test. sians.

i find myself, quite obsessed with piano playing, i think i will take up piano lessons after a levels. lol.

studies!! omg. sigh.

thanks for the contacts solution and casing

thanks for something to be motivated for the match

many thanks. (:



rugby rugby rugby rugby rugby rugby


i am at nevin's house noww.


this is nevin on the line



HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
HAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
YEEMIN DICK DAMN SMALL WAH LAO.
WHO SAY ITS BIG?! hurh?!
IF HE POSTS THIS, THEN HE'S A TRUE FRIEND.
LETS SEEEEEE~!
HEEEEHAIIIII



ok. that was nevin. i am a friend.


hes just jealous of my monster .. ahem.


its the main character of the Blood Orchid.



anyways. i hate people, who doesnt treat girls with respect, talking bad about the boyfriend is one thing, insulting the girlfriend is another. sigh. i really have no comments about that.





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