2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

i hide the tears behind the fall of emotional rain

just to conceal, the path i have taken,

to the road of pain.

how much have i fallen?

i do not know.

have you ever told someone,

something thats far from the truth

letting them know you're ok

just to make them stop,

all the wondering

questions they may have

im okay, i really am now, just needed some time, to figure things out.



looking forward to tmr



Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions a-stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

(Wish) cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do I to a new love

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Bury me
You thought your problems were gone
Carry me
Away, away, away

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of (swing, swing, swing)
My heart (my heart) is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?



studied in school for awhile.

bored.





hey, u play great music ((:



It's like whatever I do
Ooh
I Just can't get through you
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oh
I loved it when you said there was nothin wrong
ohh
listen

[Verse 1:]
Now, now she loved me, shawty I loved her
Used to jump up in the maybach and roll out
Used to care, she used to share
The love that she used to give me can't be found
I lost my way, she said she'd stay
And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us
I told you to leave, but you lied to me
When you said that, baby no worries I promise to get us back

[Chorus:]
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying to travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Why just leave me, just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me, Be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be ooh

[Verse 2:]
She, she don't touch me, I don't touch her
We aint really even ever say a word.
I really want to give her everything she deserves
But, the bad took away the good
She thinks that I'm full of it, arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I'm trying
You never believe me when I say, and I never believe it when you say
I love you, and I shouldn't complain about it
I should take it like a man and walk up out it
Cause we will never be the same ooh
I've been standing in gas, and you have been the flames

[Chorus]
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying to get through
Gotta move this mountain, yeah
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
why you just leave me,
Just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
why you just, just leave me, be
why you just leave me
Be ooh

[Background singing]

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me,
Just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be ooh



I GOT A LETTER FROM AIRFORCE!!!


16TH JULY COMPASS TEST!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG

i hope i pass!



dream come true (:

i hope =/



GG-FIED FOR PHYSICS! WOOOHOOO



Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside?
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak.
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth?
Let them know that you're okay,
Just to make them stop,
All the wondering, and questions they may have.

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face?
In a mirror there's a smile.
But inside you're just a mess?
You feel far from good.
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand,
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too ?
And from that moment, then you see things clear.

Are you waiting for the day,
When your pain will disappear?
When you know that it's not true,
What they say about you?
You could not care less about the things
Surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from the walls...



MY BROTHER IS BACK FROM ENGLAND. OMG

i went out with my parents and my brother after soccer today, i didnt even get to charge my phone. sorry to those who called and msg-ed. ps =.="

watched dont mess with the zohan. holly shit. thats a movie u can never missed this kinda movie. its seriously funny. lol


and while going back, i opened the front door and saw my brother at home. omg. super funny. he scared the shit out of our new maid by suddenly appearing from the backdoor. HAHA! i was thinking, if it was seriously a stranger, how is she going to protect herself judging by my brother's build =.="



dead for maths.

can u imagine, out of 8 questions, 3 are complex numbers? and this 3 questions consist of at least 24 marks or more.

sigh.


played soccer against some jurong sec team.

we won 7:0 which almost led to a quarrel. what sore losers.





when it hurts so deep it leaves a emotional scar.




photocopied gwen's chemistry file

it cost $25.20.

i thought it would hit 50. LOL. well, at least its quite cheap

went to school with durians today, heres gwen's video of opening a durian. LOL



bashed sheng da today with

1) honey
2) pricky heat
3) cover cotton wool over him
4) force him to wear a lingerie.


tmr its mid years for maths. and i dont even know whats complex and regression. omg. lol.





sometimes u gotta go through the pain to experience joy, this too shall pass.






Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why I'm always alone
When you're in my dreams
Calling out, calling out
Haven't you wondered
Why you're finding it hard
Just looking at me
I want you
But I want you to understand
I leave you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you
With the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you
With my last confession
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try and
Make a connection
Of love

Falling out, falling out
Haven't you wondered
If this was ever more
Than a crazy idea
Falling out, falling out
Haven't you wondered
What we could've been
If you'd only let me in

I want you
But I want you to understand
I miss you
I love you

Didn't want to leave you
With the wrong impression
Didn't want to leave you
With my last confession
Of love
Wasn't trying to pull you
In the wrong direction
All I wanna do is try and
Make a connection
Of love

I need you
I love you



some things which speaks my mind in this song.




some things which speaks my mind in this song.



I wanna love,
I wanna leave.
I want you to love me,
I want you to leave me.
I want to stand where I can see,
I'm watching you love me,
And I'm watching you leave me now.

I wish i could be,
Somebody else.
I wish i could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know i need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.

I wanna know if i could be,
Someone to turn to,
That could never hurt you.
But i know what you think of me,
You had a breakthrough,
And now i'm just bad news for you.

I wish i could be,
Somebody else.
I wish i could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know i need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
[these lyrics are found on http://www.songlyrics.com]
To keep you beside me.

I should've told you everything.
I never gave you anything.
I should've told you everything.
If i could give you anything,
Then i would tell you everything.

I wish i could be,
Somebody else.
I wish i could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know i need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.

I should've told you everything.
I should've told you everything.
I should've told you everything



joke of the day

ken: eh why your pre-match preparation songs got paris hilton 1?
kenny: eh, cause i find it catchy
webster: catchy because u need to catch the ball right? no drop ball ah?

LOL. DUN FIGHT EHHHHHHHH DUN FIGHT EHHHHHHH




another boring day

how i wished a levels ended

but then again, if its alr ended, it means i have failed most of the subjects. lol



i played dota till 5.30am today. omg. just to kill my sense of thought about certain matters.

went for tuition today halfdead. and omg. i haven started on studying organic. sighh. holly crap man. i am panicking, esp for physics. and i am not doing anything about it =/

was supposed to go sch study, but ended up slping at home till 4 before heading out to watch kungfu panda with ss. haha. it was seriously funny. first time an animation movie is worth to watch, although the plot is stupid and stuff. but i was wondering, this shit movie is seriously expensive, with jackie chan, jack black, angelina jolie's voice. wonder how much they pay just for those voices =.="




facing reality. things dont always go your way.


really had me going
now its time to go
curtains finally closing
that was quite a show
very entertaining
but its over now..
go on and take a bow.



I could try but it's so useless
In the end they're just excuses
Who have i been fooling?
It seems it's only been myself...



i got back my old phone.

my past came back again.

first 3 months crush, where we liked each other at start, all went well but it came crashing down when she tried to get back with her ex.

so much funny stuffs in my old hp too

pictures, videos and sound clips (((: here and there. (((:

sometimes, all u need is a memory refresh to reminsce the past once more in better detail.

anyways. went to study at commonwealth study room, omg. its super good, air con, place to study, even TOILETS! omg. bad luck for me since its so far from my place

did vectors, and omg my tuition teacher is gonna kill me. didnt do much work and i am still playing dota.


joke of the day for couples


last time ah, he jio me, whoaaa. everyday got breakfast to eat, even got icecream la!!!! so rich
now? yi li tang guo ye mei you =.= ( 1 piece of sweet als odont have )

LOL. super funny. omgg






sigh....





Leaving.




You left me behind
And you don't even see
That what you are doing
Is actually hurting me

ignorance told me otherwise.
But that can't be
Because a true friend wouldn't
Forget about me

But it seems you have
I'm nothing to you
Nothing but a blur
So you go and have fun
With your new found friend
While I go my separate way

And my heart I try to mend.



slacked the whole day again. omg.

nevin sent me this song. look at the lyrics.LOL

There are nine million bicycles in Beijing
That's a fact,
It's a thing we can't deny
Like the fact that I will love you till I die.
We are twelve billion light years from the edge,
That's a guess,
No-one can ever say it's true
But I know that I will always be with you.
I'm warmed by the fire of your love everyday So don't call me a liar,
Just believe everything that I say
There are six BILLION people in the world
More or less and it makes me feel quite small
But you're the one I love the most of all

cool huh? lol



studied with ken and ss in school today, omg. i think i am gonna fail a levels. sigh

went straight to west coast and we looked for crabs, i went digging in the sand while ken went flipping rocks, and i caught a big crab and ken got none. LOL. we wanted to bbq the crab as food but gwen came by and started her yaba yaba and complained so much that we gave up, and she released it. IN THE DRAIN. wow, so the outcome is? the crab still dies =.="

ken and i brought stuffs to bash ernest, but in the end, no1 wanted to bash him. lol. no1 loves ernest. AWWWWWWWWWWWWW. so in teh end, the rotten durian, the super hot medicated oil went to waste. heres the joke of the day

nevin: WOW is this a pineapple tree?! ( pointing at a palm tree)
AMG: NO? pineapple dont grow on trees!
nevin: REALLY MEH! ( give that stunned face)
nevin: omg. =.="


LOL.


played block catching cum police and theif even though the security guard was pissed about it. we even thought maybe the guard house will be the place to put all the theives when they get caught. LOL. and the easiest way to free them?

anyone:EH AH BANG!
security guard: wad?
anyone: COME GO FAR EAST PLAZA CUT COCK AHHHHH! CUT COCK!!!

101% the security guard will chase u and the theives are freed. LOL


went to watch soccer at west coast mac, quite boring doh, cause i dont really know anything about soccer, and yeah. i support the team with nice jersey, but they lost. LOL. whatever mann.





and i miss you more each day (:



went to buy durians for lunch with gwen, ken and ernest. we took like. 15mins to choose, and end up with 5 durians, with 2 spoilt ones.LOL. this was wad gwen said while trying to open the durian

gwen: omg i cannot!
ernest: pushh.. pushh.. push hardderr
gwen: i am trying i am trying!!
ernest: slowly, take a deep breath, pushh
gwen: YES its out!
ernest: yay, baby chu lai liao.

LOL.




trying to take a picture of love....

Ohhh

yeah Oh, oh

[Verse 1:]

I was

I was always quick to trip in turn and say I'm sorry

Guess I

Guess I

always thought that nigga made everything ok I did

Did my share of dirt

I know you probably heard about me

When you

When you asked how I would just lie to your face And I

[Hook:]

I didn't appreciate

Even when you walked away

I didn't realize

[Chorus:]

That you were the one thing I should've kept 'part of me

And baby I just can't deal without you

Your all I need I know

I didn't say much But girl your the only one I'm trippin' without you

I think about it everytime II, I, I, I, I, I Everytime II, I, I, I, I, I, I

[Verse 2:]

Told you

Told you you were insecure when you'd be asking questions I had

Had you second guessing yourself and what you mean to me

If I If I could take it back I would (I would)

If I could take it all back I would (I would)

Instead of playing games

It's time I play for keeps And I

[Hook:]

I didn't appreciate

Even when you walked away I didn't realize.

i realised, never judge a book by its cover. one may look innocent and pure but perverse and polluted inside. well, i am not qouting anyone. i am quite shocked by what i have heard. i am just worried, but nevertheless, i do agree with my friend, i cant protect her forever even if i did tried to protect her once. but yeah, i shouldnt.i have already moved on,its been awhile since i have started living days without thinking about you and feel depressed, depressed for everything i have done.the memories of my wrong doings have haunt me, and that much i am ashamed. ashamed of myself, for what i have done and not do to salvage even a simple friendship.i dont wanna cause anymore misunderstandings which i may have to clear in the later part of the year. i have created such mess at present and i dont wanna cause anymore unnecessary troubles for myself.

i hope u see this,

but,

be careful and do take care.


i didnt do much work today, i spent the whole day running , watching tv and when i started work, ernest gave me an offer to irresistable

"eh my mum coming fetch, wan go? "

and i did. omgg. maths block test... sigh..




take my hand,
take my life,

but just dont take forever...

og outing, with 7 ppl, LOL. quite alot huh? went to sentosa and what we did?

1) share a tent with some unknown ppl who took advantage of our small group
2) played vball with their ball
3) made jinyi's grave.
4) protecting jin yi sandcastle from the water


yeah thats about it. lol. before leaving sentosa, i broke my slippers, omg. i was like limping and i took off my slippers and walk ard barefooted. super maluuuuuuuuu


in the end, giant save the day with superglue. (:

You left me,

left me wanting you..

been a long day.

went to vivo yday to buy some stuffs, i was stunned about some stuffs. yeah. it was kinda funny doh. hope u like dumbo anyways (:

woke up early to get mac breakfast, i slept for only 2 hours today. and i feel dead tired now. went to play soccer and i realised i have to study after playing for 2 hours. but in the end, my brain wasnt working well, i was too tired. so here i am, at home. stoning in front of the comp. oh gawdddddddddddddddddddddd. i am freaking tiredddd.........................................



i wont let you fall....
forever ever ever ever ever
forever ........



woke up due to kh call,due to the fact she thought me,darren and the rest were in school, but i was asleep. met her at lot 1 for lunch today. apparently both zs and her are doing well ((: thats nice to hear.

met auntie ss after that to study at yew tee mac. studied alittle, hwa chong people are really.. omg. godly in almost everything. but apparently, the deal was to teach me complex numbers. no 1 understood that chapter. so i did chemistry again.SORRY ONCE AGAIN!!!!!!!!! and i went out ((: had quite abit of fun before heading home.






just another day that i

have the best day of my life!



went to school but i ponned lecture. after past experience, it tells me i will play in lecture and i will not listen.

i didnt do work in the end. track training from 12.15 till 2.30. and i puked. LOL. ate too much junk food before working out. tried to study but there was AGM. kin onn was so disappointed when we jokingly elected him for quartermaster again. you should have seen his sad face and his depress expression before he went to collect the pizzas. i bet he was thinking. " wa lao why they never put me as captain? " but eventually. he was still captain. bottom line is. hes happy. LOL.

played contact and we really sucked after 1 month of mugging.

zaid drop ball for the first pass

we stand super shallow

not organize

NEVIN DROP BALL (YEAHHHHHHH THIS IS THE HIGHLIGHT BITCH SIDE STEP SO WAD! STILL DROP BALLLLLL )


no matter how much your heart is broken
the world doesnt stop to grief
life goes on




woke up late again. omg i cant get use to going to sch myself. so much difficulty. now i really understand those people who doesnt have parents to drive them to school. omgg. bought mac breakfast for myself, and i chanced upon some delicious stuff at mccafe ((: well i think its nice. LOL

i realised i shouldnt go any lecture, i either stone, or play cards. sigh. will i ever learn?

went out withe 07s20 for dinner at swensens to send bao bao off. lol. luckily the student's meal offer still hold. i think its worth it. 9.80 for a meal and unlimited drinks! or 2 icecream. OMGG seriously. should try man. its freaking cheap.




fallen for you,
have u fallen to someone else?



i realised nothing goes in during maths lecture.

trained running today. almost died for pushing myself too hard. sigh.

didnt study much today. omggg







damaged.



PCMB.

oh my god. the initial test stuff was quite ok, but the injection hurt like no mother's business. not because it hurt, but its because the doc couldnt find my vein. so he just talk to me while wiggling the freaking needle in my flesh. now its like, a blue black there? lol. the best part was, i did the IQ test twice, due to some problems with the comp, so the initial ending time of 3 pm became 4.30 pm. was rather giddy while walking to the bus stop. called some of my friends, apparently all didnt wanna go out. so i went back and watch some dumb shows.

"how i met your mother"
"big bang theory"

you really should watch this 2. lol. keeps me in a good mood when i am down.

is this a bad day or a good day?
i cant decide. sigh


who says love heals you?



"I'm With You"

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right and everythings a mess and no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you



studied again. study study study. my morning wasnt a good start, i came at 8.30 and i found out the trackers have ran their rounds and i was left alone. did my own routine, i couldnt even complete a 25 storey vertical without walking alittle. omg. thats why i have a tummy.

went to study, but i couldnt for a moment, had many things on my mind which nevin and darren disturbed me about. yeah, dont wanna talk into detail. but i hope i can get over it soon.1 plate of studies for me pls.

went out with kh to slack around and talk,we went to this prank shop which sold things like fart bomb, those small capsule thingy which stinks the hell out of people, afterwhich we went to nydc for a meal, before heading to the playground near yimin's house to sit and talk, yeah. memories came back, and i am still wondering why i was there. haha. helped zhishen talk afew stuffs, and apparently he got angry. wth. it was just a joke. hai. i have no comments on that.



my spider have not had its breakfast/lunch/dinner for 3 days! omg



learnt about some news today.
shocking?
relief?
stunned?


i have no comments, kinda upset. luckily theres june holidays. priorities to the studies.





i hope.





Move faster
I can't move enough
How much longer?
Is this long enough?
We can't be
And it won't even catch your attention
And it pains me so to mention



studied at the library with kh, darren,mel and park before i went for my race.

omg man, its my first time and i dropped the baton during the 4x100m race. faint =.=" so malu la. but the 4x400 i ran well, although not up to standard, but i know i ran my best for now. gonna train up for my speed once more.


thanks to kh for going to watch my run today ((:
thanks to marla for cheering ((:


nobody knows the rhythm of my heart
the way i do when i am lying in the dark
and the world's asleep