2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

i caught myself trying to understand the meaning of love.
i am confused with issues that seemed trival now.
i woke up this morning with a dream
that left me with a heartache.
a regret for what i have done

a dream whereby, we talked, we laughed, we actually interacted
rather than our present situation
where even a simple gesture of a wave from you,
would just make my day.
after all we have been through.
after all the misunderstandings,

the pain i have caused,
and u have caused on me.
we result in cold shoulder treatments,
unhappiness, staring at each other with such disdain
it pierces.

what happened to the happy ending?
what happened to us?
or rather, what was wrong with me as it is to you?
so many unanswered questions,
so many upsetting rumours.
and i just cant help it.

sometimes i caught a glimpse of you,
when i did, u stared back at me,
and looked away.
i wonder whats on your mind,
how did all these happened so fast
in just a few weeks of overseas trip?
the dreams bring me back
to the day ive lost you.

but at least,
i get to talk,
i get to see you rather than stealing a look
i get to look into your eyes once more
and stab myself

for being so blind in the past
to not cherish the love u gave
that i threw it away
even before i had the chance to embrace it with mine.



won 2nd for interhouse volleyball. super funny la seriously =.=" i can have players from other houses playing for my team and end up winning his own house. played a lil rugby before i realised my hamstring didnt recover in time for just a drop kick. so now its at its worsen state. !#%!#%#



deleted.



you arent even worth to be on my friends list.

childish
petty
short tempered
crazy

princess? i doubt so



interesting conv with jess

jess: soccer is the worse sport ever,seriously

me: where got, why?

jess: duno,looks lame

me: i find watching soccer is stupid but i dun mind playing

jess: both also stupid lo! kick here kick there

me: den wad is not stupid? den u think play bball bounce here bounce tehre veyr
fun ah

jess: ITS THE BEST got stunts

me: soccer also hav wad

jess: BASKETBALL IS THE BEST soccer what stunt the stunt so ugly

me: bball also
the stun where got stunt
so ugly la pls
the ball
bounce here bounc there
tunr body here and there
without the ball i also can do wad

jess: NOOO
BASKETBALL IS THE BESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT]
NOO

me: PLEASEE
IT ISNT BBALL ISNT THE BEST
ITS JUST BOUNCING BALLS



a sad love story by some korean singer ss intro to me


“Its been awhile”
“yeah, been awhile”
“have u been well?”
“Yeah.”

Why did I fall in love with you?
No matter how much time has flown by,
I thought you would always be there.
But what u chose was a different path,

Why couldn’t I get through to you?
The feelings get stronger day and night.
The overflowing words
Although understood,
Will never reach you again

From the day we first met
I felt like I’ve known u
We melted into each other so naturally
We went everywhere together
U would always be there with me

We’ve grown up together
But what u chose was a different path
Why couldn’t I get through to you?
Why did I fall in love with you?
No matter how much time has flown by
I thought you would always be there
But I cant go back anymore

This day of special meaning
This day u stand with a happy face
Beautifully praying to god
Beside is someone who isn’t me and being blessed
How shall I let that go?

“ I am getting married”

So why? Did I fall in love with you?
What we did during those days
I cant return to it anymore
I’ve thought it over

Why couldn’t I hold onto your hand?
No matter how much time has flown by
I thought you would always be there
Just like we were

Even though u are away from my side
Im just praying u’ll be happy for eternity
No matter how lonely I may be

“ be happy”

“farewell”



I THINK I PULLED MY HAMSTRING

i cant walk properly
i cant stand up without feeling pain
i cant walk up stairs without feeling the pain too


arghh..



shittttttttt..............


ok, i have been trying to cut down on my vulgarities, which
is kinda hard =.=" but well, to kh's counter, which is 9,

uncertainty + - 5

i think its going well. LOL. for the past 2 days.



bad day today.

lost my fullscape ( with my notes) omg. i took the whole day yday to make them. sigh. i did econs paper for the first time, trying to write properly. i hope i do pass this test... went running with elgin and fatty bao today, to je and back to sch. haha. tired now. no mood to do anything. arghh..



nice song! by daughtry,

titled : Used To



You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow
To no place in particular

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star that i'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

I used to reach for you
I got lost along the way
I used to listen
You always had the just right thing to say
I used to follow you
Never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow
To anywhere at all

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

I look around me
And I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It's empty and you're sad
Cause you miss the love that we had

You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
The only one around

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be

To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to beeeeeeee
To how it used to be






for those who cant see clearly, darrens nick, states

i am doing what a man should do now, dont disturb 1st ok

LOL! if u get wad i mean.LOLOLOL




i am just waiting for study break to come.


GOD SAVE ME. 4 MORE MONTHS TO ENDURE BEFORE FREEDOM



went to school for 3 reasons

1) eat sugarcane
2) pluck rambutans
3) study abit.

lol. its been awhile since i ate sugarcane and plucking rambutan =.=" i didnt know our school grew all this kinda shit. lol.

watched hellboy with ken =.= i feel gay. and yeah its nicee.



i cant smile without you




Funny Videos



studies. studies studies.

sigh.

todays maths was a disaster.

today phy tuition

tmr chem tuition.

gonna cancel my chem tution soon.


sigh.



thanks kh, for your company today.
sorry to ps u alone to wait for the bus. haha.



went to cmpb today just for some stupid x ray for dental purposes =.=" in the end, i went to queens lib but i couldnt study . gonna fail maths tmr.


dark knight is seriously good. duration and plot is a well done (:
thanks for the treat. haha



As a child there were the times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you, you know?"
But when we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face




Song lyrics | Better In Time lyrics



wa sian. i think i screw up my test =.=" i finished way earlier den the rest, like the supposed 5 hour duration became 2 hours to me =.=" sighhhhhh.lets hope i dun get rejected =.="""""

testimonial was quite fun, i realized, coach analyse us from testimonial, whether we are good enough. before training us. sian. but we had a good match. i lift kin onn fat arse and threw him over . in his face !




a levels. omg



i hope all goes well tmrrr ....



AIRFORCE AIRFORCE AIRFORCE AIRFORCE

TMR TMR TMR TMR

TESTIMONIAL TESTIMONIAL TESTIMONIAL

TMR TMR TMRR



I AM VEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH VEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH VEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH VEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

EXCITEDDD!!!!



i am glad for u, to have chosen a guy like him. its much better than the other i expected



have u ever thought why are we studying so hard?
is it for the sake of obtaining knowledge?
or just for the sake of scoring A levels and forgetting everything we learnt ?

sometimes, i get confused, even with myself.
on what i am doing and thinking.
my mind plays with me
constantly,

was talking to gwen awhile ago,
i dont know why,
but i felt kinda depressed about certain issues which i shant say.
i just feel i lack something,
empty inside, i dont understand why.

the past grips hold of me constantly,
reminding me of my flaws,
my faults
my errors
my decision that led me to where i am now.

i wonder, what will happen after a levels?
i hope i qualify for air force,
i know myself that i wont score well for a levels.

im not a bookworm,
not studies inclined like my brother.
shouldnt have gone jc,
should have gone to poly
lesser stress
lesser problems
more of a carefree life
with my sec sch friends......





who am i?



I AM VERRRRRRRR VERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR VERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR


verrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYY EXCITEDDDD

for testimonial



and compass test (:

to my dreams!



i dont have an answer,
words could not erase it
i could try
but its so useless
in the end they're just excuses.
who am i been fooling?

guess i've ran out of chances
and u have ran out of reasons
to take me back
but even she knew
my heart's made to only ____ you.



lost the race =/ we could have done better. well, at least we did our best.

went for physics tuition today. 4 hours non stop because we stayed for j1 class too. and the clerk was like, hey, next week second week ahhh. cannot stay back anymore. wtf? so stingy.






DRAGONLANCE IS A *%*#$@%@*^#$*$ NICE BOOK TO READ



tmr 4 x 400 race. not very confident due to lack of training. will do my best. (:



woke up at sickbay today

ym: eh? where my wallet? hmm i think in my bag
10 min later,
ym: i remember i brought it in leh. shit. got ppl steal?

( pick up fone, saw an sms)

kh: haha. i hide your wallet (: have fun finding it


WTF! i didnt even notice her coming in. %$#%*$&%@$^!#$%!#

it was under my bed doh. =.="



rumours spread damn fast. thanks to you (: what a friend you are. i have no comments.



trained for track today before joining the ruggers for training. its been a long time since i played, the body aches i feel now is like the ones when i joined during j1, injuries still stayed from the past season, back problems and pelvis bone ache.

studied only 2 chapters of j1 physics before heading home.



testimonial match on wednesday. (:






ENJOY!



Sometimes a heart moved just by a small smile
Some words that have been spoken out
might not be the real intention
Sometimes pain can be felt
with just a mere eye contact
The person who knows you will understand your reason of being hurt
A mail without address
even though it has alot of letters yet to send.
Don't touch the past,
a couple who never cried will never understand
You said its infatuation
Is the word always need to be used ?
Who says sincerity is a panorama that cannot be seen in the road?
Used my whole life to find a word that moves a heart
You are giving the dream that is different from others
Actually the most heart moving voice is called



love.



sometimes, the one u trust cause the most problems in life. rumours came, causing me much difficulty to explain the truth. for other's laugther and fun, i have explanations to settle to others before i could even smile. ha. what a joke.

bao bao tried drawing some pokemon stuffs. took video and pictures. apparently, my bluetooth on my laptop isnt working. screw this junk. haha. will upload them when my comp works.



Quietness has crossed over to strangeness
i sat there, alone
quietly looking at morning and sunset
Your silhouette,
fading away,
falling slowly
Darkness is already encircling us in the sky
where should i face?
I can't see
Blindly chasing and looking
yet i am still empty-handed
On a grey and unclear night,
in search of sleep to engulf my sadness
but Before I know it
loneliness is lying beside me
Perhaps love is at the other end of a dream
unable to survive in the realms of reality......





went for soccer in the morning. my back hurts as usual. i couldnt really feel my legs after playing 3 matches. and the 3rd match lasted like, 5min before we lost =.=" super sian. studied with ken and company, many thanks to ss for studying with us, although she went cause she felt guilty for ps-ing us on saturday. haha.
wanted! tmr xD





moving on,

grudually.



didnt study today. its been a long day, i stoned, played dota, watched tv and read the book min lent me. a levels. omg.





If voicing my feelings can form sentences
If voicing my thoughts can lead to translation
If all of this could really happen
I would want to conceal my isolation
And stay here without any deadline
then slowly review the past
That tragedy which allowed me
to fall in love with you
It was your perfect performance
I rather weep with a broken heart,
and then fervently forget everything
Let the crystal teardrops sparkle into memories
Into hurtful beauty
thoughts flood into my mind
Making it so hard for me to jot down my dislike
I leave my heart behind to write a journal
And a silent movie,
The harsh words sounded like words of assault
I have no strength left to speak of it again





haha. enjoy (:
Funny Videos



Playing an opening theme,
looking into the sky
I think of the petals trying to fall
That day the flower fell
The restricted space of the heart
Why didnt I see it?
That rainy day that disappeared ,
How I want to be rained upon again
Never thought that I still kept my lost courage
How I want to ask again
will u be here or will you go away?
That day the wind blew
I tried to hold your hand
But unfortunately,
the rain kept on falling until I couldn’t see you
How much longer until I can be beside you again?
Waiting for the day to turn clear,
maybe I’ll be a little better then
Long ago, a person loved you
But unfortunately, the wind kept on blowing,
widening the gap so much further
So difficult, I have another chance to love again.
But it seems that,
at the end of the fairy tale
you still said,




Goodbye.



jevon: eh? why the place close?
me: wait i call
me: huh? the tuition is at orchard? =.="

so we decided to go for the friday, 5.30 session at clementi. omg. not fated to go for tuition i guess. study study study study.


i seriously have no life.



but at least this stops me from thinking alot


You came from the rain of sadness
transforming sorrow into a poem and I am now drenched.
the melody plays,
Where is the sound of zither coming from?
It’s hard to predict the present,
when the past still lingers.
what does the future holds?



special thanks to kh for her company yday. she came all the way there, to watch 25 seconds of the race before heading back to school. haha. i feel bad


went for training today. less than 1/2 turned up. what kinda team we have. sigh. the usual few came, and the uncommon one " joel" came. LOL. stunned. and he outran me at 1 point. omg.
been a long time since we had training. very obvious we werent fit now. haha.



i had a wonderful time yday with my sec sch mates. been a long time since i saw them. we went to watch hancock, okay, its a stupid show. the plot wasnt nice, and the trailer showed most of the exciting parts. not recommended for a thrill.

went driving around in ari's car, ate at spize. catched up with stuffs, from chia hong, who came back from Aus, ari and mr GOD. yeah, we headed to GESS at 1am and broke into the school compound, walked around, made some noise and we got stuck due to heavy rain. classic ghost story. stuck there, with toilet lights on with no apparent reason, yeah. we left after the rain subsided and headed to kin onn's house.





There’s a rainstorm in my heart,
yet it doesnt affect the dryness of her hair.
As tears smudge the words of concern in the postcard
I realize sorrow knows no difference in time
There’s a rainstorm in my heart
yet the raindrops will never reach her
The cold wind that passes by the branches in the garden
froze the fresh flowers in my hands



incomplete blogskin. making up later



tmr is my race, and i am not prepared. gonna be like, the last? sian.






the more i didnt want to see you, the more i did. the more i wanted to see you, the more i didnt.
god really knows how to play



TODAY I DID SOMETHING I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER DO IN MY ENTIRE LIFE

HERE ARE THE LISTS OF MY FORBIDDEN
1) DATE A YOUNGER GIRL
2) BE A CHRISTIAN
3) WATCH A CHRISTIAN MOVIE

GUESS WHICH VOW I BROKE?

I WATCHED I FREAKING CHRISTIAN MOVIE TODAY. ok la. quite nice la. but 75% of it is about church, the show's called driving lessons. omg. its super boring. i almost puked blood watching that crap. although the story line is good, like, some kid being controlled , end up being free, but THERES NO FREAKING CLIMAX. so yeah. thanks for next week's movie ((((((((: WANTED!

played bishi bashi, to release all the stress i have, it was fun, i realised, selling things on e bay is risky, its like, if sold, u just meet up with the person, pass the things and leave. they didnt even check!wad if its faulty? or spoilt?