2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

have u ever thought why are we studying so hard?
is it for the sake of obtaining knowledge?
or just for the sake of scoring A levels and forgetting everything we learnt ?

sometimes, i get confused, even with myself.
on what i am doing and thinking.
my mind plays with me
constantly,

was talking to gwen awhile ago,
i dont know why,
but i felt kinda depressed about certain issues which i shant say.
i just feel i lack something,
empty inside, i dont understand why.

the past grips hold of me constantly,
reminding me of my flaws,
my faults
my errors
my decision that led me to where i am now.

i wonder, what will happen after a levels?
i hope i qualify for air force,
i know myself that i wont score well for a levels.

im not a bookworm,
not studies inclined like my brother.
shouldnt have gone jc,
should have gone to poly
lesser stress
lesser problems
more of a carefree life
with my sec sch friends......





who am i?