2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

ITS HALLOWEEEN.


and i am not going out to collect sweets.


fuck a levels.


lol. i remember park came last year.


N was at my house.


but in the end we still went for trick or treat.

the funniest part was,




the majority of the sweets were from these china men, shouting lai lai lai! tang guo! and no1 came but us. LOL. they bought like 3 full boxes of sweets. super racist man. hahha.




well thats the past. its time to look ahead.



new skin, new journey.




a levels are over soon.


roughly 20 days.


jc life is over.








2 years gone this fast.










and i am dead happy for a levels to end, no more studying this hard. ( if i can count myself studying hard that is )

fishing! here i come



went to meet hanipple mata and bob after studying at np. super hot at np there. they stayed over, and we gambled slaps. i owe bob 116 slaps. wtf omg ??#!%!@!! damn lucky seriously. no comments. anyway. he tried to slap me but i avoid all. haha. went to sch to study as usual.

ken: eh asymtote is same number of proton and electron different number of neutrons right?
ym: er? asymtote ?
ken: yeah. is it? same number??
ym: err. asymtote?
ken: yeah why?
ym: ERRRR ASYMTOTE LEH
ken: yeah wad thing.
webster: i tot thats maths
ken: oh yeah.





anyways. apart from the unglam moments of ken tan. he got wad he deserves after pangsehing us for his "girl" hahaha. classic moment. (:





rewind back on a time machine to set things right.



There wasn't anything I didn't love about u,
You'd do some stupid things and I'd laugh at those too,
And we went together like the summer in June
But who'd have known that it'd rain so soon

Thought I'd be the only one that'd make u smile,
Thought I'd be the only one that'd really know how
But u showed me different and I know better now,
I gotta get u out my system somehow

I replay it over and over again
U were my girl, now we 'ain't even friends,
U could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing,
Now to me your nothing, girl u r nothing, now your nothing

Put u on a pedestal, girl I held u so high
Was never too good at finding the words to describe,
Just how I felt for u but u know that I tried,
But somehow we went and changed inside

U damn near were my everything your still on my mind,
But I'd rather be here all alone and I'm doin just fine
Gotta take it back to the days before we met
And live our lives as strangers again

I replay it over and over again
U were my girl, now we 'ain't even friends,
U could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing,
Now to me your nothing, girl u r nothing, now your nothing

I replay it over and over again
U were my girl, now we 'ain't even friends,
U could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing,
Now to me your nothing, girl u r nothing, now your nothing

December days, my summer turned to winter
When u went away - I can't help but wonder
Was he worth my pain - U shud know better - and I shouldve too
And I cried, and u cried and we tried to make it work,
Almost died while we tried, is that what our love was worth,
If I cud do it again, I would be a better man,
Now I'm living with just memories


I replay it over and over again
U were my girl, now we 'ain't even friends,
U could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing,
Now to me your nothing, girl u r nothing, now your nothing



virgin match of my juniors tmr in jjc against bbss. lol. all the best to my juniors. pls play well and dun be too nervous. (:


went for training today for their preparations. they seem to be ready, not sure about their forwards doh, they are still abit shaky in terms of scrums, line outs and their genre play.




26 more days.

when stress just takes over and u just cant help it.

I WONT BE FAT ANYMORE.

i hope.. . . . . .

bbss match on saturday. its roughly 1 + years since i last saw them, and now my juniors are going against them. PLEASE. %@&@%&$ them up. do us a favour. LOL. but i think u all can. counting on u guys, lucas, shengda, edmund, the gay twins.

27 more days 27 more days 27 more days. away from school, japan after a levels. i want to see the sceneries, away from the books. eat the apples there when singapore apples taste like shit.

and i still need to lose weight. gonna start running once a week alr. my 42.195km is on the line. i dont want to come back without a finisher T.



ok. i think i overdid some stuffs to kin onn. LOL. i wore his training gear to play before his training. cool huh. LOL. he was quite pissed, but yeah u noe, christians cant be pissed too long. so he just let it go. LOL. heng, it he were m_slim, i think i will be staring at a bomb at my doorstep now.

school is boring, i realised when theres no 1 in school, its even worse.at least j1s can talk and stuff, but today, not even 1 j1 stay back ( those i know at least ) library tmr. 28 more days man.





FREEDOM BABY!


ces yeux (:



hectic day, went to school, and i realised, our usual occupied table is empty, luckily winifred accompanied me, if not, i dont know wad to do. LOL. seriously, without j2s, the j1s just stare at u blankly. and going assembly is even worse. quite contradicting, i dont go assembly even when i have school and now i go assembly when i dont. =.=


i think, a levels. die. LOL.




list to do after a levels

fishing
japan and indo!
tease the j1s since i have no more work
rugby
train running (42 km run =.=" )
LOSE WEIGHT


and the list goes on




ce sourire doux (:






so we got our treat today. we ordered the most expensive food.

seafood platter for 2! plus upgrading for a meal and we ordered cheesecake for dessert. look at mr chua and his ku xiao.


hahaha.

what me and elwin think what mr chua was thinking at that moment

mr chua thinking....

( why did i say any food?? why cant i just say school canteen? damn it)

( why didnt i dare the other nerds on the other table? why am i so stupid? )

ok anyway. damage done, and the total cost was $122. ouch. lol. and park didnt get the treat, ken took it in his place. lol.



tombé pour vous (:






we had our fun on the last day of school, initially it all seemed stupid, wearing tie , long socks, sandals, and uniform. but we accepted the bet of fish and co meal to walk into the GO and speak to the principal. we even took a picture. haha. okay, school ends this week, time passes so fast huh, 2 years just like that and a levels around the corner.



All Sides
Shattered
In a way, I need a change
From this burnout scene
Another time, another town
Another everything
But it's always back to you

Stumble out, in the night
From the pouring rain
Made the block, sat and thought
There's more I need
It's always back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

I had no idea that the night
Would take so damn long
Took it out, on the street
While the rain still falls
Push me back to you

But I'm good without ya
Yeah, I'm good without you
Yeah, yeah, yeah

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
Give me a break let me make my own pattern
All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around

Give it up, give it up, baby
Give it up, give it up, now
Now

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around
All that I feel is the realness I'm faking
Taking my time but it's time that I'm wasting
Always turn the car around

How many times can I break till I shatter?
Over the line can't define what I'm after
I always turn the car around

Don't wanna turn that car around
I gotta turn this thing around



my chinese teacher's a arrogant fuck.

she used her tissue paper, thinking it could chop her seat. wad lame logic is this? and the school was supposed to be close at 10pm, and she went around asking every1 to leave at 9.20. wads wrong with her? her age getting to her brain? and she left the other teacher alone? like, wo zou le zai jian. no responsibility, screwed up teacher. she should have just quit her job and work as a cleaning auntie. i rather spit in her face den greet her in school.






spoilt day.



ok rugby training today got me bruises and cuts once again. on the stomach, the hand, the fingers. its good to train once more, with the juniors, have fun, play. i wonder how i felt last year, during our j1s, when we were training, so seriously, just because our seniors looked down on us, didnt bother to even train us. laughed at us as we trained our first few trainings due to drop balls. and now here i am, playing with my juniors, laughing, teasing, smiling. a huge contrast isnt it? and i am content, with their level of skill, it seems its about to pass our level, or maybe a little more experience would do the job. and its quite hard to believe when 1 of my juniors came up to me. " eh teach me tackling leh " and i didnt know wad to say, too long never play, and my tackling wasnt one of the best in the team either.

a levels is just 28 days away, 40 days to over. it will be the longest 40days.








the pain comes, not from the cuts, the bruises. but from that smile



there might be a slight change in me.


i guess one thing is true

i am voided of emotions



feelings


i dont feel anything anymore.


no heart throbs


i dont know why.


is this good or bad?



i cant


i just cant..






sorry



Photo - Ryan Cabera

A photo can say a thousand things
But it can't say the million words
I wanna say
A photo can capture the way we were
But it can't capture the way we are
Cause you're far away

What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you
Yeah...

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I'm looking at your picture
Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

Timing lost minutes and moments
Yeah, I might be lonely, girl
But I'm not afraid
In a second, it all comes right back to me
No, nothing's forgotten now
Yeah, everything's saved

What it's like to touch you
What it's like to know you
Yeah...

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I'm looking at your picture
Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

You were my life
You were my faith
You gave me hope everyday

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I'm looking at your picture
Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day you and me will have




One more shot..



29 days 29 days 29 dayssssss........................................