2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

ok so jevon got the biggest epic fail.



joke. ok nvm. lol



i just received a wrong sms from 1 of my friend in army. and since his 1 of my close friends, i just asked him hows ns. heres the actual word for word phrase
lol. hows ns bitch?

and he replies.

seriously this is fucking not funny neither is it cool . just like i say u are fucking asshole u happy? bitch is a fucknig female dog. imagine some1 call u a bastard. fuck.


WTF? thats like, fucking lame? im being nice asking for hows he doing in the army and he kp so much? like i killed his mum. thats seriously lame.








sometimes things dont go according to what u thought it would be. you cant give in your all because the fall would only be harder, but like what darren and i used to say. do the things from your heart, and that will truly make your actions worthwhile, even if it backfires. so to make it short, think with your backside la. haha. theres so much to say but i just cant seem to pen them down, maybe its my command of english. haha.


there are times i think of forbidden, for those who understands, yeah. i woke up from a dream from her a couple of days ago, zhi hao considered it the ex day. 29th jan i think. yeah. because we both dreamt of our ex. lucky for him, he got a call from her on that day, haha.mine dont even bother replying a text msg. i remembered parts of it, seeing her cry and stuff, watching her scold me. i woke up in the middle of that night, i couldnt slp then, i can see her extent of hating me for many misunderstandings and worse of all is we dont even know what we are fighting for, or maybe its just me that is still in this void. i recently used fb, even though its been there for a year, the password always triggers memories, pleasant ones.

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

Ah ah ah ah~

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind

My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times


Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous

you should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by

It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you


Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye



from this part on, i doubt anyone would understand what im talking about.
ns is coming in 3 months, i shouldnt be doing all these, thinking of all these, i shouldnt let myself be vulnerable again, but yet i did. that piercing feeling, that heavy weight fell on me, and i cant do anything about it.





when u have everything, u start to feel that u have nothing.



i cant help myself
i just wanna scream and lose control
throw my hands up and letting go
forget about everything and run away yeahhhhh
i just wanna fall and lose myself
laughing so hard it hurts like hell
forget about everything and run away... yeahhhhhhhh



okay. i just stoned the whole day at home. woke up at 1pm and i played dota till 9pm. so its an estimated 11 games in total. omg. and i feel giddy now.










i need a job =.=



failed my ftt. sian. haii. they give questions that are lame.

wtf is

when should u on your headlights?
a) 7pm to 7am
b) 7.15pm to 7.15am
c) 7.30pm to 730am

wtf? isnt supposed to be like, dark before u on your headlights? so if its dark at 6, i should wait till 7 to switch it on? lameness. how do you study this kinda shit?


anyways. went back to play abit of rugby with the juniors.i miss the days i trained hard and stuff. i lend pants from lucas, shirt from kin onn

ok. so i owe people afew, wait, maybe alot of things

1) kin onn. 2 shirts and a berm
2) lucas . his pants
3) ted, his shirt.


lol. damn.





sigh. stomach ache.



knn pok. sian. i lsot 110 from gambling. maybe this year isnt my year. lol. jian house was damn fun, rock band and everything. seriously. i should get 1 at home too. lol. went out to eat supper before my brother fetched me home at 4am. and i learnt a new secret. my house can break in without keys or anything. my bro's ex found a way just to get into the house and slp beside my brother last time. and fuck, i didnt know it could be done.

and so i climbed into my house and was off to bed.



woke up at 10 just to make sure i wasnt late, went to do a couple of things before giving morning calls. and soon i realized i was going to be late. i rushed out of house even before my cous came. lol. she seems pissed. ok anyways, meet cat at yck mrt before heading to gv. watched inkheart with pq cat and darren. ok la. the show is quite boring, quite lame actually =.=" but the soundtrack is catchy. u noe, like kenny groins match prep song ?




home is boring. and total angbao collected is currently. ONE. sians. nvm,the weekend is coming. and i am still shitting over tmr's FTT.





i think i have heard,
an unspoken word

i seem to hear,
something so clear

its in your eyes
its in your smile

unspoken,
yet there


all these while...



i hung up the phone tonight,
something happened for the first time, deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever
Feel the same way about me
It’s just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another Crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin away, goin away

Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging
Spending time girl, are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
Cause I believe we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever
[ Crush lyrics from http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/ ]

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin away, goin away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it realor just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin away, goin away



didnt slp last night, talked the whole morning till 7am. haha. thanks for your company (:

anyway. headed down to meet zh, raied, yanshan,darren,nevin to go for a ride to get ns stuffs. kinda boring. but it beats being at home.



kin onn's bday was a smash.

our initial plans was. bash him while we blindfold and eveyrhing.den grab him into the van and dump him at wcp.

however, the van didnt come, so we bashed him up instead. and when the van came at 6,we grabbed him and he went down badly. okay. there are videos, but it will be posted on private blog. so those who wanna view, pls ask for add (:


anyways we went ard to geylang to have a walk. the pros there are disgusting and eeew. we tried to tempt kin onn, we even offered to treat him, but old sainty kinny doesnt wan anything. oh well, educational trip. they are a sorry bunch, i wonder how they get on with life, when they get old, will they even have a family?



anyways, was sitting at the back of the truck, i mean, lying down ard 11pm. as i look up at the stars, i dunno, i just feel happy when i see them, although its constantly gone, due to the lampposts and trees, the night was clear, and the stars were visible. comparing to australia, sg is nothing. but still, i was glad to see them, and i wonder whether you see them too.








i just got pawned reall bad



okay. i woke up late today =.=" went driving. the instructor is weird =.=" ok anyways. went to swim with fatty bao, elgin and weiming at delta. quite fun doh, played catchig and stuff. u hsould have seen ah bao trying to fly in the baby pool. LOL.

lan was boring, cause we all didnt noe how to paly battlefield. but in the end, with the team balanced, we won all the game. LOL. raied must be damn sad.







tired.



okay. got back from darren's chalet


TIRED.


but happy (:





slp.zzzzzzzzzz



so i waited for 4 hours at the polyclinic literally doing nothing. waiting was long and my problem for my ankle was.


ligament injury. was given a referral to NUH and some medicine which consist of

calcium tablets
pain killers
gastric pain ( due to the pain killers)

why wasnt it just viagra?


ok anyways. it would be longer if i didnt ask the nurse to hurry up


me :er excuse me, can u give me my medicine first? i got work later. its urgent.
nurse: oh u have work? alright take the medicine and look for your doctor.

and off i went. and there were like, 10 ppl ahead of me at first. haha.



met kh for lunch at swensens, she didnt eat anything. on budget i guess, and update alil stuffs before heading to sch for training. okay, without the ankle guard, my leg hurts like shit. couldnt run or sprint. i hope i dont down pes. if i do, i can kiss air force goodbye. so today would be my last rugby training. cheers. (:



okay. i was at zhi hao house and i was sure i updated. fuck, must be zhi hao face again. i lazy update alr la. LOL.








so my dream came true.



woke up to my disappointment. a very big one. ended up going driving before heading to school for fun. it seems different now.

headed to ps to watch ong bak 2, it was a let down, but the action scenes were great. but the storyline isnt good.










given up trying.







been a long time since i met fag. haha. missed her alot (: she still look pretty as ever. went to cathay and bought tickets for college. lol. i think its not suitable for a girl and a guy. =.=" lol. anyways. we went to paradiz for bishi bashi, before heading to wheellock to get some stuffs and snacks (: sat at coffee bean to talk for like, 2 hours? before having a slow walk to plaza sing.

fag did some forfeits. like, squatting down at orchard road and quack afew times. haha L - O - S - E - R


i think the next time we are going to meet at like, 2011? haha


A - S - S







last day in jjc last year. lol. tmr is a new for our j1s. have fun in sch.



Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

Ah ah ah ah~


My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind

My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)


Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless


What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times


Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…


If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous

You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened


Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)


I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by

It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you


Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye







okay. driving camp is over. exhausted. the first night i didnt drive, i feel the difference alr. went for jj camp last night. it was quite boring actually. didnt slp till 4am in the morning and i had driving lessons at 8.30. okay, my instructor is a screw up.


he says, dun change gear when still moving. and when i was moving in still, he say why dont wan change gear? just at the second traffic light? wtf. den i argue with him 1 sentence, he return 5 sentences with no relevant links to my question which is, you told me wait for car stop den change to gear 1 wad. the best part was, he will explain halfway, and switch to hokkien and to chinese. lastly, he will ask me in english, eh u understand hor? =.=" joke.

but other than all those, i still need to work on my clutch control, he says once the car shake = fail =.="




















tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd



okay. i have been blogging with my friends comp for the past few days. haven been sleeping at home for 3 days. we had some close encounters today


a police drove behind us

a traffic police booked someone in front of us when we were speeding too

and i still got problem with the clutch handling

and raied almost bang a msian motorcyclist.

lol. tired. i find sometimes, guys shouldnt be so desperate about girls. i mean. nvm. i shant say much.


and last but not least.




mata love pamelaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa



okay. stayed over zhi hao house. 2 days in a row. slept at 5am today. i mean. yday. and woke up at 11 to start my driving. tmd. yanshan. he.. lol. nvm. i dun say here. he know i know can alr. lol. and raied know can alr. lol. okay.i drove for 4 hours. maybe 5. to mt faber, then to fag's place to fetch her to bukit batok. its been a long time since i saw her. lol. thanks for the boxers and socks. its nice (:

today must buy 4d. we were in the car, i was exhausted for the driving, and while we were at the junction, waiting for the green light, a car accident happened in front of us. like , in our face. it was like a movie, the sound effect, the drift, the crash. the glass breaking. it looks as if the guy was dead. but he just walked out, pointed the middle finger and shouted, U NEVER SEE GREEN LIGHT AH? we missed the ending since the light turned green again. i realised, singaporeans, dun give a damn about others. as long as it doesnt involve them, they wont bother. i didnt see even 1 person reaching for their hp to call 999.nor did any1 went and help that guy. lol






pseudo everything? sigh



okay. this is post is to apologize to EUNICE THAM

for prankcalling her. why u believe? LOL. gullible


okay. woke up late today, but i rushed to meet minhazul and zb, in the end, i came early. went for my first driving lesson today. wtf man. i realised manual driving is hard. but nvm, tmr theres ZHI HAO THE COMMUNIST to supervise.

raied drove like cock. zhi hao added, not cock la. super cock. skipping the details.

muay thai training was tiring, i dunno why. i guess its the rugby fatigue from saturday. i couldnt stand 3 mins of personal training.







appreciate it =/



love this song. haha. enjoy (:





Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).


Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out?] .
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

i had that not long ago...

okay. my laptop charger is down. so i had to use my brother's old laptop. is freaking small. the length is from my pinky to my thumb when u stretch it. and the keyboard is damn small? lol. the shift key is like, smaller den my pinky. LOL cool lappy. this shall be my laptop for outdoors baby. LOL. anyways.sorry to zhi hao and ys, suppose to be able to drive my dads car, but it was late and he didnt allow. zzz. home coming was quite fun, although we had to wait for like 3 to 4 hours before we started and yew tong broke his knee cap. sigh. and the whole game of rugby ended. the ambulance came, drove onto the field and put him on a stretcher and drove off. i bet koh will be pissed when he sees the tyre marks. lol. we didnt keep the score, but i think we won la. LOL. went for dinner at NUH to visit the sexy flyhalf. but his sis was like, damn piss? got the GO FUCK YOURSELF look. LOL. damn scary. 

you call me a stranger. say im a danger.

yday was quite a rush. movie with AMG (ip man) i think i am going to watch it again. the movie's damn nice. went to sentosa with my classmates to stay over. wasnt that fun, but we did play some stupid games and stuff. the beach was quite crowded. and i guess most of them are banglas. wtf. they were whistling the same tune, like some kind of moscode. sorry goh mata and bob bin builder, was kinda lazy to leave sentosa, esp on cab.





okay. i won jian wen. 2 dollars. lol. pathetic ass. hahaha. we were playing 10 cents all teh way. and suddenly he said, i wan bet 1 dollar this round only. and i got a black jack.






he quit immediately. LOL.










you didnt care.