2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

upset. we won acsi today, but it was by individual play, no game plan. no coordination. sigh. i gave away most penalties, and the worst part was not being scolded when i regroup with the forwards, its like, looking at woonshin's face being super pek chek. lucas being frustrated, shengda being pissed off, but they didnt hold it up against me, maybe its because i am a senior and they respected me. but i feel ashamed of myself, so much so that i didnt even feel like apologizing after the team talk because i know, that everyone knows, the game screwed up because of my penalties giving. and the worst part, i played rugby more than them, i taught them and now i am a burden to them. i could see hendy's face of frustration when every rug i went in, its a penalty, every break down, i am slow. coach was very upset about my performance today, and he was very disappointed with the team. i felt as if i let everyone down, even though they didnt question me, they didnt confront me, they didnt even shout or scolded me. i m just speechless about today. and utterly upset with myself and my fitness level. sigh.