so rugby today, was a let down for me. damn it. i got sent out twice, 1 for high tackle, another for intercepting the ball. gave away quite afew penalties too. sigh. nvm, the next game i will play better, but that will be after a levels. damn damn damn. i cant wait for it to be over. so much things to do before i get enlisted on 4th feb.
Cause sometimes we don't really notice Just how good it can get
7:22 AM
Friday, October 30, 2009
You can go You can start all over again You can try to find a way to make another day go by You can hide Hold all your feelings inside You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry
And maybe someday We'll figure all this out Try to put an end to all our doubt Try to find a way to make things better now and Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud We'll be better off somehow Someday
Now wait And try to find another mistake If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind You can run, oh And when everything is over and done You can shine a little light on everything around you Man it's good to be so warm
And I don't want to wait I just want to know I just want to hear you tell me so Give it to me straight Tell it to me slow
Cause maybe someday We'll figure all this out We'll put an end to all our doubt Try to find a way to just feel better now and Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud We'll be better off somehow Someday
Cause sometimes we don't really notice Just how good it can get So maybe we should start all over Start all over again
11:27 AM
though the morning started out bad, today went great for me. RUGBY MATCH TMR! LOL
your subtleties, they strangle me, i cant explain myself at all, and all the wants, and all the needs, all i dont want to need at all, the wall start breathing, my mind's unweaving, maybe its best u leave me alone, a weight is lifted, on this evening, i give the final blow. when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight.
a fallen star, least i fall alone, i cant explain what you cant explain youre finding things that you didnt know, i look at you with such disdain.
9:06 AM
1.5 more weeks to go before a levels start. i cant wait for it to end. damnnn. imagine the rugby, the mahjong sessions, the movies to catch after missing out so much. lol.
had a bad day yday, well, its a blessing in disguise i must say. i felt screwed up, i wonder how to explain it in words. lol. well, yu tong made my day by boarding the bus which i was in, and sat beside me and lean on me without me even noticing. lol, i guess thats how distracted i was to my thoughts. lol. catched my sister's keeper yday with the ps bros and plateau poi, and i realised, my life aint that bad after all. i dont have to go therapies for cancer, i have hair, i can run, walk , play and last of all, i dont have tubes that are connected to me at all times. the movie was good, although the rating was quite bad, but well, it made my mood a lil better. studying overnight at bb mac again yday was productive, econs, maths. damn. 1 more month to freedom!
a great relief that its over.
12:14 AM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Sometimes tears say all there is to say Sometime your first scars wont ever fade, away Tried to break my heart Well it's broke Tried to hang me high Well I'm choked Wanted rain on me Well I'm soaked Soaked to the skin
It's the end where I begin It's the end where I begin
Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away Tried to break my heart Well it's broke Tried to hang me high Well I'm choked Wanted rain on me Well I'm soaked Soaked to the skin
It's the end where I begin It's the end where I begin
Now I'm alive and my ghosts are gone I've shed all the pain I've been holding on The cure for a heart Is to move along, is to move along So move along What don't kill a heart Only makes it strong
Sometimes tears say all there is to say your first scars dont ever fade, away Tried to break my heart Well it's broke Tried to hang me high Well I'm choked Wanted rain on me Well I'm soaked Soaked to the skin
It's the end End where I begin It's the end End where I begin
Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away
5:00 AM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
well, this made me laugh quite badly.
a levels laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
1 more month. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
10:19 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
i took a walk at west coast park earlier on, the breeze was calm and soothing, the waves that come and go, it relieves anyone who sat there and listen. it was low tide, walking around the rocks, flipping them, catching crabs as i passed my time to relax myself after a whole afternoon of chem and physics. i realised, while walking back, that i have passed the childhood age, im 19 now. damn. and i came to much understanding, why adults used to say, "treasure your time now laaaa, next time u sure regret".
i remember afew incidents during my psch life,
my 2nd bro and i, played too much in the super market, and my mum gave me the " cane" face, which apparently doesnt fail each time it shows its features. upon reaching home,
as we walked out of the room, with much pride, we saw our mum with the cane walking towards us. well, i must say, that feeling of dread, its as if, the boogeyman just appeared, or a monster walking your way. we ran back into our rooms, and jumped into our slpin bags
piak piak piak piak piak piak......
i acted like it was the end of the world, sobbing, screaming when it didnt hurt at all, my brother did the same. after 5 mins of non stop trashin by my mum, she walked out of the room.
min: she zhao alr. can stop crying liao\ siang: soob... min: oi, she really not here alr.
as i opened my slpin bag, i realised my brother made half the journey into the bag, while his other half, his butt, was left open outside the bag.
i laughed my ass off even till now.
another incident,
my dad just got a double decker bed, can u imagine the excitement my brothers and i! we were trying to get to the top, so finally, it was decided, my 1st bro, gets the top ( duh ) my 2nd bro, gets the bottom, and yeah, consolation prize, i get to fucking sleep on the floor.
so while i was being upset about it, i decided to experience how it felt like, slpin on the top,
min: hung, i try slp on it ah ( i shouted outside while climbing up)
hung:NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO0000000000000( running in) hung: THATS MY BED YOU CHIKU
and he climbed the old book shelf, and jumped onto his bed, like WWE, he crashed on the bed, and it fell right thru and landed face down on my 2nd brothers bed.
theres still the time where my 1st bro and i ran away from home because we played in the supermarket and saw the "cane" face all over again. as soon as my mum grabbed the cane, we dashed out the door right away. i still can remember my brother's first words
hung: we are on our own min: then how? call papa? hung: no. we need to survive on our own, nvm i protect u min: okok how much we have now? hung: (checks pants) i got 50cents, you? min: i left my wallet at home. hung: ok we shall save this 50 cent and use it when we really need it min: ok
so after 1/2 hour of walking, we decided to use that 50cents, and buy a coke from ntuc. all in all, i guess our plan of escaping didnt last long. after heading to our uncles birdshop, we eventually headed home, and got our asses caned.
theres one mystery though, about the laser disc which broke. i know it myself, that i didnt do it. and my 1st bro claims he didnt do it, well, my mum suspected it was my eldest brother, so she caned him like no tmr,
hung: you break why you dont want to own up? min: i really didnt do it! hung: i also never break! ghost do 1 ah? min: aiya ok la i broke it la
so i walked to my mum, and admitted it. but i wasnt caned for honesty, but still, i really didnt do it. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. was it my 2nd bro?
i always thought going for the overseas leadership camp when i was p6 would change me, well, my 1st brother did. i wonder what happened to his camp, i went to adelaide and came back a happier child, he came back, being self centered, keeping to himself and being selfish over the snacks at home, we didnt even play much after he came back, no more piggybacks, no more running around, no more catching, no more jokes.
hung: why you eat my chocolate? min: i tot mummie buy 1? hung: no its mine. (snatch away)
min: why u eat my sweets? hung: your sweets so great ah? at most i buy for you new one la!
well, it continued until he finished his alevels. much friendlier i guess, but still, theres this void that cant be filled ba. maybe in time?
well, another one was my psch table tennis time.
i got kicked out of the team, 5 times. but i managed to get back, my friend, feng shuo, got kicked out once, didnt get to come back since.we were playing wallet throwing, like a boomerang, it flew damn far. since it was 5pm and training starts at 5.3o, we played passing with my alien workshop wallet across the open area beside teh canteen,
fengshuo: eh my turn!
he threw it on top of a beam, since i had $30, and during that time, $30 is THE WORLD. i scolded his ass.
fengshuo: aiya i go find something take down la( walks away)
and by chance, the OM came by, and he took a ladder and took it down for me.
fengshuo didnt see him, and came back with a broom.
fengshuo: i helppp u get it down.
he threw the broom countless of times until the coach came and scolded his ass again, finally, menghan and i confessed we got the wallet back, and he punched me on my back.
coach: WO KAI CHU NI! ZOU!
well, he waited after training and told my coach,
fengshuo: wo gen ni kai wan xiao laaa
it didnt work.
haha. all these craps, are worth the memories.
i - you but i dont know what to do.
9:37 AM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
the dessert! icecream, peach, sour cream, coffee truffle,sponge cake and cookies! the main course, lamb, with dunno wad crap. BUT ITS DAMN NICE. the same piece of lamb stingray with some sauce! and abit of salt or somethin. i duno wads that.
OYSTER SOUP. this is damn good, and the oyster doesnt have the smelly taste and smell.LOL.
the appetizer, lobster, with mango, pomelo, some unique sauce and many others! the singapore chef association menu for the day.
hahaha. today's dinner was splendid, thanks to xw. her dad couldnt make it to the dinner, so we went, it was fine dining, and i was in berms and 3 quarter shirt wearing slippers. ultimate embarrassment =.= but i had an injury on my leg, so i felt much MUCH better. haha. the food is great. with good service and style, we were having a hard time trying to dine properly, to suit the occasion and due to the people around us, with uncles coming to the table to talk to xw, and i dun really understand or fit in since we have virtually no relation at all. lol. the pressure was kinda huge, esp when we reached the venue, we had to look for the chef before entering. praises to xw for putting a brave front as things come her way unexpectedly, eg, taking pics with the chefs, approaching edmund toh etc. haha. well, all in all, this is the best and unforgettable dinner i had in my entire life. hahaha. many thanks to xw (:
im off to bed!
i had a good night.
11:29 AM
Thursday, October 15, 2009
i passed tp. LOL. like wad zhi hao said, his lucky day of passing = i will pass.LOL. well, thanks to those who wished me, haha. tired day for me today. gonna take a good rest. TMR ITS FUCKING RUGBY TIME. WHOOOOOOOO.
RUGBY TMRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!
8:20 AM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
my internet viewing via hp is being voided as of next week due to some weird things happening to singtel, i had to listen to an indian operator for about 15mins, just to get his message of, " go to sms centre, change the number to +6597597777" well, i still dont get it why, but that might be the cause of my hp problem.
its about 40 to 50 days to end of a levels, 20 + days before it starts. started studying econs, damn. i cant wait for a levels to end.
tmr's tp. i hope i pass. gonna head to bed soon.
why is things always so difficult?
the person falling here is me, a different way to be.
8:17 AM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
so studying overnight have been frequent for me. playing card games, going to the playground or listening to people quarreling is a common thing at wcp or bb mac. todays lil boy who got scolded by his mum, throwing his shoes, his napkin, his tantrums, how it brought me back when i was young, when my mum gave me that stare, and holly shit. thats it for me, i know i m gonna get caned. all i could hope for, is my dad to be home to rescue me. he did the exact same thing as i did when i was young,
i walked in circles, trying to think of an excuse not to get caned, tried to act pitiful threw things at mum secretly while she isnt looking. tried to act tough when mum says shes leaving, but secretly look to see if she had left.
all the funny lil things u would do to get attention. LOL. well, in the end, he got a public scolding. ouch, that didnt happened to me before, but if it means no caning at home, i will be so glad to have that.
well back to the point, i used to play poker cards, using them as tarot cards about some stuffs as early as sec 2, during s4 camp, so i played it with xiaowei, and its hilarious, u should read her blog to know why.
so each cards, diamond, clubs, hearts and spades represents some1 who had made an impact to your life, and as i shuffle, xw had to ask me a question before i start dealing. so these are the results!
1) who would u give your life to save the other? HOLLY SMOKES 2) who do i love the most? HOLLY SHIT 3) if i had 1 day to live, who would i spend it with? well, unexpected. 4) Run away with? so so. 5) Who denies u as a bf? DAMN. LOL. we laughed our asses off with this shit 6) Marry? ahhhh 7) Someone who let you down? well, thats true. sadly speaking 8) who did u do the most for? yup. got it right (: 9) One night stand with? well, this aint gonna be true 10) Who will leave your life ? damn . this cant get any better. LOL. 11) Who will make you most happy? WADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD?
i dunno how to add the symbols, but well, i cant say out the names of who they are,only xw and i knows which represents which. but still, this is wad i call, EPIC. the poker cards know me to that extent, that even being in my bag, it laughs at me for being not knowledged. damn.
so it ended with much laughter, and we began talking about it for 2 hours, before we realised, we wasted 2 hours of precious time, talking about something not even worth mentioning. damn. so the promise is, never to mention her name anymore till a levels is over, if not, we would be discussing about things that will make us pissed. haha. well, sometimes, we cant run away from fate. and i guess, when u look back into the past, u will find how hilarious it is to see what really happened. damnnnnnnn.
one time.
8:14 AM
Saturday, October 03, 2009
studying at bb mac have been the most productive of all my studying times, but while having my usual mugging overnight, there will always be free entertainment that will make u wonder, the 3 common FAISES of bb mac.
1) the sleeper.
2) the lady who always wear the same shirt, that takes shower at the sink, that give weird stares at people at 2nd floor while they are eating/studying
3) the indian/bangla that dances hiphop, does moonwalks and bit his key and start dancing round and round to get people attention, he thinks hes the cleaner and takes the cloth and wipe tables for awhile before folding the table cloth neatly and walks around the neighbourhood before coming back to mac again with hes hiphop moves.
funny shits.
9:51 PM
Friday, October 02, 2009
afew more weeks to a levels. damn. i seem prepared but each time i do papers, i still have some questions and uncertainties that is a super turn off. although the results are quite good, i dont think i can get A and stuff. zzzzzzzzzzz. lamee. but my ankle injuries is gettin better, doing a 15min stretch in nuh and paying 16 dollars is no joke -.-
bored. cherry cherry boom boom?
But I did, I can I was, I am Only human, living, dying Just like any fool who ever breathed If love is blind If love's a drug It always is It always was and Love was surely made for fools like me