had some fun in the afternoon, even though it pains inside as the arguments from before strike at the right spot,
drifting my mind, and away from the unhappy thoughts, i did little to quench that hunger of being happy. am i? truly? happy?
before heading home, i made afew decisions, sorry to my dear friends, a group celebrating at sentosa right now, while the other, about to head down to double O for a nightout..i dont see a point in celebrating the new year when one's mood is low. heading home, sitting down with my parents while they watch tv, and while i engross myself in the other world, fantasy. thanks to one of the members of B.B.B.B, deyan, hes book diverted my attention from harsh reality.
looking back, this year was pleasant to begin with, rugby, a renewed friendship that was lost a year ago, courtship, a levels, and many more. but as the year ended, many things came into view, that the year wasnt that good afterall.
1) we lost the plate finals once again, a hard fact that seems to be a huge lump at my throat, refusing to go down each time i thought of it. when i could have prevented that lost.
2) drifting away from AMG, bros whom i missed, their laughter, their constant teasing and most of all, people whom would stand by you in times of need.
3) and lastly, losing you. the times we had, i must say,were one of the best i had. even though i have to admit, sometimes, things dont normally go your way, nor the way you feel. bending a twig against its will would only cause hurt, anger and last of all, requires huge amount of effort just to maintain sheer neutrality.
looking back, even with all these mishaps, i enjoyed every moment to it. for who would treasure the good times, when there isnt any bad ones? fond memories there and then. looking ahead, 2010 would and should be a better year.
well, as time creeps towards 2010. i bid everyone of u out there. a happy new year.
wanting you happy is more important than wanting you. it always will be.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
made pineapple tarts yday, thanks to those who came over and help till the wee hours in the morning =.= appreciate it.
anyways, went out with ss today, 2 more days before going US. sad anot? lol. okay, first, laksa, den curry chicken, den little india milk candy and ended with island cremery ice cream! hell lot of food i ate before heading to wong house for a swim to lose all those excess fats. swam 20 laps, tiring, but worthwhile.
so much for the farts wong, farting directly on me.. yucks. fartwong. damn.
disappointments, again and again...
Saturday, December 26, 2009
well, xmas went well for me
played against junyuan alumni. cobra!
well, no pictures, even with both ankles down, i tried my best to play, but it wasnt a good one doh. all i could do was pressure, i couldnt tackle or crash hard due to the impact on both ankles. damn. let in 2 tries which i knew i could have stopped because i couldnt change direction with my busted injuries. was feeling kinda disappointed, but well, thats life. live with it.
we lost, 17 - 3? haha
head towards pang house for BBQ, what can i say, my clique in sec sch, old friends i should say, 11 years friend, chin whee? and many others. been a long time since i met them. rockband with the full set at pang house, drinking games, and now, i am just sitting down, blogging. haha.
well, afew bad events happened to my friends recently, some private,personal, while others are just minor "life" issues. well, what can i say? when u lose it, den u will learn to treasure it.
well, a good celebration. but a bad session.
end of year, end of everything.is it possible?
Friday, December 25, 2009
xmas this year wasnt that spectacular...
the last min dinner booking was a disaster,in the end, it was steamboat at my place with circle. haha. well, simple, sweet.
used the whole morning-afternoon-night to make some stuffs, special thanks to jie en, LOL. i think my book would have looked like shit without your handwriting and comments =.= thanks. ego demoralizer. but still, i think it was great when i got the cards binded into a book. looks nice!haha. wierd. okay.
angela poixin ba long long
your xmas cards still with me.LOL.
in the end, played mahjong till dawn before sending every1 home/ work. damn. i cant believe i spend xmas at home sleeping. call me a loser. haha. okay. i am off to read some books.
this year's xmas isnt good, those who talked about it last night, will understand why. hahah. funny shits.
-why am i tearing on the way back from the drive?
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
apparently, this year passed on fairly fast, and fairly well.
1) get to play rugby again 2) get to retake a levels? fk. that should be at the cons 3) meet new friends 4) enlightened? haha
lastly, 27/06/09. the day we finally meet up again? haha. another cycle once again.
1) i ORD 1 year later den nevin and company. fuck that. 2) i got another injured ankle 3) im just not good enough for her.
well, the end of year is coming, a new year, a new beginning. haha.
lets see, what have i done during this holidays??
theres just so much in between that i cannot comprehend...
Sunday, December 20, 2009
well, practically watched all the movies so far, except avatar. lol. watch with circle ?
theres so much things to say in my mind, yet so few words that can express it from what i see through my eyes, and through how i feel.
first and foremost,
helping someone isnt an easy job, and sometimes, it backfires.
putting in all your effort to the person u really like, is something u shouldnt do.experienced it first hand. because, because, and because..
Monday, December 14, 2009
well, i had a weird dream today, i dreamt i was driving, ended up in a house, where theres plenty of ghosts in it. creepy huh, i was with afew people, and each time we wore special glasses, we could see where the ghosts were in the building. and sad to say, we couldnt leave it. as we walk ard, trying our best not to look up, each time a ghost touch/ grab us, there was a jolt of electricity running through your body. and finally, we sat on a table, the place was gloomy, with only a lamp shining over, we began praying from the bible, only to get screams and laughter from the ghosts, apparently, one of them, holding a red tag of number 6, rushed towards us, grabbing and tearing the bible. and stated we have broken the rule,
thats all i can remember. i woke up with the feeling of hapiness that it aint true. LOL.
believe none of what u have heard, for they are always not true, believe half of what u have seen, for it may not be the truth at whole.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
if things arent the way before, would u try your best to get it back?
even when its kinda screwed up? or even when its sometimes, your fault it went bad,
do you think u deserve a second chance?
do you believe that you can get it back?
hmmmm. maybe, in a drama series. but in reality,
been to a church camp recently, came home halfway because there is a match tmr. well, i have learn plenty of things there, even when i was the only non- christians there. the speaker at the camp was good, he could relate almost everything, and with his complex english, everything seems normal. but he was crafty, he is able to manipulate other religions, and search the loopholes in them, but did he did it on his own religion? i suppose.
i realised, in this world, there is no definite right or wrong. there are always blind spots, or should i say, gray areas. we debated today on if white lies are okay? ask yourself this, is it really ok? what i personally feel, is that, im am not saying white lies arent bad, but rather, they are not always deemed negatively. to say lying is on the whole bad, is a little to naive, and to say lying is on the whole good, is alittle too absolute. haha. and what is it to be man? and why does it matter? there are so many questions left unanswered, pondered upon them for quite awhile, but i dont seem to see any clear picture.
well, the speaker gave this creed to us, and i felt it was meaningful. enjoy (:
Creed by Steve Turner
We believe in Marxfreudanddarwin
We believe everything is OK
as long as you don't hurt anyone
to the best of your definition of hurt,
and to the best of your knowledge.
We believe in sex before, during, and
We believe in the therapy of sin.
We believe that adultery is fun.
We believe that sodomy's OK.
We believe that taboos are taboo.
We believe that everything's getting better
despite evidence to the contrary.
The evidence must be investigated
And you can prove anything with evidence.
We believe there's something in horoscopes
UFO's and bent spoons.
Jesus was a good man just like Buddha,
Mohammed, and ourselves.
He was a good moral teacher though we think
His good morals were bad.
We believe that all religions are basically the same-
at least the one that we read was.
They all believe in love and goodness.
They only differ on matters of creation,
sin, heaven, hell, God, and salvation.
We believe that after death comes the Nothing
Because when you ask the dead what happens
they say nothing.
If death is not the end, if the dead have lied, then its
compulsory heaven for all
Hitler, Stalin, and Genghis Kahn
We believe in Masters and Johnson
What's selected is average.
What's average is normal.
What's normal is good.
We believe in total disarmament.
We believe there are direct links between warfare and
Americans should beat their guns into tractors .
And the Russians would be sure to follow.
We believe that man is essentially good.
It's only his behavior that lets him down.
This is the fault of society.
Society is the fault of conditions.
Conditions are the fault of society.
We believe that each man must find the truth that
is right for him.
Reality will adapt accordingly.
The universe will readjust.
History will alter.
We believe that there is no absolute truth
excepting the truth
that there is no absolute truth.
We believe in the rejection of creeds,
And the flowering of individual thought.
If chance be
the Father of all flesh,
disaster is his rainbow in the sky
and when you hear
State of Emergency!
Sniper Kills Ten!
Troops on Rampage!
Whites go Looting!
Bomb Blasts School!
It is but the sound of man
worshipping his maker.
good stuff huh? hahah. update more tmr or something. gonna go to bed now.
OH I DIDNT UPDATE ABOUT PROM!
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
rushing out of house, being late for prom was a major disaster, i hope no tickets were given for speeding and going thru a red light? LOL. whoops. well, thanks kennedy and ted for guiding me to the destination. i guess my navigation in singapore is screwed. esp with the epic fail GPS in the car.zzzz.
prom was good, took more pictures than last year, how ironic, when i repeated jj for another year, yet i have more friends than i have before. thanks guys, esp the CIRCLE. for making my day, winning your money in mahjong is so much better. hahaha.
went supperclub after prom, that was like, our last resort. but its a virgin experience over there. i didnt like going over, but since its prom, with a whole bunch of ppl. i guess, majority wins? haha. well, the guys were busy protecting the girls while they were on the dance floor, i realised afew things.
1) i cant get high with those music 2) its stupid to go to a club when u drove there( why? slap yourself in the faise. its because u cant drink)
i enjoyed myself, but i think this will be the last time i head a club, would prefer a pub from now on. its expensive there, with lousy drinks. unless u are there to find some girls, i suggest you dont go over at all.
kennedy, POOR. epic fail with the rule card. kin onn, edward cullen?
hahaha. well, i guess, this is 1 of the most memorable prom i had? haha. cheers.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
disastrous day yesterday. blamed myself for not training my runs. haha.
"this is it, 42km "
it started off well, i didnt chiong like i first did last year, my pace was good. only to reach 23km did my ankle gave way. damn. started semi walking-running but it sucks when u arent tired but u just couldnt run.
i saw afew interesting people yday.
1 with a qoute behind his shirt,
" i was booed for being last in the last race, now look whose behind me now" lol
and i saw a one legged man running 42km. damn. hes good.
the last 5km was the worst 5km i have ever walked.
something happened yday, i can like, throw my face alr. dun wanna mention it, but only afew knows what happened.LOL. FML.
i wonder how i am going prom today. yayyyy. gorilla ftw.