2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

the 31st dec wasnt something i expected.



had some fun in the afternoon, even though it pains inside as the arguments from before strike at the right spot,

drifting my mind, and away from the unhappy thoughts, i did little to quench that hunger of being happy. am i? truly? happy?


before heading home, i made afew decisions, sorry to my dear friends, a group celebrating at sentosa right now, while the other, about to head down to double O for a nightout..i dont see a point in celebrating the new year when one's mood is low. heading home, sitting down with my parents while they watch tv, and while i engross myself in the other world, fantasy. thanks to one of the members of B.B.B.B, deyan, hes book diverted my attention from harsh reality.

looking back, this year was pleasant to begin with, rugby, a renewed friendship that was lost a year ago, courtship, a levels, and many more. but as the year ended, many things came into view, that the year wasnt that good afterall.

1) we lost the plate finals once again, a hard fact that seems to be a huge lump at my throat, refusing to go down each time i thought of it. when i could have prevented that lost.

2) drifting away from AMG, bros whom i missed, their laughter, their constant teasing and most of all, people whom would stand by you in times of need.

3) and lastly, losing you. the times we had, i must say,were one of the best i had. even though i have to admit, sometimes, things dont normally go your way, nor the way you feel. bending a twig against its will would only cause hurt, anger and last of all, requires huge amount of effort just to maintain sheer neutrality.

looking back, even with all these mishaps, i enjoyed every moment to it. for who would treasure the good times, when there isnt any bad ones? fond memories there and then. looking ahead, 2010 would and should be a better year.


well, as time creeps towards 2010. i bid everyone of u out there. a happy new year.









wanting you happy is more important than wanting you.
it always will be.