2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

alright folks. long time since i actually blogged huh. maybe its because , i dont have the mood to do so. haha. been a rough time for me. esp during the transitions between dec to jan. or perhaps, to my bros, its since ard august till now. haha. well, i guess i am getting better. although occasionally, i still think and do stupid stuffs. haha. FREAK THAT.


okay back to the point. been awhile since i was happy once again, well, be it a smile, companionship, friends, family and many more. but then again, reality hit me right there in my face, army in 4 days. and i cant seem to understand why i am dreading it when i used to look forward to it. perhaps, its because of my friends, and the fun times i had recently that i realised, SHIT. this aint enough. before my freedom is taken away in 4 days time by ns. but still, being optimistic, i am looking forward to get into the airforce, be it a learning experience or a job. it something i look forward to, the thrill of flight.


i remember my first flight on the piper, going around singapore above looks different from the cockpit than the side windows u normally look out to from the plane. although it was stressful, memorizing all the checks ( about afew pages long) EVEN before u start the engine, not to forget the handsignals, RT calls and the checks during flight. but the view, the thrill and the view above, is spectacular. the little houses, the horizon, and being able to see singapore as a whole ( since every 10 mins or so we have to turn back due to how small sg is ) but no matter how i strife for that PPL, i OOC-ed during my syfc course, well, this will be my second chance. the third will be in flight school, ( which i hope i wouldnt have to go there since its kinda costly. ) wish me all the best for army i hope

this few weeks have been a joy, no more emo nights, no more unhappy thoughts, no more regrets, no more tears, and no more heavy chests while i lay at night. however, what i brood over these few months, was, after all i have done, say, sacrificed, all i get was a negative impression to your peers. well, thats life. and its quite ironic, take an instance, a teacher helping a student, no matter how a teacher tries to help, it may actually backfire into the student detesting work, and even the teacher itself. likewise, in love, no matter how much u try to please, work and strife for the other's happiness, it may not be what u hoped for. so its best, if u know how, and when to let go. before u fall deeper into that bucket of shit.so please, start looking for your OWN happiness rather den trying to fulfill someone else's.

speaking of shit, i realised how crappy the new system works in school, senior batches arent allowed back to school UNLESS there is teacher's permission. if not. NO ENTRY. and the best part is, once u graduate, things like , the field, are out of bounds, meaning, u cant book, u cant even step in the school. damn. i always wonder, once we graduate, are we just strangers? after achieving something for the school, thehy just abandon us and turn their backs? ( well i am just saying ) so why the strict system? is there no meritocracy in our contribution? be it our results ( ok that isnt a contribution at all. haha) or our sports? damn this shit.

lets see, what have i done recently,


crashing jj admin day
training up from my flabby-self
money wasting ttm.
staying up late watching lame videos on youtube.
got my new specs.

i think army would be a better choice rather den wasting myself doing this stuffs all day.

thinking back, its 3 YEARS! wait, 4! i remembered calling amanda via hanif to learn how to come jj during my j1 years, and finally finding out that shes a girl when i met her at the bus stop outside bb mrt. embarassing, but well, at least i made it to school. running, table tennis, rugby, bla bla bla. and now, im off to army. and soon uni, and then, work. i realised how much fun there was in schooling days, psch, sec sch, jc. those were the years i felt fun, going sch late, fighting/quarreling with teachers/friends, getting into deep shit, getting caned. damn. those were the times. well, enough ranting, signing off.














thank you,
wongapong,
deyan,
nerrine,
yongxin.
(:

for listening, talking, and for being there.

and to you,

jie en.

16 alr, start looking at things at a bigger perspective, look behind your world, instead of always thinking about i, look around , there are people worse den you.stress is never easy, but it isnt the time to give up, its your year to study hard and do your best. and thank you, for your help in making the cards, and also your funny ways of talking me out on things in a manner where i least expect anyone would do. o levels. jia you!



thanks, to my bros, and friends who are there for me. appreciate it.


had a walk at henderson waves, mt faber, etc etc. jungle trail, earth trail, etc. 4 hours of taking pictures with my brother's DSR and talking, catching up. before heading to cityhall. thanks (: appreciate the talk, and also the advice. lol.

and i realised, the best yogurt ice cream, is sold at city hall basement. u guys should try it. its called, yogoru or something. 3.80, but the amount they give is huge.



went down for supper with chuan and wong, DURIAN FTW. plus my cous and J.E.


well, going indo in a few days time. i hope i learn some new stuffs there!










imagine this,

8 guys in teh car,
5 at the back,
3 in the front ( including driver)

driving happily across a steep turn..............


and drove head on towards a police roadblock..........



LIFE.



but well, we managed to duck down,and drove away as if we are safe drivers.


that was the only time, i felt fear, not of the police.

but of what my dad would do.. WHEW

any1 wanna buy 4D? 7130.



haven been blogging, been busy with baking and alot of stuffs. whooo! well, happy bday to woonshin today. i found his private blog afew days back. here it is!

http://thebulgingmusclesofwong.blogspot.com


well. enjoy. (:



XINGLU IS THE BEST. HES THE MAN. THE BAWSS. HE SPIZZZZZZZZESSS MY LIFE SOO DEEPLY.



the day went well, mundane as usual. tmr would be a better day.....










when u fall in love with someone, anything is worth doing. even if it meant leaving, just to keep her smile everlasting.


happy bday.



ringgg ringg...

thank you for calling M1 service, for english press 1.

*BEEP*

for i phone enquiries. press 3

*BEEP*

to speak to our customer officer. press 0

*BEEP*

heheheheheheheheheh.



ring ring.


ws: hello good afternoon, how may i help u?
me: err. hi, how may i address u?
ws: u can call me mr wong.
me: oh okay. i would like to buy ........




well, the rest of the details, hmmmm. u can ask mr wong himself. PAWWNNEDDOWNNNNEDDINNNTHEFAISEEE.



hahaha. well, sometimes, when uve got nothing better to do at home, all u have to do, is pick up your phone. and start prank calling.


the day passed real quick, started by finding a baking shop, which apparently, my neighbourhood fails to provide. and began baking some stuffs i just learnt.

here are some of the pictures (:


bread pudding!

ok i think it taste ncie, but it doesnt look too nice? LOL

apple dunnowadshit. LOL.

gravy, still solid...


slowly...

wala!


BEFORE


AFTER


ok . i failed 1 attempt. look at the difference. wts. just a slight change. and wala. LOL. okay. im too bored at home. baking kills time, and its quite fun, esp when u get to eat good food.LOL. self satisfaction!







still kinda upset.. i wonder why..



well, had a family outign today. whoa. seriously tired. and bloated. ate steamboat at crystal jade. ate a lil only, didnt really like the food. durians durians durians. and i got a new gps! wont be lost ANYMORE BROS. HAHAHAHA. i hope so =/













sometimes, love makes u so blind, u fail to see whats in front of you until its too late...





wooo. look at that. big banana huh? looks fake right? NOOOOOOOOO. its 1 of the bananas that grew out from my garden. LOL. huge huh. the whole tree had only 10! lol.
cooked goreng pisang with it, tasted GREAT.




well, when u really have nothing to do. all u can do is, bake? LOL. nice nice.






I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as she turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go



mahjong session today. gosh. slaughtered by kin onn.

kin onn = +31.50
yee min = +6.90
feeder ang = -21
judith = - dunno how much la. u do the math.

but well, out of goodwill, i didnt collect the cash, and to much reluctance, kin onn too. haha. had a good day.









i hope the many problems that existed are solved, not naming anyone, but i hope the misunderstandings are cleared, and everything is better for you guys. circle remains and will always help each other in need.














fuck myself for being so blind.



well, just got home. went to west coast park to sit down and talk to deyan and woonshin. memories came back when we used to sit there. haha. remember the times? the crab catching, sitting along the coastal area. haha.

well. fond memories.. i met bei ni at mac, said hi before heading towards the coast.

i felt thankful, for the last month of 2009. changed me quite drastically. mature or not, i dont know. but i know it myself. i have thanked that person who helped me thus far, appreciate it.

talked for quite abit, before heading home. wad a day indeed.







ACHIEVEMENT TODAY. I WASNT LOST EVEN WITHOUT THE GPS. COOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. my instincts are good. damn..



as the cloud of love drifts by,
the bright sunlight from above
engulfed that fluffy scent of happiness, in crimson orange.

what a lovely sight it was,
what a joyful memory it holds.

as time creeps in,
the cloud start to blur with misunderstandings,
soon, it became a dark mass of grey,
filled with heavy thoughts,
unhappiness,
grief
and hurt.

even with the bright sunlight shining from heavens above,
backfiring, it amplified the darkness
with shadows onto the ground,

signaling them,
warning them,
about the storm ahead.


not long after,



droplets of tears,
start pouring down.


as it rain,


like never before.






bright raincoats,
with plastic umbrellas.
covered the streets, unable to to overwhelm the darkness from above.


suddenly,

the sound of raindrops disappeared,
the wet floor glowed with reflections of the sun.

looking above,
the ever beautiful rainbow stood still,
like pillars, withstanding the downpour.



smiling,

i said to myself.




i have weathered this storm



this time. this one time.












for once.











i will let my brain.




overrule my heart desires.



today went well, wad can i say, a new year, a new beginning? hahaha


i am over brooding over the past,to be honest, i will be affected by it. but all in all, i have decided to tell myself, its over. 2009 that is.

the day went well, woke up early, and went to somerset for some shopping!!! ((: in the end, it was kinda like, a window shopping? but well, it was something i really enjoyed. hahaa.


shuddup woonshin, i know what u are going to say.



headed to marina square for seoul garden, pictures will be posted by angela, all in all, happy bday yan ge. hope u had fun.















no more.