2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

alright folks. long time since i actually blogged huh. maybe its because , i dont have the mood to do so. haha. been a rough time for me. esp during the transitions between dec to jan. or perhaps, to my bros, its since ard august till now. haha. well, i guess i am getting better. although occasionally, i still think and do stupid stuffs. haha. FREAK THAT.


okay back to the point. been awhile since i was happy once again, well, be it a smile, companionship, friends, family and many more. but then again, reality hit me right there in my face, army in 4 days. and i cant seem to understand why i am dreading it when i used to look forward to it. perhaps, its because of my friends, and the fun times i had recently that i realised, SHIT. this aint enough. before my freedom is taken away in 4 days time by ns. but still, being optimistic, i am looking forward to get into the airforce, be it a learning experience or a job. it something i look forward to, the thrill of flight.


i remember my first flight on the piper, going around singapore above looks different from the cockpit than the side windows u normally look out to from the plane. although it was stressful, memorizing all the checks ( about afew pages long) EVEN before u start the engine, not to forget the handsignals, RT calls and the checks during flight. but the view, the thrill and the view above, is spectacular. the little houses, the horizon, and being able to see singapore as a whole ( since every 10 mins or so we have to turn back due to how small sg is ) but no matter how i strife for that PPL, i OOC-ed during my syfc course, well, this will be my second chance. the third will be in flight school, ( which i hope i wouldnt have to go there since its kinda costly. ) wish me all the best for army i hope

this few weeks have been a joy, no more emo nights, no more unhappy thoughts, no more regrets, no more tears, and no more heavy chests while i lay at night. however, what i brood over these few months, was, after all i have done, say, sacrificed, all i get was a negative impression to your peers. well, thats life. and its quite ironic, take an instance, a teacher helping a student, no matter how a teacher tries to help, it may actually backfire into the student detesting work, and even the teacher itself. likewise, in love, no matter how much u try to please, work and strife for the other's happiness, it may not be what u hoped for. so its best, if u know how, and when to let go. before u fall deeper into that bucket of shit.so please, start looking for your OWN happiness rather den trying to fulfill someone else's.

speaking of shit, i realised how crappy the new system works in school, senior batches arent allowed back to school UNLESS there is teacher's permission. if not. NO ENTRY. and the best part is, once u graduate, things like , the field, are out of bounds, meaning, u cant book, u cant even step in the school. damn. i always wonder, once we graduate, are we just strangers? after achieving something for the school, thehy just abandon us and turn their backs? ( well i am just saying ) so why the strict system? is there no meritocracy in our contribution? be it our results ( ok that isnt a contribution at all. haha) or our sports? damn this shit.

lets see, what have i done recently,


crashing jj admin day
training up from my flabby-self
money wasting ttm.
staying up late watching lame videos on youtube.
got my new specs.

i think army would be a better choice rather den wasting myself doing this stuffs all day.

thinking back, its 3 YEARS! wait, 4! i remembered calling amanda via hanif to learn how to come jj during my j1 years, and finally finding out that shes a girl when i met her at the bus stop outside bb mrt. embarassing, but well, at least i made it to school. running, table tennis, rugby, bla bla bla. and now, im off to army. and soon uni, and then, work. i realised how much fun there was in schooling days, psch, sec sch, jc. those were the years i felt fun, going sch late, fighting/quarreling with teachers/friends, getting into deep shit, getting caned. damn. those were the times. well, enough ranting, signing off.














thank you,
wongapong,
deyan,
nerrine,
yongxin.
(:

for listening, talking, and for being there.

and to you,

jie en.

16 alr, start looking at things at a bigger perspective, look behind your world, instead of always thinking about i, look around , there are people worse den you.stress is never easy, but it isnt the time to give up, its your year to study hard and do your best. and thank you, for your help in making the cards, and also your funny ways of talking me out on things in a manner where i least expect anyone would do. o levels. jia you!