2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

i have been asked a question today, a very simple, but complicated one. which caught me by surprise, because i was thinking about something along those lines.

it started off with my deep chain of thoughts, and i realised, whenever it comes to love, to someone i truly care,concern, love, cherish and treasure, it always fails, be it being played, mocked, or just by a simple rejection ever since sec school. well, kinda suck dont it? esp the latest, the old wound has healed, but i always wonder,why did i forgive her? why did i put up with all those nonsense when i know it was just to play me out? when shes happily attached to someone she dated while she dated me. kinda cool huh? so why did i threw away my ego, my face, my everything?while people in school could come around telling me, " eh siala, u stalk ppl ah" etc, when it wasnt true. so why?

simply because, i love her.

i loved her.








i have heard of my friends tragedy,

A: wa i just broke up with my gf and she is tgt with a new guy in less den 2 weeks!
B: dont sian la, i broke up with my gf during may but she was attached to another guy during feb.

well, i am not pinpointing that girls are entirely bad, guys have their fair share too, and i am not saying i am the holy one, but rather, maybe its just karma, afterall, i have let down my ex, that was the sole reason why she left me.



so the simple question was, why bother loving someone, when you know u will get hurt? when commitment, although it keeps u occupied, could break u down?


through the past few months, i have learnt plenty of stuffs, from church, to friends to family, to even simple gestures from random people. and i realised a flaw in every person, a flaw even i too, realised i have it, which i have been trying to change.

have u wonder, when a person made a bad impression of themselves, for instance, hes a player, or hes a chao keng ass, or hes a bitch etc. and when suddenly, after quite some time, he/she changed, but u are skeptical, because we think we know that person, for what he had done, we looked at hsi past, and from there, we stereotype and assume he would be him, the same old ass/flirt/bitch/ whatever u can name him.


what we are missing is that we are not seeing what he can do, we are not seeing the little things that happened in our lives, that might have changed us.

those people in the past would haunt you, even though u are trying your best to change, and all of a sudden, people will go, i know u, i know who u really are.

but no, i would tell them, you knew me,you knew that person, but u dont know the person that i m trying to become

we learn, from our past mistakes, and from there, we will be a better person.

so have u ever wonder sometimes, when someone, somehow talks about a situation,be it a bad relationship, arguments, etc and it felt as if its dejavu being screamed into your ear alone? haha. when that happens, it usually has more to do with you than that person.





to end off, thanks Y, u made me a better person

and to F, do take care, i know its hard on u, but doing silly things wont get u anywhere.


have a lil faith..