gosh. been a long time since i updated, i guess its pretty much because i have nothing to blog, and even when i wanted to, i didnt have the time. to update a few things, my bday went well, although i made sure my bday wasnt spent by celebrating. reason kept a secret. those who wanna know, feel free to ask, but if u aint close, u aint gonna get the answer. haha.
thanks to those who send their well wishes on the dot, esp my long lost sis who still remembers my bday every year with a sweet sms and a phone call. and those who celebrated with me (: appreciate it, u guys made this emo year of mine lively.
got 2 fun stuffs in 2 days,
1) flight simulator 2) a new hp.
alright, cut the crap, back to business.
have u ever wonder, sometimes, peoples' opinion seems so myopic? childish, and sometimes lame? just to hide their ego, their guilty conscience and maybe their are just plain dumb? well, this year started off bad for me, but its picking itself up, and its getting better, but for some of my friends, it isnt really going to well for them, and sadly to say, their misery are mostly due to those people mentioned above.
*the following ranting is not targetting anyone in particular, if u feel offended, den perhaps, u are just plain guilty*
so i have came across afew interesting people in life, some being a bum, some being a lazy fag, some being strong-headed, wanting to do everything by themselves, some with huge ego, some who still thinks like a kid and plenty more. but hey, all these are unique characteristics, without them, how can u differentiate anyone? just learn to accept it, and life would be a whole lot simpler as it is. optimistic eh? haha.
sometimes, i get kinda upset, when people backstabs, or feels unhappy about certain things about me and they just keep it silent to me, but not to others, well, who doesnt get upset man? part and parcel of life, but what if its someone whom u treat as a friend? that kinda suck.
sometimes it happens, and in different occasions, etc the present AGM, it was a good experience, but some parts kinda gotten me.
how do you classify someone you hate? or despise? for me, maybe its gotta do with the character, esp the stuck up ones who thinks money = everything and they can look down on people with low/medium income. but mostly, i wont jump into that conclusion too quickly.
but hating someone who u thinks is trying to be friends with everyone?
what kinda logic is that? if its part of your ego/ guilty conscience in what u have done, dont put that on some reason as lame as this, please. it aint gonna work. people are just going to laugh at you.
isnt it ok to be friendly? to people whom u know? or to their friends? rather than strike a "cool " pose and act as if they are simply air? didnt your parents teach u some social skills to be friendly? brains pls. perhaps, u can start by cheating on your girl. well, i am just saying.
well, that got me flared.
lastly, theres so much misunderstandings, and i guess, its normal, but shouldnt it be clarified? i wonder why it isnt, and left unspoken. its quite obvious.. but i shant say much, whats the use anyway? well, good luck with promos and upcoming matches.
so here i am, gonna do what i have always been doing.
be optimistic. and life will go by fairly well (:
happiness is like a crystal ball, once it break into many pieces, all u can do is pick them up, everyone can, but if u work hard enough, maybe u can have a bigger share.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
i went to tekong today, and i found some stuffs kinda upsetting.
a recruit came up to me and ask,
r:hey, can i sign up for this vocation? ym: sure. why not? r: but the encik say cannot ym: why? why u cannot r: i dun have n levels ym: den whats your highest qualifications? r: sec 3
u can see the embarrassment on his face, and also, him being upset about his background, i asked what happened, and he told me he quarrelled with his principal and thus left school. that was a very bad mistake, really. at this fastpaced life, with uni graduates flowing into the economy like running water, what job can u secure with a sec 3 education? i felt a pint of pity when i looked at him, and i tried to imagine, what if i am him? what should i do? i told my friends today, and he told me, " parents rich can alr wad" but what if it isnt the case? what if his family werent well off? not some CEO of some money factory? what then? what will be his future prospect? i have no idea.
another aspect was on my mind lately, and i realised, my kindness have been taken for granted, so much so that i was pretty upset about it. esp to certain people. i dont expect any return favour, all i ask is at least show some respect and some sensitivity. i realised, there are many people who owes me money, not a biggie, but so far, it accumulated to about $50? i know it isnt a big issue, but when u borrow cash, wouldnt u want to return it asap? rather den borrow so that u dont have to use yours? its quite fuck up sometimes, and i know, as the chinese says, tan qian shang gan qing, yeah. so i didnt pursue the matter, because i feel,
friendship worth more than cash.
since everything is on its downhill side, being optimistic, i have decided, from now, my concentration will be my career. nothing more, nothing less. all the best to me and my flying. fuck the rest!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
well, now that ive got so much free time, i realised i have been thinking quite abit lately, about my decision making, my life, and many others. and soon it was kinda depressing on how i made my decisions. haha. like, my studying etc, and also the way i found flying so god damn interesting. heres how it happened.
syfc came to my school for a talk, and i was slping throughout the whole shit.
zhengbao: eh i wanna join sia ym: ? join wad zb: this yfc thing la. can fly plane leh. heh ym: dun stupid la. fly plane my balls. zb: eh really really! u see. the brochure. ym: okok u go sign lor. zb: dun wan la. i dun wan go alone. ym: aiya ok la i join with u.
imagine if zb wasnt with me, i wondered if i would ever give rsaf a thought.
and repeating a levels too,i was in school palying rugby with the slip on whether i want to repeat.
ms kim: oh hello ym: hey kim: wads that? ym: er the paper lor, i dnuno should repeat anot sia. dun feel like *snatches paper and walked away*
ym - *stunned*
and thats how i repeated my j2
if i didnt, i doubt i will ever meet my awesome friends, those who were there for me, when i was down because of xw last year, when i was stressed with a levels, when i lost the plates.
xiao long nu poixin jolyn woonshin deyan
and lastly ba long long.
the studying at bb mac, the movie watching at westmall, the chionging down to shop and save to buy cheap sushi at 8.15 (cheapo ttm) and many others, and soon all these will become memories, and as we grow up, we all know things cant stay the same, people walk in your life, and sometimes they leave, leaving just footsteps that, hey i was here.
circle is gonna miss their member, tan poixin, shes leaving for aus on 20th june, so am i, that kinda suck.
theres off day tmr and i realise, i am gonna have alot of free time once again. =.=
well, to end off, good luck to those still studying for a levels, angela, cougars, ronde monde. studying isnt stressful, life is.
when life give u lemons, u either frown about its sour taste, or make lemonade.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
congrats with my juniors in achieving plate champions today. 5 - 0 scored by god, aka hendy. well played boys.
plenty of stuffs running thru my mind right now, although i had a great day today, having my virgin fish spa, kinda cool experience, although u will hear winston screaming his ass off when a small fish bites him.
well, to start off, what's the definition of maturity? to be grown ups? or something else? something more complicated? sometimes i feel, that being mature brings about a layer of shield, to prevent others from knowing you better, or to show u arent close to that person. for instance, do u pounce on a random dude? or just prod some guy beside u or something? it maybe childish but u do realise that this only happens to friends, most of the time, close ones. in time, u will look back, and u realise, u will only remember the funny parts, for instance, ken poking me and irritating me, nevin dancing on the field like some asswipe, circle posing like some gaylords at the mrt station.
bah.. lazy to type the rest. still, kinda upset over some stuffs. i dun understand why doh. damn. i think i will have to start reading park's bday present to me two years back. * a guide out from depression * HHAHA
Thursday, May 06, 2010
i went for my first flight after 3 long years at syfc, where i got chopped off, well, old memories rushed back, and its kinda sad when the canteen auntie isnt there anymore, hahah. damn.
walking towards teh aircraft, doing checks seems so familiar all of a sudden, with raman as my instructor yday, we started the plane and headed out,
raman: hey, u puked yday ah? junyan: yeah raman: ok so today we will try some G manuveurs to make u get used to it junyan: err...
so yeah, we did a super steep climb, before the instructor closed the throttle, fking 3 longest silent seconds of my life as the ground came rushing down from the cockpit. i was... having fun and also, experiencing those crazy G forces.
and so we did plenty of aerobatics, the worst was that free fall i talked about, and frankly speaking, i question myself, damn. did i sign up for this? LOL. its similiar to a roller coaster, just that, u can prolong the G period, and u can do whatever G manuveurs u wan, and last of all, u are in control of the plane. haha. but well, i told myself. this is it. i have to learn some stuffs from my joy ride.
i looked at how raman did his checks, ( although it kinda suck cause he didnt do it properly) but i did notice his area orientation, the way he looks at his horizon, and climbing and descending. haha, he even cracked afew jokes while junyan started breaking out in sweat.
raman: have u guys been to the moon? us: no raman: ok i will bring u there. just to experience how it feels like floating. u see this glove? it will float in awhile
so up we went, to the "moon" and a sudden death drop, causing all of us to be lifted from our seats, with the glove in front of us, "floating"
we did 2.5g turns which causes our arms to feel heavy, but frankly speaking, i had so much fun with raman's joy ride. but junyan had to be grounded due to his airsickness. damn. wad a waste.
headed to marina bay to shop for mother's day stuff, got her a bag, (judith says its nice) so lets hope it is. lol.
treasure the second chance, for it might be your last.
Sunday, May 02, 2010
the weekend went smoothly, touch in the morning on sat, before heading to catch iron man. lol. gustav, but i think ipman is so much better.iron man ended off badly, and the fight scenes arent nice. afterall, its the same concept. give it 3/5? ipman is still as stunning as ever. lol. damn.
well, congrats to the touch ruggers on claiming the champions this year. i just got in time to catch some good plays and tries.
anyone wanna watch toy story. LOL. my childhood show sia. zzz.
i need a parachute to catch me when i fall, but in any case, that parachute isnt available afterall. that bitter taste.