Tuesday, June 29, 2010
been a long time since i updated my blog, well, technically, its because i have no mood to do so. everything seems dazed to me, and i realised how messed up my life is. and its not just me who feel this way, my other friend just said , teh exact same shit to me 2 days ago. and it sucks man.
i started smoking, clubbing, and almost practically everything i told myself not to do. well, at least i stopped after awhile, but i hope it aint gonna happen again. but then again, my life is still fucked up. in almost every possible way,
i know everyone would say cheer up and get it over with, if it were that simple, i would be glad to do so. but man, this is 1 hell of a depressing shit i am going thru. and all i can do, is smile weakly at my pals, and say i am fine, and help them worry about their problems while mines just hidden in the closet next door.
the past few days were a blur to me, doing nothing but slping, stonning, catching movies and stuff. doing nothing productive, nothing worthy.
fk up.
this is where, depression sets in boys. buckle up.
6:17 AM
Thursday, June 10, 2010
life is just unfair. pretty much the way things is. and frankly speaking, i have lost faith in everything. literally,
life is certainly unfair, the humble dudes get caught, while the stuck up, arrogant ones always get through. and yesterday's blow was a harsh and swift one, in just mere 3 secs.
phone rings
me:hello?
sherlyn: yeeminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
me: bad news huh
sherlyn: yessssssssssssssssssssssss
me: spine?
sherlyn: ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
from that point on, everything was a blur, in just a swift 3 secs, im ooc-ed, with a permanent suspension. kinda stunned, with my course ic, who suffered the same fate.
so.. enough of ranting. cant cont crying over split milk,all i felt was that, i am disappointed, in failing something when i haven tried my best in succeeding it. well, SUCK THUMB.
so technically speaking, this year sucks. and my life just suck big time. lol
2:37 AM
Sunday, June 06, 2010
well, tmr will be my first day working at AFTC, regimental crap all over once again, heard theres cases of seniors bullying, well, tahts life. esp with the "fake one bar" as woonshin says, its like, that rank is a huge signboard smack on your head that says " please fuck me as hard as u wan" well, i guess thats the life of an oct, but hey, i doubt i will get as much shit as i would have in ocs. haha
well, had a long day today, dota was awesome last night when i played with iron man,flamer chuan and his bro. followed by pizza hut lunch before heading to play pool with kh at bukit timah plaza. woo. long day!
some times i wonder, would i miss singapore when i leave? or would i be glad leaving this place of unhappiness.
define being a good friend, to help a friend in need, or to care for your own reputation?
6:29 AM
Saturday, June 05, 2010
i saw this on facebook. lol. to all those ns men (including me)
When these 2 long years are over, no more soldiering for me
When i get my CV clothes on, oh how happy i will be
No more guard duties on sunday, no more friday orderly
When i get back my pink ic, you can celebrate with me
...When the last layout is over, no more NTM for me
When we finally ORD, oh how relak we can be
Sergeant Major cannot F*** me, OC cannot freeze our leave
When these 2 damn years are over, no more soldiering for me
Life post-ord not easy, UNI dont want accept me..
All my friends are working full time, only i got no money..
Every meal has to be paid for, handphone cannot charge for free..
Looks like i am left with no choice, but to go sign on army..
8:27 PM
Friday, June 04, 2010
well, i guess u all are hoping badly, but this will be my first er.. happy post/ HAHAHA. wtf. okay anyway. cohesion day was a fail today. frisbee for 2 hours before i headed over to wakeboard, and i realised, gosh. i am damn lousy. i taught my sir how to wake board alil, and ended up he could complete the whole round, while i am still struggling on my second turn. and wads worse is, i paid $32 while they paid $18, why? because they are first timers. $!^$%%(**&(*& but well, i had fun today. but damn. i will go there again sometime soon, maybe when i get back from agc. wait, i hope that aint soon. touch wood =.=
There are some things in life that don't go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can't dwell on these because you'll miss out on other opportunites. Don't give up something just because you don't think things will work, you won't know unless you give it a try. But don't hold onto something that left a long time ago, because you'll realize some things just aren't meant to be
9:01 AM
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
i wanna fly, i wanna fly, i wanna fly.
but sometimes, i dont wanna fly.
because there is a very high chance i might fail.
hmmm. contradicting....
damn.... tamworth, here i come.
3:21 AM