2 hands 1 cable 1 wakeboard.

so here i am, still pondering whether i should stay in SG or go abroad for my education. although many have said," GO OVERSEAS LA. SG WTF" but theres afew stuffs thats holding me back...

1) family
2) friends
3) my rugby team
4) food i suppose?

i dun even noe whats holding me back, and i dont know what is this feeling about that i cant explain...hmmmm..



anyway, i injured my left eye... not a good idea since i screwed up much of my work in camp and i cant exercise much... nor can i go overseas for my competition anymore.. sigh.



i have been reading a book given as a bday gift from a friend of mine, the last lecture, im sure some of u have read it, if not, watched the video on youtube, but its a very meaningful book. pls grab it if u haven done so!

been learning new things recently, diving is one of them, and its amazingly interesting when u realise u can breathe underwater without the need to go to the surface, and as u lie on your back on the bottom, blowing bubbles up, its as if the swimming pool is above u, an interesting experience, pls do try it if u have time (: cost is about 400 - 500. DONT BE LIKE ME, listen to a friend.. paid 650 for the whole package and a very bad service given.. no camera, equipment's dirty... the company is amazing dive btw.. so listen to my advice? dont learn from them.. its a scam. LOL. for those who are keen, try hooking up with NUS, get some of your friends who are studying there to sign up with u. and there, 400 dollars.. (:

i did the RSAF Openhouse the last weekend, a pretty good exhibition i must say, although there werent much changes, but im sad to say, after looking at the attitude and manners of many singaporeans, im really embarrassed to such extent, i didnt know what to say and i just let out a sigh.

" miss, the queue ends here, u have to queue at the other side"
" WHY WHY? WHY MUST BREAK THE LINE HERE? I DONT CARE! ( she proceeded by squeezing her way through, past my hands, and gave a snort) "



"here u go, thats 1 gift for these 3 coupons"
" er, can have 1 more anot? i queue so long, can laa.. can laaa.. give 1 more can? pls? dont lidat laa"



sigh.. singaporeans.. and that led me to think about how we were brought up,

the new generation nowadays are pretty spoilt and pampered.. judging by how they react to teacher's teachings or coach's way of handling things... parents nowadays complain about how tough school is on their kids, esp teachers.

have u seen a coach who flares on players? i used to play table tennis when i was a kid, and we werent given water breaks until we got a certain technique right and at the end of the day, our parents went, " thats a good coach" but at present? i bet the parent is busy calling the school, demanding an explanation on why this is being forced onto their child.

i realised, the reason why i joined a sport, its neither the glamour nor the working outs to keep myself fit. its because, through these sports, i learn valuable lessons, perserverence, teamwork , hardship , self esteem, confidence and many more i can list endlessly, its through coaches like the one i had in primary school, that i learnt it the hard way.. and even though when i was being reprimanded by my coach in secondary school, i rmbed his words clearly, " u will never beat your brother with this attitude" which sparked me to train harder, and harder, and harder.. until i finally made it to top 8.. it wasnt about how badly u were being criticized about, ultimately, its just there to provoke u, to inspire u to strive on your determination.. and achieve a greater heights.. and with this scam, my coach.. is a master at it.


frankly speaking, i have a friend, named K, an interesting fellow i must say, not to say hes a bad guy or anything, but hes a person who cant take criticism, he would start talking back, scolding, demanding reasons on why, ignore you, start thinking u hate him... but the thing is, if ure doing something badly and no one tells you about it, thats a really bad place u wanna be. because, believe it or not, those people who criticize u are mostly those who care for u and wants you to learn and achieve better. if u make a boo boo, admit to it, and change/improve.. i rmbed most of my boo boos, esp the ACSI match where i gave out at least 20 penalties that i gave away a penalty try.. and i can never forget ws saying, " its ok" and my coach throwing his cap, demanding an explanation on my attitude in the game. that pushed me on, to train harder, and here i am now, trying my best to make a permanent place in a club, and trying my very best to reach nationals, although its still a far off dream, but i never once thought i could play together with my fellow club members now, jammair, farhan, astrul and the many other national players who have taught me valuable lessons on the game called rugby.

last but not least, through sports, i made alot of brothers, although i might not be part of their life right now, nor did i make a significant impact to their secondary/jc years.. but they got me there, right square on the face... where i learnt how to watch my tone, my cockiness and last of all, being there for a brother. i hope everything goes fine for them now, as they walk their life on a different path, im sure as hell that without them, i wouldnt be here right now, typing all this crap. haha! enough with the ranting, off to bed.